deep into my shallow mind

in celebration of WOMEN'S MONTH & in ANTICIPATION OF OUR BABY :)

2007-03-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

march-- fire prevention month. rabies awareness month. WOMEN'S MONTH. one month before I GIVE BIRTH :)
since i get to watch a lot of tv during my spare time (which i actually i have a lot of... for some reason), iv seen a lot of ads recognizing women, thanking women, glorifying women. it makes me proud to be a woman. right now, im very excited & thankful that God made me a woman... id have to say that it has a lot to do with the fact that im about to have a beautiful princess mamoi (aka a baby girl, aka boknat, aka bibay) in a month. & although it has been a not-so-smooth past couple of month, the strain, the problems, the issues-- they all go away even for a short while whenever i think about this very magulo baby inside me. (& believe me, she's super gulo that sometimes gusto ko na sha awayin, especially when i find it difficult to sleep, move & breathe! sometimes, pinapalo ko na yung tummy ko to make her stop :p or i push back whenever she kicks me :p she's super gulo that sometimes i talk to her and tell her to come out na para she wouldn't have to kick me & elbow me anyomore :p) some say that having a baby is the ultimate fulfillment... the essence of womanhood. somehow, id have to agree :)

so anyway, forgive me for raving about my pregnancy... its just exciting :p

since it's women's month, id like to somehow recognize the women i admire.
if i had written this blog a few weeks ago, i would've raved on and on about kris aquino & her resilience & strength in facing the james-hope issue. but that has died down & we've all moved on. but just a quick one on my thoughts on the issue...

i do admire her for the way she handled the issue. we may never get to find out what really happened, but im trying to lok beyond that fact. basta for me, the way she acted, the way she tried to stay as strong as she could, the way she so wanted to keep the family together, especially with the anticipation of their first baby together... that i admire. it's not always easy physically & emotionally when you're pregnant. and as much as possible, you do have to stay away from stress during this time... for the good of both mom & kid. but the world wouldn't stop turning on its course & make everything favorable for you when you're pregnant (i testify!). some women get very emotional when they do not get to eat the food they're craving for. some get depressed coz they feel so ugly. normal blah issues compared to what others have to deal with. some may respect kris because of her strenght of character & her ability to speak her mind out. i respect her most because she's keeping as strong as she could during this time.

another woman i admire is one of my friends. she's my classmate, & is my mother's age. i enjoy sharing with her my thoughts & feelings, the ongoings of my life, & i enjoy listening to hers because we get to exchange opinions, & in the process, get advice from each other. she has 2 daughters almost my age & sometimes she finds it difficult to understand them. she's shared with my the mom's perspective & it has helped me understand & appreciate my mother. but what i actually admire about her most is the way she's sticking to her family & the way she admits her weaknesses, but tries to deal with them the best way she could. she's shared with us that a lot of people think that she's living a charmed life. they see her family as a perfect family. but inside her home, there are issues. everytime we talk about that, she always keeps reminding us this one thing: the bible says that as a wife, it is your duty to stay with your husband. he may do stupid things (admit it, a lot of men do :p), you may suspect (but be afraid to confirm) that he's cheating on you, he may take forgranted your feelings... but as long as he comes home to you, you have to be there for him to come home to & accept him. i know, martyr, right? but i guess that comes with the vow you take on your wedding day.

& of course, how can i not admire my own mother? she's probly the most madiskarte & strongest woman iv ever met. i know a lot of people respect her & love her. im especially proud when a lot of the talents in the place she works in calls her "mommy". just goes to show that she knows how to treat people right. she has this way with people talaga... parang it's hard to resist her. nakakaaliw how the talents would bring her pasalubong when their contract ends & they come home, or when they come back from vacation (shempre, nakikinabang ako... dami food e! :p) feeling ko, wherever they go, they keep mama in mind. & we know that that kind respect & love don't come easy... it has to be earned. i would have to say that it's not just because mama is very maboka & talks well. she's not shallow. i know that she does genuinely care for these people. what a big heart she has, ryt? & her strength, i admire. i know life has not been very easy for her. she does cry, but she goes on. she fights. at the end of the day, she survives. & the next morning, while most people in her shoes would just wish that they could go back to sleep & sleep their problems away, she wakes up, tries to be as strong as she can & faces her problems once more. i know she deserves a break from it all... & if i could, id give her that break. but for now, i just hope that she's got enough strength to get her through until i could do just that.

& my sister. id have to say that she's starting to show that she's following in our mother's footsteps. she probly doesn't know it, but i admire her & respect her for who she is & what she's done. i know that she's been forced to grow up to face all the challenges coming her way. but she's played her role well. i know it would take years & lots more challenges for her to come at par with our mother, but what she's reached now is very admirable na. i know there are times ren when she feels that she'd want to give up, but she hasn't given up & i don't see her doing that. it's just not her character. & i know she cries, but her tears fuel her to go on. i guess those tears serve to unload some of her burdens so she'd have enough strength to go on.

not all of us are gifted with a charmed life. & i guess those who feel unlucky coz they feel that they never get the break they deserve should instead feel blessed because it separates them from the rest. it makes them the WOMAN they are destined to become... not just another girl.

so anyway, back to my pregnancy :p
wala lang.. na eexcite pa din ako :)

im lucky to have had a relatively easy pregnancy, physically. i didnt experience morning sickness (siguro i did, pero ung tipong very ocassional na slight nausea lang), i didn't have weird cravings, iv been pretty healthy, i haven't ballooned & iv no edema anywhere (although iv still 1 month left & possible pa magka edema & mag gain ako ng 10++ lbs na wag naman sana! :p)... i could still do much of the things i normally did. i could still wear most of my clothes (kahet na muka akong butete :p) emotionally naman, people are very supportive. madaming excited for the baby, nakakatuwa na andaming nagvovolunteer na ninong & ninang (gusto ko kunin lahat para dami gifts itong si boknat :p). a lot of people have been very understanding & generous. i didnt even have to buy maternity clothes kase aside from the fact that most of my clothes still fit, marami din nagbigay ng maternity clothes :) i have a wonderful daddy mamoi (oo babe, wonderful ka na ren, kahet nabubugbog tummy ko pag pnanggigigilan mo si boknat :p) madami nagbibigay ng food :p

although i admit it hasn't been perfect. in fact, it hasn't been very easy. shempre, anjan ung financial worries. & some relationship strain... pero i don't want to dwell on those issue, although its getting harder & harder to ignore them, especially since 1 month na lang & guguluhin na ni boknat ang mundo :p pero basta, right now, nananaig yung excitement. or yun lang ung pinapansin ko... ayaw ko kse magpastress... i just pray that masolusyunan yun mga issues na yan (Lord, hear our prayers!) haaay, why worry when you can pray, ryt? & besides, worrying won't make the problem go away. mahihirapan lang ako magisip kung pano ko lalampasan to.

so anyway, basta yun... sobrang excited na talaga. sa sobrang excitement, nahihirapan kme magisip ni abet ng name for boknat. i wouldn't be surprised kung BOKNAT or BIBAY talaga yung name na nakasulat sa birth certificate nya. BOKNAT DANGAN or BIBAY DANGAN... sounds good naman db? wawang bata, pagtatawanan sa school. but at least madaling i spell yung name nya :p consuelo de bobo :p

sa mga friends, wag kakalimutan ang gift ha! one for the baby shower, another pagpanganak, & another sa binyag :p wishlist: ps3, shopping spree, beach trip for abet... shopping spree, beach trip for me :p pero kung si boknat lang gusto nyong bigyan, ok na din... basta as much as possible, wag clothes coz baka matambak lang un sa cabinet & never magamit sa bilis lumaki ng baby :p if ur feeling generous, pwedeng crib, stroller, car seat, rocker, mobile, maraming baby bottles & nipples & several (1 or 2) pacifiers, bottle/food warmer, baby scrap book, diapers, baby wipes, baby formula... etc etc.. or cash... if you're feeling very generous, pwedeng gift & cash :p

kakaexcite talaga... we had our ultrasound pala, kaya we know na baby girl... & kamuka ng daddy nya.

so today, im 32 weeks & five days... 5 or so weeks na lang, lalabas na si boknat! yehey!

new year, new life :)

2007-01-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!

cliche as it may sound, im expecting a lot of changes this year. some of you may know of it already, but for others who have yet to find out... you will find out soon enough :)

im awaiting one major life-changing event pretty soon, and im getting mixed emotions about it right now. of course, im suuuuuper excited. im counting the days til THAT DAY :D (that's less than 4 months away pa...) but at the same time, im kinda scared. scared coz it's really something big, something new for me... scared coz i don't know how im gonna go about it. scared coz i need all the help i can get, but im not sure where to get it. scared coz sometimes, its just too scary ;p nonetheless, the excitement overshadows the fear most of the time... im just praying that things start looking brighter the next couple of days :)

also, this year, im graduating... again :p if things go as planned, il be done with nursing by october... thank God! of course im excited, but at the same time, scared den. i mean, graduation entails job search... & this time, i have to take the search seriously. no more procrastinating. no more try this & try that. i need to find a job & stick to it. & make sure that it pays well. & that it wouldn't drive me too crazy so that i could stay with it for the next couple of years.

things aren't a 100% sure yet, but im looking at leaving the country again... to work somewhere else AGAIN before the year ends. actually, if i definitely decide on working in the US again, i must leave anytime after october this year (post grad) & before february the next year (before my visa expires)... if we decide to work somewhere else, aussie for instance, we can delay the leaving for some time... but im not sure if that would be too wise since we can not delay having to earn our own money... anyway, i hope to get a better idea of what to do pretty soon...

these are just 3 major changes im looking at this year... i know there'll be lots more... surprises, both good & bad (hopefully, good will far outweigh the bad this time around :)) i hope you guys pray for me since most of the time, i really don't know what to do.

iv always been pretty loose when it comes to changes. i mean i do make plans & all, but i don't like making strict plans coz i know that along the way, there'll be lots of surprises. what i actually do is i prepare myself to adapt to changes. i know i have to think fast, but still weigh things carefully. most of the time kasi, i can't make plans because it's not just me who's affected. a lot of people, a lot of matters come into play. and i have to consider them all. it could get crazy, but as i always say, things do eventually fall into their proper places... in God's perfect timing :) we might not understand why things have to happen in a certain way, but we just have to let it happen :D

so here's to the good times of 2006... & to better days this 2007 :D KAMPAY NA!

sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down...

2006-12-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

mommy cassie kept repeating that to me a couple of times last night. iniinggit nya ako since they were to go home early because their CI did not show up, while the rest of us were stuck in the ER. the 6 of them all agreed to take a cab going back to kuya alvin's place & get their cars instead of waiting for us so we could all head back together.

id save u all from the boring details of the story & go straight to my point.

the rest of the group found out earlier that as they were heading home, they were held up in the highway. actually, it was mommy cassie who was victimized, while the rest of them stood there shocked, shouting & crying. when they were crossing the highway, a car zoomed past them, grabbed mommy cassie's bag, & she ended up getting dragged for around 10-15meters. luckily, the only scratches she got were from her landing on the ground when she finally let go of her bag. we were just thankful that there were no other cars there to hit her, and as she was being dragged, she felt as if she was floating. she didnt get any scars from the dragging. she got a swollen right hand after she landed on it & some bruises from clutching her bag, but that was it.

i could just imagine how traumatizing that was for her, and for her groupmates to see that. imagine, 5 girls sila & kuya sam was the only guy with them...

anyway, when she stood up, another car (actually, feeling nila it was the same car with the same guys inside) passed by and asked them what happened. there were big firearms inside the car. after that, an auv passed them & the people inside identified themselves as police...

so anyway, they no longer reported it to the authorities since they did not trust the place. we just told our dean about the incident & insisted that we no longer affiliate with that hospital to protect the students.

haaaay, wala lng.. the past couple of weeks has been crazily surreal. 2 fridays ago, mommy effie's bag was snatched from her by men aboard a motorcycle when she was walking from school to the q ave station. thinking back that nyt, we were supposed to be walking with her if only we waited for her for a couple more minutes. but since the 2 friends i was walking with were quite in a hurry, we told her that we'd go ahead. when we reached panay ave, we heard some people shouting, then saw kuya sam running. it was scary since it was just us 3 girls that time & the place was not that well-lighted. when kuya sam approached us & told us what happened, we were scared. then we saw mommy effie. she already gave up on her bag & i was riding the mrt home with her, she said that she was just thankful that nothing bad happened to her. she said that it was better that she let go, instead of risking getting dragged. i agreed with her. i mean, there were worse things that could have happened.

then the next day, we got news of paul's passing away due to a VA. he was with his twin. the news was so hard to believe since i just saw him the night before during our class. basta, parang ang hirap pa ren paniwalaan.

this afternoon was our first ncm class since that happened. when i saw his gf arrive, i asked her how she was. she gave a faint smile & said she was ok. when we got sa classroom, she was crying & shaking. one could not imagine how hard that must be for her. we told her to sit with us sa class, to stay sa front instead of their usual seat sa middle. ayoko ren sa back sha umupo coz i know she'll just see their spot & that would be hard. at least sa front, she just has to face the prof. i admire her nga kse despite what happened, she did well so quiz namen kanina (habang kami ng mga katabi ko e mejo halos bumagsak lng namn :p) paul must be very proud of her.

anyway, december na & we're supposed to be happy, celebrating the season... but sometimes, parang ang hirap maging totally happy. i mean minsan, parang ang hirap salubungin ang christmas pag wala kang pera for gifts & shopping... pero our christmas should not feel empty because of that. we should just remember that as long as we have the people we love, we have lots of reasons to celebrate. as long as we're safe, we have something na pwedeng pagsalu-saluhan, no matter how simple, and as long as we're alive & healthy, we should be thankful. we should just celebrate life.

sa mga friends ko reading this, pray kayo lagi ha. pray whenever u go out, pray wherever you are. pray when ur scared, when u feel unsafe. grabe, one time, i was walking from the mrt to hi-top & for some stupid reason, dun ako dumaan sa place kung san nanakawan si mommy effie. i did not take a trike kse lapit lng ng hi-top. half-way sa street, kinabahan na ako... i kept looking back lalo na pag may naririnig akong motorcycle or trike. one time nga, a motorcycle with 2 guys passed me... e sobrang nagdadasal ako tlga non.. napadasal ako lalo when i saw them. i was praying til i reached school. nalimutan ko na kung ano gusto ko bilhin non sa hi-top :p

hay, nakakasad lng tlga. parang ang hirap to feel safe kahit saan. scary mag cab dahil malay mo ba kung topak ung driver. scary mag mrt kse i have to walk home pa magisa. kkapraning, i swear. pero un nga, pray lng ng pray... un lng naman pwede naten gawin e. well, pwede kang tumakbo o lumaban, pero malamang nasaktan ka na non o nakuhaan ka ng stuff.. kaya pray nlng na sana walang masamang mangyari...

ay, it's almost my bday, & i dont know how ill celebrate it. shempre i want to celebrate it kse this might be my last birthday (at least for quite sometime) na ill celebrate here sa pinas. on my next bday, ill probably be in the states na. yikes!

i was planning to have a small celebration here sa house on sat. nothing fancy, just an after dinner party. kaso may 7am duty ako the next day. i dont know naman if i can celebrate it on sunday kse may work naman ung ibang friends ko. next sat naman, bday na ng bunsong utol ko, so ayoko naman makisabay. besides, may outreach event kme. sa friday naman, xmas party ng tropa. haaaay, bahala na! basta i want to celebrate khet papano... wala lng. i just feel na despite everything that has happened the past year, i still have so much to be thankful for. andami losses, pero may gains den naman. parang puro struggle pero at least im alive & healthy diba? and i have the people i love.

last year, ung bday wish ko, sana maging happy naman ung people dear to me. marami namang sumaya e... this year, im wishing for the same thing. plus good health, safety & lots of blessings for us & them... mahirap isaisahin ung wish ko para sa mga taong yan... basta, pagdadasal ko nalng ren kayo :p

haaaay, after this very long post, hindi pa ren matapostapos ung pag download ko ng grey's anatomy season3 episode10! sorry, un ang aking kinaaadikan... that & one tree hill season 4. i download the episodes every week para updated :p wala lang.. kakaaliw e!

my "last" sembreak... again...

2006-11-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

just got back from a very short trip to laguna. we stayed at our friend's place, a different place than the last time. actually, we were planning to go home sunday early am. we were talking about going to tagaytay tonight & start driving back early am tomorrow. however, since our friend's mom was rushed to the hospital, we had to come back.

it was a pretty short, but nevertheless very fun trip. we left yesterday afternoon. we planned on leaving 3pm... but ended up leaving school around 4, going to the grocery, meeting up some time later over at shell @ slex, having dinner, then meeting up again somewhere.. in short, we arrived at san pablo around 10.30 pm na. & since the other boys had to pick one of our friends up at liliw, we ended up "starting" our fun around midnight. we all slept around 5 am, woke up around 11, had breakfast, went swimming, had lunch @ 5pm... then decided to head home around 6.30pm.

anyway, i just realized that this is my 2nd "last sembreak" since i have only 2 sems to go. grabe, ang bilis! & sobrang andaming adventures... wala lng.. ang saya lang in a kinda twisted way. haaay, shempre kelangan i enjoy na at back to work na kme sa monday. ang galeng diba, duty agad on monday.. at shempre, sabak agad sa ortho! so 2 wks of mon-fri duty ng 2-6 pm... tpos on thurs & fri, may class kame. and adventure nanaman ang bagong group ko. parang bawat sem na lng, nagpapalit ako ng group... 1st time, almost equal balance ng 1st & 2nd coursers, last time, ako lang ang 2nd courser (pero hindi halata.. si aldrin ang pnagkakamalang 2nd courser e! :p) this time, puro mommies naman kasama... haaaay, kung last time, andaming nagsabing i lost weight, feelng ko this sem, il gain a lot of weight... hahaha!

anyway, enjoy lng ng enjoy!

eternal hunger

2006-10-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

*edited 110406*
i wish that title was intended for some deeply profound entry... but since this blog's all from my shallow mind, im sticking to a shallow topic. so instead of talking about my eternal hunger for life's good things (knowledge, love, bliss, etc.) let's talk about food.

FOOD!!!!!

nowadays, i feel as if i have this insatiable hunger. im always thinking about food. i spend most of my waking moments looking for food or wishing i could buy this particular food... but due to my limited funds & the very limited stock of food here at home, i have to be contented with eating blue skies & forcing myself to believe it's something else.

just the other day, iv been telling abet about the places i loved eating in when i was in glendale. in that short time i was there, i realized that i spent most of my time eating, thus my unbelievable 25-lbs (conservative estimate :p) weight gain.
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let's try to remember the stuff i miss... for future reference.. (u know, like when we go there & can't seem to decide what or where to eat...)

ruby's - over at huntingtong beach... at the end of the pier... i loved their fried zucchini, fries, burgers & milkshake... yumyum! when we stayed there, my sibs & i would eat there everyday.

bucca de bepo - @ universal citywalk. i forgot what we ordered... some kind of lemon chicken, i think. basta, good food, nice ambiance, great servers... yum!

& another place in universal citywalk which sold good fries & the best strawberry iced tea.

thai bbq - our usual "last resort" when we couldn't think of anywhere else to eat.

costco - can't get enough of their pizza & chicken baked :)

this noodle place 2 blocks from my office - sulit na pad thai!

zankou - sarap nung chicken!

pampas - i think that's the name of the brazilian place over @ farmers market where jace & i ate the saturday before i went home. sarap nung food, although ull get OD'd sa waiters na OD ng steroids :p

PF chang - mejo shala shala.. pero sarap ng food e!

trader joe's - sarap nung instant shumai nila & kung ano ano pang dumplings

HK supermarket @ western - masarap ung parang dilis nila don...

mickey dees - shempre naman, hindi ko makakalimuta ung mc griddles ko na similar ung calorie content sa big mac... e kaya ko pa naman umubos ng 2 ganon sa 1 morning.. panalo!

those el salvadorean bread my mexican officemate would bring every morning.. sarap! something to look forward to sa office... actually, the only i look forward to...

ceviche that my other officemate brought a couple of times

panda express - orange chicken! waaaah!

glendale galleria food court - that other chinese fast food place where i always buy chicken terriyaki & chowmein... & that lemonade stand na masarap din ung corndogs... & that pizza place & the shish kebab place... actually marami masarap sa food court :p

wholefoods market - masarap ung chicken & corn something don! pwede na ung ceviche :)

my ever faithful arko - where i buy pinoy ulam :), nilupak, banana chips, mentos dalandan, sunflower crackers, etc etc

pretzels sa moviehouse - iba tlga e :)

portos - ung cheese something nila.. yum!

el pollo loco - burrito!

in & out - animal style fries & a double double!

pizza & buffalo wings ng pizza hut - minsan tlga nakakatempt magorder online tas padeliver ko dito :p

the seafood buffet place we ate at in ocean city - panalo! kailangan mo lng tlga sulitin kse taga sa bulsa.. pero sarap tlga ng maryland crabs.. la ako masabi!

blue potato chips whenever i fly jet blue... the best! nakakita ako non 1x sa rustans supermarket sa rockwell.. pero naman.. the price ha!

fisherman's wharf sa sfo - ung clam chowder don! (although hindi ako nakapunta don last time)

ung halibut chaka salmon na luto ni tito joey na may special sawsawan... & ung tokwa't baboy... pati na ren ung waknatoi!

& shempre, ang aking peborit na ralphs (actually pwede na ren ung ibang grocery places... but since pnakamalapit sa apartment ung ralphs, un ung peborit ko.. kakamiss na nga si manong, ung pinoy evening shift security guard don...) - anytime anjan lng sha... pag kelangan ko ng ben & jerry's half-baked chocolate chip cookie dough o chunky monkey, ng chips, ng instant noodles or rice na binabaon ko sa office... tpos ung bread, campbells na clamchowder, ung walang sawa kong juice na kung ano ano basta specially prized :p

at kung ano ano pa... hindi ko na maalala everything kse im getting a headache dahil gutom na ako... seriously...

GO 'TENEO!

2006-09-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

i should've watched the game live...

camille & k3n texted me early today to tell me that k3n had 2 extra tickets for todays game. i read the msg during our break, and i so wanted to go that i was trying to come up with an excuse so that our CI will let us, or at least me, out early. i called abet to ask him if we could watch, and he told me that he had to go home early, but i could watch with them if i wanted to.

i thought that our CI will let us out 5pm at the earliest since she said that we'd still have some discussion after our activities with our patients. so i texted k3n that i won't be able make it. at 3.40, she told us that she'd be letting us out a bit early since she had to run to cavite since some distant relative committed suicide or something.

so i texted k3n again and asked if the tickets were still available.

they weren't :(

but i guess that was fine. i mean i was getting a bad headache by that time & i dont think i could watch the game in my uniform. so i went home.

when i got home, it was halfway through the 1st quarter. so i settled into the car seat which i turned into my living room chair (i lost my eyeglasses so i have to sit near the tv when i watch). papa & i were watching the game, pretty much getting into it.

we kept shouting & protesting the ugly calls while i ate my pandesal w/ coco jam (which i bought earlier @ lung center... yumyum!) come 4th quarter, i was already standing up in front of the tv, wishing that i watched the game live...

the game was a classic.

by the time the ref called the backing violation on jc w/ 23 seconds left, papa & i were shoutng at the ref, wanting to hit them. i wanted to throw the tv, or at least throw something at it, hoping it would hit the stupid ref smack on his face. when the espiritu guy made the shot, we were cursing the refs for their stupid calls the entire game. papa & i were saying that if we lost the game, it should be protested (we agreed that it still should be protested even if we win :p)

so we were both standing up close to the tv during the timeout w/ coach black designing a play with a second left. when escalona was about to inbound, i was reciting the hail mary in my head (for the hail mary squad :p) i was actually very nervous since i remembered the ugly pass that escalona made to jai their last game against adamson. but i guess it was his chance to redeem himself fm that error... and redeem himself he did.

that beautiful pass he made to a super wide open kramer is really one for the books. & when kramer made that layup... papa & i were shouting & jumping & giving each other high fives & laughing at basti who always roots for ateneo's opponent (he feels that it's his responsibility, being a la sallian :p)

i suuuuuuppppper wanted to be in araneta earlier. i think i would've cried & hugged & jumped & pushed my friends & we'd be cheering & singing our song for mary until we were hoarse :p

kainis lng, i have a 2-10pm duty on thursdays. i wouldn't be able to watch the game :( i hope i could catch the replay, even just half of it. im expecting the eagles & eaglets to bring home the title & we'd be celebrating in ateneo on thursday :D

abet promised that we'd watch game 3 on saturday if the series reaches a game 3... but im insisting it won't. besides, i don't think i could watch that live if that happened... id have a heart attack :p

so anyway, today's pretty great. i wasn't late for duty, i had yummy breakfast at lung center (the 25pesos bbq+ rice + pansit habhabÜ) i found some yummy cocojam to bring home, i had yummy ponkan for lunch. our CI let us out early enough for me to catch the game... & we'r 1 win away fm being the jrs & srs uaap champs :p hihihihi Ü

ateneo addict mode nanaman! :p

GO ATENEO! ONE BIG FIGHT! :p

ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

2006-09-20T02:25:00.000+08:00

hihihi :) sarap nanaman maging atenista!

pagbigyan na, die-hard atenista mode nanaman e...

goodluck sa eagles & eaglets!

we believe!

nux :p

... through joys & tears, through the laughing years, we sing our battle song--

WIN OR LOSE IT'S THE SCHOOL WE CHOOSE. (uy, totoo to, i swear. di bale nang olats, atenista naman. something only true ateneans will understand.. asus! e lalo na ngayon.. panalong panalo. sarap maging atenista :p)

THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE WE BELONG ...

Mary for you, for your white & blue Ü
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which reminds me.. i still havent gotten my diploma. grabe, ang tagal na non a! wala man lang madisplay na ateneo diploma mga magulang ko dito sa bahay namen... tsk tsk...

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katuwa ren ung ateneo drumline. wala lng.. kse sobrang naaliw ako when i saw ung movie na drumline... tpos now, when i see the ateneo drumline, astig na ren.. laki na ng improvement since i first saw them... katuwa!

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baket ganon, no? when i was still studying in the ateneo, walang drumline. wala pa ung bagong colayco.. & now i read na magkakaron na ren ng kinda sorta shopping center inside the campus na ung stalls, exclusive for ateneans. astig lang...

sana nung nandon pako, may ganon na. ganda sanang org project un. year-long or sem-long, may kinikita ka. steady income, madaling mabawi ang investment basta magaling ka. kesa mag movie premiere o party na kung ano ano na maloloka ka magorganize, tas paspasang pagdarasal para kumita ung event... patok siguro meco one time big time o blue bazaar don.. pero hindi ren siguro. talo ang one time big time once people figure out a way to pile up their plates e. & ung blue bazaar, ewan... hirap maghanap ng concessionaires na sure win ang stuffables.

o khet pang policy. pero i dont think patok ung policy project namen don. talo kame sa rent e. aus na ung ama mall & ung booth sa quad 2 right before xmas break. mahirap ata magbantay in between classes. and gastos naman kng maghire kme ng magbabantay. di pa ganon ka bigtime ang I AM.

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wala lng... kakamiss tlaga maging atenista. kse naman, ang baduy sa school ko now no. duty & lec nlng forever. walang tambayan. walang school spirit. (yuck, iniisip ko lng kng magka babble sa kester... nevermind!)

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falling behind

2006-09-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

i finally really attended my ncm class again earlier... after 3 consecutive wks of not attending. 1st 2 wks, we didnt have classes due to some holiday or coz of the fact that our prof was busy. last wk, i went to school but had "class" in the lobby since we had a substitute prof who had a knack for making my mind wander while she's conducting her lecture (read: reading to us what's written on her powerpoint presentation... i could read on my own you know... i passed 1st grade with flying colors! :p) so anyway, since our prof's back, i attended class & actually ended up listening to her quick lecture. oh yeah, we finally had our long exam, and i dont think i did so well since i finished it so fast...

so anyway, i just realized that whatever i blog here gets blogged to my multiply site ren. i forgot all about that. hhmmmmm...

we're so far behind our lecture... we're having our midterms pa lng tuesday next week.. and midterms wk was last week. after midterms, we still have a gazillion systems to discuss.. hay, its gonna be a crazy month and a half!

we won't be having classes again tomorrow since our prof has to be somewhere. instead, we're having a make up class on wednesday. im still thinking about attending since wednesdays are usually my rest days. but i think i would attend since im really falling behind in cardio & thats included in our midterms next week...

i just realized how shallow my life seems ryt now. all i have to do & think about is school, duty, eating, sleeping, watching tv, going out (very seldom na nga e!) i havent spent time with the kadagirls for the longest time. noni & i had a very quick catch up chika earlier.. but that's coz i havent seen her for a month.

i hope our CI's feeling better since i actually miss having "real" hospital duty. our last rotation was in fdm OR, and since we didnt have cases (we don't get to scrub in if we had cases anyway...) i think i actually miss being a "nurse" hahahaha! i can't believe i said that. haaaay, it's just that i feel so idle when i know i should be working my butt off...

but i dont want to complain. baka mamaya biglang toxic nanaman... waaaah! no way... hirap ma toxic e!
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Where did you take your primary photo?
> legend villas

What exactly are you wearing right now?
> my chemise & a knitted sweater over it

What is your current problem?
> i think too much

What makes you most happy?
> small stuff... qts... FOOD! GOOD FOOD!

If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
> nothing... everything's fine just the way they are :)

What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
> im still in love w/ you boy :)

Any celeb/famous person you would want to marry?
> james lafferty! woohoo!

Name someone with the same birthday as you?
> my very pretty mother dear

Do you have a crush on someone?
> wala naman :)

Ever sang in front of a large audience?
> yup, nung songfests nung high school.. hehehe :p

Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
> yup... si ate allah (na kamuka naman ni marvin agustin:p) & just last wk, si mads

Do you still watch kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?
> of course!

Are you comfortable with your height?
> yup

Do you speak any other languages?
> just pinoy & english... un lng kaya ng powers ko e.. chaka ung konting natutunan kong spanish nung college :p

What magazines do you read?
> whatever's in the waiting room.. hindi ako choosy e

Fave color?
> RED! & pink Ü

Last food you ate:
> leftover menudo.. before that, konting kagat sa pizza ni abebet (he ate 4 slices! tapos nag double-pattie burger pa xa after.. diet xa ngayon e :p)

Most u collect?
> uhhmmm... ung tickets sa movies na pnanood namen ni abet? sabi nya itago ko raw kse ilalagay ko sa scrap book.. e wala naman akong scrap book...

What will you do after this?
> i dont know... find something to eat?

What's in your mind right now?
> i should start doing my reviewers na for our midterms...

2006-08-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

im taking a break from watching autumn in my heart. iv been watching it for 3 nyts (wed, thurs & tonight) and im on the 13th episode pa lng...

anyhow...

1. WHAT CURSE WORD D0 Y0U USE?
-->> t^ng!na

2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO NOW?
-->> nothing

3. WHO IS THE PERSON YOU TALK TO THE MOST?
-->> baby ko

4. WHAT TIME IS Y0UR ALARM CL0CK SET?
-->> depends.. usually 2- 2 1/2 hrs before i have to be somewhere

5. DO YOU WEAR FLIP FLOPS WHEN IT'S COLD?
-->> no

6. W0ULD Y0U RATHER TAKE THE PICTURE 0R BE IN THE PICTURE?
-->> be in it

7.WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE Y0U WATCHED?
-->> little man last nyt :)

8. D0 ANY OF Y0UR FRIENDS HAVE CHILDREN?
-->> uh huh

9. HAS ANY0NE EVER CALLED Y0U LAZY?
-->> yep

10. D0 YOU EVER TAKE MEDICATI0N T0 HELP Y0U FALL ASLEEP?
-->> nope

11. WHAT songs ARE CURRENTLY oN Y0UR iPod?
-->> a lot

12. D0 Y0U PREFER REGULAR 0R CHOCOLATEMILK?
-->> whichever

13. HAS ANY0NE T0LD Y0U A SECRET THIS WEEK?
-->> dont think so

14. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU HAD STARBUCKS?
-->> some time ago

15. CAN Y0U WHISTLE?
-->> a bit

16.D0 YOU THINK PE0PLE TALK AB0UT Y0U BEHIND YOUR BACK?
-->> yup! some can be pretty obvious

17. DID Y0U WATCH CARTO0NS AS A CHILD?
-->> of course i did!

18. WHAT M0VIE D0 YOU KNOW EVERY LINE TO?
-->> none

19. D0 YOU 0WN ANY BAND T-SHIRTS?
-->> no

20. IS ANY0NE IN LOVE WITH Y0U?
-->> ewan ko :p

21. DO YOU DO YOUR OWN DISHES?
-->> now, i dont...

22. EVER CRY IN PUBLIC?
-->> i try not to anymore

23. ARE Y0U 0N A DESKT0P COMPUTER 0R A LAPTOP?
-->> desktop doing this, laptop watching autumn in my heart :p

24. ARE Y0U CURRENTLY WANTING ANY PIERCINGS 0R TATTO0S?
-->> no

31. WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?
-->> warm when its not raining

32. W0ULD Y0U EVER DATE S0ME0NE C0VERED IN TATTO0S?
-->> i dont think so

33. WHAT DID YOU DO BEFORE THIS?
-->> was watching autumn in my heart

34. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU SLEPT ON THE COUCH?
-->> cant remember

35. H0W MANY H0URS OF SLEEP D0 YOU NEED TO FUNCTION?
-->> i can function with no sleep.. but function well, i guess 3 hours

36. D0 Y0U EAT BREAKFAST DAILY?
-->> i seldom wake up before lunchtym

37. ARE Y0UR DAYS FULL AND FAST PACED?
-->> some are.. most, petiks tlga

38. D0 YOU PAY ATTENTION TO THE CAL0RIES IN THE FOOD YOU EAT?
-->> no

39. D0 Y0U USE SARCASM?
-->> a bit

40. H0W 0LD WILL Y0U BE TURNING ON Y0UR NEXT BIRTHDAY?
-->> 24

41. ARE Y0U PICKY AB0UT SPELLING AND GRAMMAR?
-->> grammar, a bit :p

42. HAVE Y0U EVER BEEN TO SIX FLAGS?
-->> yep! love love LOOOOOOOVE it!

43.D0 YOU GET AL0NG BETTER WITH THE SAME SEX 0R THE OPPOSITE SEX?
-->> whichever

44.BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
-->> boyfriend

45.D0 Y0U SLEEP 0N Y0UR SIDE OR BACK?
-->> sometimes back, sometimes side

46. D0 Y0U WATCH THE NEWS?
-->> very seldom

47. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
-->> showering after a long day at the beach in bohol :p

48. WH0 WAS THE LAST PERS0N T0 MAKE Y0U CRY?
-->> ABET <-- bad boi!

49. D0 YOU LIKE ANYB0DY?
-->> yep! james lafferty! ahehehe :p

50. HOW'S THE SURVEY?
-->> it's done.. im ready to go back to watching autumn in my heart :p

eurosa.multiply.com

2006-08-23T04:40:00.000+08:00

iv just updated my multiply site.. actually, i just uploaded some pix & copied some of my posts here...

i have a lot of online photo albums.. iv forgotten some of them na.. but they're around :)
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i was lying in bed kanina, but i wasnt sleepy so i was just thinking about my day & how uneventful it was...

then i remembered my chika session with some of my blockmates. 4 hours of idleness ba naman... shempre, andaming chika.

some stuff i heard-- shocking... some sweet.... some inspiring... some funny...
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slowly, people are coming to terms with things. and it's nice to finally have the truth-from-my-perspective out... khet na sa few people lang.
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what's sssoooooooooo not nice about being in a small school is that your business is everyone else's business... scratch that... not naman everyone... just a few other people na hindi naman talaga concerned... i guess hindi talaga nawawala ung people na paguusapan ung buhay ng may buhay. siguro the adventures in their lives aren't exciting enough...

as i always say, people can talk all they want. eventually, talks die down. new issues come up. people forget & move on. some pretend to forget. there are a few who hold on... pero konti lang sila.

we should just let them be. let them believe the news they "heard" & passed around. let them believe the little truth they want to believe in... even if in the back of their minds they know there's more to that truth they know, hayaan na sila sa gusto nilang ibelieve.
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it's ok naman talaga for people to talk e. what's irritating is when they judge you. and when they act all author-y na andaming dagdag bigla ng story mo.
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so anyway, im not perfect & i won't pretend na hindi ako nakikichismis. but i try to hold judgment ano man marinig o makita ko. most of the time, ayoko na magpakwento e.. pero lumalabas at lumalabas tlaga ang kwento...

like ung chismis na narinig ko kanina... it's shockingly funny na nakakabother, pero ano naman, ryt? kanya kanyang buhay lang. sana masaya sha... kse ako masaya Ü
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by the way, i was acting all bitter a few nyts back. naisip ko lang how some people can get so cynical. i just got to thinking about the different reactions people had sa story ko (na dating kay gulo... pero ayos na un!). some were very supportive, and i appreciate those people... very much (oh, you just couldnt imagine how much!). especially those people who were holding on for me during those times na i so wanted to give up. thank you thank you thank you! thanks for believing when i didnt want to believe anymore. thanks for praying for me :)

then there were those who listened to my story but kept mum. somehow, i appreciate those people too.. i mean, they did not judge me. or if they did, they kept it to themselves.

there were those who i guess had their own opinions about me before, but did not let those opinions stop them from getting to know me. thanks ren! hihihi :p im not so bad after all :p

then there were others who said they were concerned about me. they said they just didnt want to see me hurt. i wouldve been thankful, but everytime i talk to them, i can see na they were waiting for me to breakdown... or waiting for disaster to strike. it got too tiring to tell them the story coz obviously, they've already come up with the conclusion that ill be broken in the end, and i guess they were too busy preparing their "you'll be ok", "you'll get over that", "you're better off without that", "we'll be here for you, just text us, we'll go out and we'll help you forget" and whatever else speeches they could come up with to show me the support i wanted.

and those who judged me with the little they know... and until now, they're holding on to that idea of me. may ganon tlaga. as i told a very good friend way back in college-- you can't please everyone... and what's great about that is you don't have to. sorry na lang sila for passing up the chance to get to know a good person. (thanks for reminding me this Ü)

to everyone- IM HAPPY NOW Ü thanks! thanks for those believers & non-judgmental people for helping me out. and thanks ren for those cynical & judgmental people... i loved the challenge. im sorry if i proved you wrong. sometimes, things DO WORK OUT... the THINGS YOU PRAY FOR... GOD GIVES THEM TO YOU... in that "package" you imagined it to be... and then it gets better. i guess i was praying for the right thing :p

sobra na!

2006-08-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

db we didnt have ncm lecture last week. yesterday, we didnt have class... & we were supposed to have our long exam today..

around 2.30 pm, as i was about to take a bath, carlo called me to let me know that our long exam was again pushed back to a later date since our prof would not be able to go to school since her sister or sister-in-law passed away (God bless her soul...) so another prof would be conducting our lecture since we had a lot of catching up to do.. with midterms coming up next week...

so i hitched a ride with brother dear, but then his car's busted... so i ended up taking a cab from petron to school... i took a cab since i thought i was gonna be late...

when i got to school, my blockmates were still outside... so i sat there with them.. then one of my classmates asked for a yellow paper for our attendance... since our substitute prof would not be able to make it to school!

haaaaaay, bad trip!

2 weeks na kmeng ncm lec! ano ba yan!

so now, i dont know if they're cutting down the coverage & giving us our midterms next week.. or we're having our midterms week after next...

it sucks... coz we miss class... then we're gonna have make up classes... hassle chong!
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anyways, finally got copies of our pictures at dencio's during the 2nd part of abet's bday celeb (aug10) :p

ayan ang kadabois! (now & a year ago:p)
o dba? shempre, ngayon, stand in si kuya coy dahil si micci nasa LA! mishooooo micci! ikaw lng kulang.. para na tayong nasa fontana.. nag vvideoke at nagiinom.. at ikaw, biglang tinubuan ng balbas... the magic of uling!

(reminiscing! haaaaay.. those were the days tlga.. inseparable ang barkada.. araw araw magkasama... movie dates.. kain sa labas, yayaan sa gh, mang jimmy's, isaw sa UP, carioca & corn sa shoppng center... )

at eto naman ang kadagels! imagine nyo nlng kung ganyan ang nurse nyo... gagaling kayo agad! hahaha, ang tindeh!!! kakamiss na ang gh shopping.. ung mga compulsary buys! pero ayos lang.. menos gastos :p

eto ang kadabears (plus some friends) ngayon & dati! andami nang nagbago.. pero masaya pa ren pagmagkasama :p nux!

hehehe.. sa wakas, nagkasama sama ren kme :) basta magkakasama... ayos!

sa uulitin! sana naman hindi once in a blue moon to!

gawain ng walang magawa...

2006-08-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

todo bum mode... didnt have ncm lec last week since mam tim was pretty busy.. duty's in fdm OR, where surgery cases are very exciting (liposuction, mastoplasty... liposuction...) :p although these procedures were all scheduled in the AM so we don't get to observe... no duty yesterday, i dont know why, but im not complaining since we get to rest.. :) no classes today since we're celebrating the anniversary of the man who died for the country he believes is worth dying for... :p

im planning to continue my "my girl" marathon... and hopefully i can start with my "a love to kill" marathon... and on thursday, i hope i get to borrow "love story in harvard" so i could watch that this weekend :)
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but for now...

1. Anong huli mong ginawa bago ka nagbukasng friendster mo?
* galing sa CR... dont ask

2. Saan ka huling nagpuntang lugar? Kailan?Anong ginawa mo don?
* maica's place last nyt... eat, drink & watch the boys gamble... happy bday maica!

3. Lagi ka bang gumigimik?
* nope... it's all school- duty for me.. & saturday date days :)

4. Sino ang kasama mo pag gumigimik ka?
* abebet & whoever mayaya namen

5. Mahilig ka ba sa Italian food?
* uh-huh! actually.. food in general :p

6. Kumakain ka ba ng isaw?
* of course!

7. Madali ka bang magkacrush?
* nope.. tumatanda na ata ako :p

8. Madali ka bang main love?
* ay hindi den :p

10. Nagagalit ka ba sa sarili mo?
* yup, sometimes :)

11. Prangka ka ba?
* before, yep.. now, hindi na mashado.. makaramdam na lng sana db?

12. Umiiyak ka na ba sa harap ng ibang tao?
* hay nako, iyakin ako e :p

13. Nakarating ka na ba ng ibang bansa?
* yep

14. Maarte ka ba?
* hindi

15. May bf/gf ka ba ngayon?
* meron... ung alaga kong mamoi na ang cute cute talaga :p

16. Sweet ka ba?
* hindi e

17. Mahilig ka bang mang-asar?
* hindi maxado.. pero kng si basti, oo :p

18. May tao na bang nakasakit sayo?
* honaman!

19. May tao bang muntik ng magsuicide dahil sayo?
* josme... hanggang salita lng ang ganon!

20. May pupuntahan ka ba bukas?
* meron.. sa skul! may long exam nga kame where our prof's expecting us to perfect it since she moved it to tomorrow when we were actually supposed to have it last tuesday

21. Kumakain ka ba ng crepe?
* yep! basta pagkain!

22. Anong pinakagusto mo autumn, winter,spring or summer?
* mid-spring, late summer chaka late winter :) arte no?!

23. Masaya ba ang buhay?
* yup! one big adventure!

24. Kailan ka huling nagkaron ng kaaway?
* last week, inaaway ako ni abebet :p

25. Anong oras na?
* 1.40pm

26. Nasaan ka ngayon? Sinong kasama mo?
* kwarto.. si vicky, natutulog behind me

27. Kumain ka na ba?
* yep! gumising ako para kumain!

28. Marunong ka bang magplay ng musical intrument?
* magoperate ng magic sing, pwede na?

29. Marunong ka bang kumanta?
* ef lng :p

30. Nagppray ka ba?
* of course!
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isa pa!

L A S T P E R S O N W H O :
1. Sent you a text message:
+ abet

2. Saw you cry:
+ me

3. Went to the movies with you?
+ abet.. we saw 2 movies last weekend :p

4. You went to the mall with?
+ abet

5. You went to dinner with?
+ abet & his blockmates.. bday celeb ni maica last nyt

7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?
+ baby ko

8. Broke your heart?
+ myself :p

9. Made you laugh?
+ ung mga hirit ni dar kagabi

10.Talked on the phone?
+ baby ko

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
+ tongue nlng

2. Be serious or be funny?
+ ayoko serious :p

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
+ whole :p pero pag cereals, skim :)

4. Die in a fire or drown?
+ if i really have to choose... pwedeng wala :p

5. Spend time with your parents or worst enemies?
+ naman.. parents!

D O Y O U P R E F E R. .

1. Gray or black?
+ black

2. Colored or Black and white photos?
+ colored naman.. im not artsy e :p

3. Lust or love?
+ love xempre

4. Sunrise or sunset?
+ sunset :)

5. M&Ms or Skittles?
+ m&ms

6.Staying up late or waking up early?
+ stay up late

some peace...

2006-08-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

schoolwise, duty's been a bit stressful since mam's giving us a lot of requirements that we need to pass, but what the heck, i won't complain since we're practically done with them.. just gotta edit our paper & pass it to mam on monday :)
and we have this long exam pa pala on tuesday... gotta study for that!

on other news, pearl finally emailed me! after over 2 months of not hearing fm her, she finally sent me this short email... but she said she'll email me her life updates on sunday when she finally gets an internet connection (she moved to her new apartment)...

still on other news...

we celebrated my baby's bday last sunday by throwing him a surprise party... and although kulang ung kadabears, at least andon naman ung blockmates... sobrang fun sha. but tinulugan ko sila for around an hour kse i havent had enuf sleep some couple of nights prior to that.. and i just came fm a 6am-6pm ER duty that time...

anyway, it was still fun... i hope he liked it! dapat lng.. the next day, he threw up ng ilang beses e!

last wednesday, we did our case pres over @ jana's. we were really planning to do it... but since the 2 laptops we had either had a virus or run slower than kuya ceasar speaking on a draggy day.. we ended up-- "doing our case pres"

and here's more other news... i was chika-ing with some friends last nyt... sobrang nakakatawa what i learned. una, it was shocking.. then i just laughed.. then lumabas na ung mga issues... haaaaaay... some people tlga o!

at meron pa!

ay, wag nlng... baka may magfeeling pag nabalitaan e...

here's a message nlng to some people (now kse parang andaming ganito e... if ur affected, baka ikaw na nga un) --

WAG NA PAGPILITAN!

un lng.

ATENEO days & then some

2006-07-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

"As an Ateneo student, were you able to..."
(X) eat at Manang’s (i miss manang's! yum yum liempo and porkchop!)
(X) learn the alma mater (mary for you... for your white & blue!)
(X) get on the dean’s list (2x!)
( ) lie down and sleep on a bench along EDSA walk (sa mecolayco!)
( ) be a TNT! (logcom po ako!)
( ) jog around the campus in the evening
(X) visit the art gallery (1x lang ata)
(X) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name (love ko si ate alma! & we still keep in touch once in a while... she texted me nung bday ko to greet.. how sweet is that?!)
(X ) get a Jesuit for a teacher (fr. mac!)
( ) itch from higad bites
( ) have gotten an F in something
( ) have taken a crap in school
(X) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game (lotsa tyms!)
(X) give a powerpoint presentation (buhay estudyante!)
(X) study in the caf upstairs
(X) watch a T.A play (required e!)
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars
(X) eat in Full House, Martha’s Kitchen, and Ken Afford
( ) sleep in the lib (mas masarap matulog sa bench o mecolayco pg wala mashadong tao)
( ) visit Mr. San Andres
(X) go to the chapel
( ) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad
( ) cut class with your block to watch a movie (patay na block!)
( ) sign up for those institutional, brilliant teachers: Ferriols, David, Manacsa, Ang, Escaler, Arcilla, Totanes, Rosario, Manny Dy, Bobby Guevara, and many others (hindi ba kasama si sir calasanz & mam ibarra dito!?!)
( ) go to CERSA night
(X) have tried siomai rice (yummyyyyy!)
( ) learn how to smoke
( ) fall in love (studies first!)
(X) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib
(X) play cards during your free time (power pusoy & speed sa bench! 99 sa regcom room :p)
(X) dress in business attire (defense chorvah!)
(X) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight (kaya nga tuluyang nasira na ang sleepng habits ko e!)
() have gotten side comments from ASSOC
( ) take (and enjoy) Saturday classes (i took a sat class.. but i so did not enjoy it! lech... maulanan ba naman ako ng laway ng teacher ko! kaya nga laging late e!)
(X) go to your immersion (and went back a couple of times to work on our eco profile of the area!)
(X) eat Food for Thought sandwiches (pag tamad na mag caf.. un ung pinaka malapit na kainan sa bench e!)
( ) get a boyfriend/girlfriend (studies first!)
( ) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors
(X) watch “Minsan Lang Sila Bata” and “Macho Dancer” for class (minsan lang sila bata for a theo class i think)
(X) do a last minute paper (perfected the art of cramming!)
(X) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures
(X) get exempted from final exams (maagang bakasyon!)
(X) attend a college mass
( ) promised to quit smoking
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest
(X) know where the best restrooms are on campus
(X) join an org (meco & regcom... saya!)
(X) allow yourself to make mistakes (im not perfect!)
( ) take summer classes
( ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening
(X) make a video for a project (ung defense ng policy! :p)
( ) have a crush on a teacher
( ) attend a Jesuit retreat
( ) have gotten a parking ticket
(X) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes (almost everyday!)
( ) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones
(X) participate in school activities
(X) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts
( ) date an Atenean
(X) ride a tricycle on campus
(X) find a tambayan (mecolayco & regcom rm... saya don!)
( ) admire the marikinavalley at night
(X) go drinking along Katipunan (tapika -- pinakamemorable ung after ng meco premier ng the fast & the furious ata... lech!, once sa katips after an exam...)
( ) learn how to beg for a higher grade (not actually beg... i had to ask sir gonzalo to recheck his computation coz i was sure i was exempted.. and i was ryt! :p)
(X) use your cuts wisely
( ) volunteer to be class beadle
( ) had the worst lottery schedule for reg (regcom po ako!)
(X) admire the trees on campus
( ) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class
(X) eat in the ISO canteen
(X) be active in your org (ef ang pagiging meco officer.. love ko un e! chaka shempre regcom.. sino bang regcom member ang hindi active?!)
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it
(X) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair (puro kuha lang...)
(X) learn how to cram (and still get A’s)
(X) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere (kelangan e! )
( ) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes (masipag ako mag notes!)
( ) have accidentally seen a make-out session
( ) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge
( ) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa
(X) learn how to work with groupmates from hell (marketing & opman! after non, hindi na namen sha friend!)
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus (the few times i had to park, i was lucky kse konti lng cars.. early am e!)
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
( ) develop a love for sisig (i learned to love sisig when i was in highschool.. AYSEE!)
(X) learn how to pronounce “AEGIS” properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library
(X) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
() have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
(X) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella
(X) have used consultation hours properly
(X) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn’t break any equipment (who didnt?!)
(X) visit the Guidance Office (to get test interpretations)
(X) and Infirmary (for my immersion clearance)
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haaaay, kakamiss ateneo days! tambay sa bench & regcom rm... regcom prep days & reg days, org events... marketing paper, opman paper, policy paper, theo & eco project... philo 103 w/ sir calasanz (ung mga kalokang long test na ayaw mong tigilan kse andami mo pang pwdeng isulat pero pagod na pagod ka na magisip & magsulat!)! accounting w/ THE venus :pa accounting long tests na mabaliwbaliw ka sa kakaaral & kakasagot... uaap!

i was telling my closest friend sa school about how i got pikon w/ my mamoi last sunday kse inasar nya akong ateneo bulok. hahaha! ang babaw no? but seriously, napikon ako... she was telling me that we should go back to being "not us" kse she thinks im getting bored with the "lack of issues"... i dont know... basta napikon ako and ang babaw & natatawa ako sa sarili ko right now :p
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kelai bought season 1 & 2 dvds of greys anatomy. i was actually planning to watch it ryt now, but i couldnt find papa's laptop & i dont wana watch it sa room nila kelay coz i wanna be lying down on my bed while watching it. oh well, iv got the entire tuesday evening & wednesday to watch it anyways...
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finally natuloy na ung MS prelims namen.. ud think na since it was postponed 2x, i wouldve studied more than enough & would just breeze through it... but no! i read my notes 1x last nyt and once this afternoon before the exam... i was so not in the mood to study... and even if i tried to, i was absorbing nothing.. so there, i just wrote whatever came to my mind.. hoping that our prof will be in a good mood when she checks it & is very considerate...
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grey's anatomy

2006-07-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

i watched 4 episodes of grey's anatomy today... when what i was actually planning to do was to study for my med-surg prelims. i could totally justify it.. i mean, we don't have class tomorrow (actually, later na pala) since they've already suspended it due to the typhoon & grey's anatomy is so med-surg! :p

so anyway, iv seen the season finale... and i like like LIKE it! watch it! and iv also seen the episode where they had a case of a woman experiencing spontaneous orgasms... she gets it like 7-8 times a day! so weird the cases they get... why can't we have cases like that?! ahahahahaha!

im downloading 3 more episodes... which brings me to 10 episodes for season2. i really should just buy the season2 dvd...

so anyway, it's taking so long to download... so survey time!
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got this fm the friendster bulletin board... it says i have to keep my answer to just one word... which is sort of difficult for me since i know i talk a lot... but ill try...

1. Yourself: happy
2. Your boyfriend: RF-addict
3. Your hair: Brown
4. Your Mother: fabulous
5. Your Father: fabulous
6. Your Favorite Item: pass
7. Your dream last night: dreamless (it was too short!)
8. Your Favorite Drink: water
9. Your Dream Home: beach
10. The Room You Are In: bedroom
11. Your Ex: friend
12. Your fears: regrets
13. Where you Want to be in Ten Years: pass
14. Who you hung out with last night?: baby ko, ward, belle, hershy, jam, cho&maica
15. What You're Not: sleepy
16. Your Best Friend: missed
17. One of Your Wish List Items: beach-trip
19. The Last Thing You Did: smiled
20. What You Are Wearing: sleepwear
21. Your Favorite Weather: spring
22. Your Favorite Book: the notebook
23. The Last Thing You Ate: pretzels
24. Your Life: complete
25. Your Mood: very-good
26. What are you thinking about right now: prelims

the show must go on...

2006-07-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

here's ur update bern! sorry ive been busy the past couple of weeks :)

lately, iv been so addicted to one tree hill that i keep bugging my brother to borrow his friend's complete 3rd season dvd... and although iv borrowed both the 1st & 2nd seasons for him weeks ago, he still hasnt borrowed the 3rd season for me...

because of that, iv resorted to watchng episodes of the 3rd season on youtube. iv seen the last 9 episodes, and i just love love loooooovvvveeee it!

i especially love brooke. i just love the way she dresses up, speaks, thinks... she's definitely changed a lot since the 1st season. on the season finale, i love her combined strength and vulnerability.

i dont want to ruin the season finale for anyone... just watch it! super nice talaga! i think i was crying half of the time.. especially when they (lucas & brooke) were arguing ryt before they were to give their toasts... when lucas told her that he feels that eversince they got back together, brooke has been waiting to push him away... and then he tells her he loves her... and comes my favorite part... when she says "how about now you show it? i am not pushing you away lucas, i am holding on for dear life.. but i need you to need me back... ok, why wouldnt you tell me about the kiss? and why didnt you call me while you were away.. and why won't you ever just let me all the way in?" and what's he got to say about it?! "please don't be mad brooke..." haaaay, he just doesnt get it! hehehe :p obviously, lucas is not my favorite character on the show... id still go for james lafferty! :p

sorry, i got carried away... hihihi!

anyway, just watch it... it's my favorite season finale so far :)

oh yea, chad michael murray is engaged.. again.. to another oth co-star.. an 18yr old girl who i think plays a small part as a cheerleader or whatever. wow, ryt?!

so yea, im watching episode 13 today.. i know i should be doing the nursing care plans for my group's case presentation.. but i dont feel like doing it ryt now...

and im looking at my friend jacey's 4th of july wkend pictures... kainggit!

im just waitng for the episode to finish downloading... hopefully, after watching it, ill be in the mood to do my NCPs :p

1st duty this sem

2006-06-25T17:24:00.000+08:00

pretty uneventful... we were scheduled for a 6am-6pm duty today. i thought dapat 7-7.. so anyway, i was late.. but our CI was suuuuuper nice... wala lang sa kanya un.

so we were assigned sa ward4... he asked us if we wanted to take all the patients there, meaning 2:1 or 3: 1 for some since there were 27 patients and 12 of us... or 1:1. easy choice!

so we had our pre-conference, patient assignments, then break. then we went back to take the 9am vs, got our patients info for our drug study & NCP... oh before that, some of us heard mass. since we were not toxic naman, our CI asked us who wanted to hear mass... i went na since i was there doing nothing. after mass, we stayed for a few minutes sa ward10 (oncology) since their conf room had a/c... wow, sarap matulog!

so after getting our patient's info, we were just sitting sa conf room, kwentuhan.. then lunch break. then we went to onco again para sunduin si sir.. kwentuhan.. soooo funny! then we went back to ward4 for our 1pm vs. tpos kwentuhan uli.. then all of us moved to onco for the a/c! then we were dismissed at 4.

actually, he wanted to dismiss us at 3, kaso the other CI from ward3 was kinda strict with the time..

oh well.. how eventful no?! next week, we're assigned sa ward8.. we're gonna request na we'd have sir rene nalng as our CI the entire sem.. every time we're assigned sa VMMC, sha na CI namen. gusto nya kase kame na lng i-handle coz we're all nice people sa group namen :p

so anyway, im planning to read a chapter for MS... bagong buhay na talaga ako.. im really gonna study na.. hahaha, i say that every sem! since i was in the ateneo! :p

but i think ill do my ncp and drug study first.. copy-paste from my old ones kse i had the same case na before :p

haaaaay, slow start talaga ung sem.. im scared lang na biglang maging toxic! wag naman sana, ryt?

AJA day

2006-06-20T12:14:00.000+08:00

flashback black saturday 2005...

these 5 girls with nothing else to do decided to hang out in my house and rant our hearts out. i provided the place, they provided the food... (they brought bohol food! chips, supersticks, etc :p)

afterwards, we decided to have dinner in metrowalk. during dinner, we talked about our state of singlehood.

a brief background of S.A.W.I.:

there are 12 of us former paulinians who later on became ateneans (with mama b as exception!) in college, we were all single... technically. but we can't help it if some love issues come up once in a while... during gatherings (xmas dinners, bday dinners and hang out dinners) it would usually be just us girls. and we'd always say that next dinner, we'd have guys na with us. pathetic no?!

so anyway, that black saturday, the 5 of us were talking and someone suggested that we needed to do something with our situation. that time, only one of us has "graduated" from the group. and we said that we should all follow soon. so we made this AJA covenant. basically, it says that at a certain date, we would all be in a relationshp or have had a relationship already. it was a weird covenant with consequences and stuff. we wrote it at the back of our chicken inasal placemats and signed and kept it.

so what happened during that year?

one got into a relationshp (she was very optimistic during aja day.. and a little over a month later, she got a bf!) but it ended due to ... uhm... ugly circumstances.

another had her ex lurking in the background... and another guy (who she insists looks like bentong) thinking that she likes him.

one found herself a stalker. an obsessed stalker who rides a motorcycle and has an MD tucked under his belt.

another found a guy who she liked and appeared to like her back... but had a gf... and denied liking her and having something with her when confronted by people.

and another who liked someone who had a gf while this guy's friend liked her. and when she started liking the guy's friend, he got himself a girlfriend and things became complicated.

... the other SAWI girls who were not present:

as i said, one already had a bf before the AJA thing.

one got involved with a guy who had kids but claimed that he was separated from his wife.

another had this sort-of relationship with a close friend, but they ended it because.. uhm im not sure, i guess the guy wasnt ready and he was moving far away soon.

one got involved with an a-hole who she left but kept going back to. she liked another guy, but she liked this a-hole more despite everything he did to her...

one was too busy with what she had to do to pay attention to the guys who liked her.

one remained single.. happily single.

and another had a bf!

so now, we have 2 official SAWI graduates. there should have been 3... but due to uhm.. ugly circumstances, she decided that she'd rather be single right now.

hay, hulaan nyo na lng who's who! whoever gets this ryt, gets to date any of the single and ready to mingle girls ng sawi... kung girl ka, u get a chika sesh.. kung guy ka, u have to take one out on a date... basta ung single and ready to mingle lang ha.. kse ung iba single pero not ready to mingle e! :p

ano buh!?

2006-06-20T12:05:00.000+08:00

seems like school doesnt like me.. or it doesnt want to start for me.

so yesterday, i was supposed to have a 5-9pm class, ryt? i told my friend that ill meet him at 4pm in school so we could talk to mam cherry about something. 3pm, my friend tin texted me asking if i had class, she was in school already. i told her i was just dressing up and will head to school after.

so i was in school around 4. met up with tin & noni. they had class 4.30. so at 4.30, they went to class and i went up to look for my friend. he just arrived so we hang out sa corridor. 5pm, we went out to eat kikiam & squid balls. our class will start 6pm raw.

6 pm.. no prof yet. all of our classmates were still outside. around 6.25, someone finally asked an admin person if our prof will arrive. she texted our prof. turns out she hasnt really accepted the task of teaching our class yet. she still had to see what her CI sked will be.

so great! another wasted day. since i was already there, i decided to wait for noni & tin to finish their class. dean paul suggested that we eat at tin's, but we decided to eat at prince kabab instead. when we were finished, 4 of our friends arrived, inviting us to 1 round of beer. we passed since we were supposed to have an orientation in lung center this morning.

so this morning, i woke up earlier than usual, had breakfast, took a bath. as i was dressing up, tin texted me that she and noni won't be going to the orientation since we were not actually required to attend this one. so ok, i changed into my "home attire" to go back to sleep.

but hell, i couldnt! damn it! so i went online.. then decided again to try sleeping.. still couldnt.. so here i am.

arggggghhhh! how crazy is this? i know i wanted a break from all the studying that's why i didnt enroll last summer.. but cmon! this is toooooo much!

oh yea, i don't have duty this 1st rotation.. meaning i don't have duty this week and next week. so talk about being idle!

muni muni

2006-06-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

continuing the thought from my previous post...

sometimes i feel that iv been left behind.. my batchmates are all working (well, not all.. some are still studying, but they either are going to law school, or getting an mba or whatver master's degree...)

they're permanent na sa company, or getting a pay raise, or promoted.. or moved to their 2nd (or 3rd or 4th or 5th...) job... some are pursuing a master's degree...

but me, im still studying, getting another bachelor's degree... and currently nagged with the feelng that i should really start planning my life.

then i miss that experience... i was working... i switched job several times... got a raise, got promoted... then i decided to come home.

sometimes, i ask myself if i made the right decision. i was already settling down there. i didnt exactly love my job, but my employers were nice (at least they were to me..)... pero tinotoxic nila ako... and my other officemates... grabe manoxic! and to think that i was their bunso! but it was fine, if i stayed a month more, i was ready to ask for a raise since i was really doing so much na then... plus my employer was already offering to sponsor me as immigrant.. green card na, hindi lng working visa! but then, i thought that 1) i wasn't really ready to stay there since i was getting more and more homesick 2) if i accepted the offer, i would have to stay with them for some years & 3) super mahal mag process ng papers

so yea, i guess coming home was really the right decision.. and taking up nursing is probably the best decision iv made so far. im really enjoying myself. i love what i do. and when i graduate and get my license, im gonna be earning real well... which means id just have to work my ass off for 5-10 years then put up a business and have the time of my life!

plus iv met a lot of great people... that probly is the best thing im getting out of this experience :)

then i realize that when we graduate, we'll be going our separate ways... and unlike the people i met when i was in ateneo, we will really go our separate ways... different countries, different states. reunions will be too hard to organize... and we'd be lucky if even 1/10 of our batch shows up to one!

e now pa nga lng, it's hard na to organize a block reunion ng ateneo blockmates ko e! last week, we had an H2 reunion, and only 10 of us showed up. but we're hoping that more people show up next time.. although i doubt if i can go to one in the next couple of months...

hay, ang sad no... "people always leave"... nux, one tree hill (gawsh, its super addicting! james lafferty! and im so loving the lucas-brooke exclusive relationshp thingy!)

hay, next year's getting me all excited, anxious, worried, happy, sad... excited that ill finally graduate and get a job (oh God bless us!), anxious coz i need to get my license & find a job that will sponsor me, worried that i might not get that license, happy since i can finally start living the life iv been dreaming of, and sad coz id have to say goodbye to most of my friends..

alam mo un, when we graduated from ateneo, we said we'd still have get togethers, dinner/movie/coffee/inuman regularly... just to keep in touch...

pero now, pag malapit na ung graduation, parang its sad to even talk about it. like you ask "o, where ka na after this?" and one goes "sa aussie" or "sa LA" or "new york" or "san francisco" at kung saan saan pa... like when will we see each other again, ryt?! haaaaayyyy...

and then, if a college friend leaves for another country to work there, we all have this get together, a despedida for that person...

e what about us? siguro we'd be having despedidas everyweek.. o baka everynight pa nga e.. or probly one big despedida for everyone na aalis...

aw, this is sad.. i dont know why im even thinking about that now.. wala lang.. the sem's just started and i should worry about doing ok sa 102 & 103.. pero kase everytime i realize that im finishing next year, i know i have to start planning na what to do after i graduate.. do i still take the local boards? where do i go? stuff like that... tpos when i think about where im going, i realize na konting people lang ung kilala ko na pupunta ren there... haaaaay... :(

super extended vacation!

2006-06-16T13:19:00.000+08:00

as it turns out, i don't have classes the entire week. my sked was changed. originally, i was supposed to have hospital duty mon-wed & sat, and lecture thurs-fri. our entire batch was crammed into one section, meaning all of us would have duty mon-wed, then we choose between sat or sun for our other duty, then lecture on thurs-fri for those who didnt take it last summer....

last minute, our fabulous school decided that it would be hard and totally unwise to cram us all into that sked since sayang naman ung thur-sat rotation. so yesterday, i went to school, supposedly for our class.. turns out i was assigned to the new section (i actually was requesting for that before pa, but dean told me someone had to make a formal proposal for it, but since i was too tamad for something like that, i settled for the original sked)

which means i went to school para tumunganga! crazy nga since i slept around 4am na the night/morning before.. tpos i woke up to mamoi's text ng 10 am.. tpos gigi texted me ren saying that she's in school na. originally, we were planning to meet at 1pm.. but she told me to take a bath na and go to school to meet them. and me, being the super masunurin girl that i am took a bath agad.

so when i got to school, i was just following them around coz i really had no business there. they were changing skeds, adding subjects and whatever.. i had nothing to do.. so nanggulo na lng ako.. i saw my sked na.. but i totally forgot. actually, i just checked who my groupmates will be. i dont know most of them since they're from the other section... but im happy-happy-glad-glad since im groupmates with my besty/shoti! hehehe :) and carlo! may kukulitin nanaman ako sa duty! yey!

so there... oh, my sked now?
mon&tues, 5-9 pm: med surg lecture
wed: IM OFF! my free day!
thurs-sat: ncm 102 duty
sun: ncm 103 duty (11 or 12 hours straight!)

how fun, ryt? RIP social life!

goodbye to H2's monthly get together... sorry guys, i can't organize those anymore since hindi ren naman ako available.. kayo na bahala! just dont forget na blockmate nyo ako.. we shared 4 wonderful years together!

and spontaneous SAWI weekend getaways? bye bye! i know hindi ako mashadong nakakasama since before coz something always comes up.. pero now, tlagang hindi na ako makakasama kse ill be in the hospital taking pictures of my patients and eating... :(

haaaaayy... its gonna be tiring and all... but i gotta do what i gotta do ryt? for a brighter future!

i just realized that im graduating (again! and i havent gotten my ateneo diploma yet!) next year... which means i have to seriously think about what im gonna do after that. this is so unlike graduating from ateneo. then, i didnt have to think about what i was gonna do after college. i just assumed that id be applying in some bank/big company or whatever here in the philippines...

then i found myself working in an interior design place in west hollywood, then at a tela importer and supplier in downtown LA, then moving to a bags manufacturer still in downtown LA, then finally in a law office in mid-wilshire still in LA...

then after 3-4 months, i was buying myself a return ticket...

and a week after, i was boarding that plane home... feeling excited but unsure...

then 2 days later i was inquiring in kester... taking the entrance exam that afternoon... and enrolling the next day!

now, 1 1/2 years after, im faced with the dilemma of planning my future.. seriously planning my future. and for someone who isn't used to making definite long term plans, this is quite hard.

i mean, iv a general idea of what i want to do... i see myself working as a nurse in some hospital (but preferably a nursing home actually) in another country for the next 5, 10 years max.

what that "another country" is, im not sure. when i was starting pa lng sa nursing, i was sure i was going back to LA after i graduate. then before my first sem back as a student ended, i decided that i want to work in australia. now, im not sure. 1st choice remains to be aussie, but then i haven't actually studied that yet (i mean, applying, the hiring process, moving there and what that entails, etc etc...) moving back to LA seems much easier, but then again, i don't know!

oh gosh, im toooooo young to think about this! im supposed to be thinking about what ill eat next lang e... im hungry AGAIN (i had lunch an hour ago!) & im craving for siopai (the one i get sa gh promenade, the chinese place between gonuts donuts and mexicali... yum yum! sobrang miss ko na un! just last year, i eat that like 3-4 times a week whenever we have our perse but i have to charge sessions in cbtl there!)

haaaaay, im hungry and bored... but iv nothing to eat here except chocolates.. and iv eaten 2 already, another one and ill have sugar drop na!

yeah, let me complain now.. coz starting next week, i won't have to complain about this anymore!

extended vacation...

2006-06-14T15:23:00.000+08:00

i was all set for classes to begin yesterday... turns out i have 2 more vacation days! (and i don't know if i should be happy or pissed!) anyway, i can't wait to go to school tomorrow, although i bet we won't be having classes yet and we'd be spending like 10 mins for introduction and then we'll be off... anyway, hospital duty starts again next week... and our sched is super gulo pa ryt now...

anyway, at least that's something to look forward to. that is definitely more appealing than spending the entire day at home, moving from the living room to watch tv, then to my room to go online, then back to the living room.. or to the dining room to get something to eat.. i think i gained 5 lbs the past week!... or the past 2 days... i dont know!

mamoi's back... and as pasalubong, he gave us LOTS of chocolates... (thanks again babe! :p) i love chocolates... everytime i open the fridge, id always hope that there's a bar of chocolate waiting for me... and often, id get frustrated coz there'd be none...

but now, when i open our fridge, all i see-- chocolates! i think they're trying to take over our house! but im not complaining. i just hope no one complains that iv gained 10 lbs by next wk!

i gotta learn to control myself. i need to make my chocolate supply last the entire sem. so id have a source of energy everytime i have duty! :p

so anyway, iv been eating since i woke up.. my stomach feels too heavy... this is what ive been doing everytime im home during the summer vacation... and it's about to end.. but id still eat... a lot... gotta survive, u know?!
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1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
.+. we were toooooooooo young for it to be legal... and it wouldnt work anyway, we're really better off as friends (hindi yan showbiz answer ha!)

2. What made you smile today?
.+. chocolates!

3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
.+. sleeping :D

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
.+. was on the phone w/ gigi

5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
.+. i celebrated my 3rd birthday!

6. Your prom night?
.+. food!

7. Last thing someone else said to you?
.+. matagal ka pa jan?

8. What was your answer?
.+. mejo

9. Worst thing currently on television:
.+. i like tv!

10. What was in the mail today?
.+. i got no mail... :(

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
.+. just water

12. What is your favorite part of the day?
.+. before i go to sleep

13. Your current To-do list?
.+. get up and do something...

14. Where is your best friend right now?
.+. SFO

15. What color is your toothbrush?
.+. green and white

16. What is out your back door?
.+. what back door?

17. Any plans for Friday night?
.+. i dont know...

18. Least favorite place to shop?
.+. anywhere's fine

19. things you bought today?
.+. none.. i havent gone out our house yet

20. Last gift you received?
.+. pasalubongs fm mamoi

21. Funniest thing that happened all day?
.+. nothing yet..

22. Favorite mug?
.+. wala e.. my tumbler :)

23. What color is your front door?
.+. brown

24. Describe your keychain:
.+. i dont keep one anymore

25. Where do you keep your change?
.+. a coinpurse

26. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
.+. freakin warm... and we didnt have ac coz we had it sa ateneo highschool covcourts!

27. Last ice cream flavor?
.+. i forgot...

28. Last rainbow you saw?
.+. gosh, i forgot na!

29. Something you are excited about?
.+. everything!

my current state

2006-05-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

nenoked from mamush's blog :p

i am: in love... nye! hungry!
i miss: baby ko! kakapanibago na wala akong inaalagaan e :p (miss na kita babe! hehehe :p)
i want: siopao sa gh... lotsa cash so i can spend a month (or 2 or 3 or 4...) in some secluded beach...
i hate: nothing.. no one.. yako ng nega vibes e!
i have: to start fixing my body clock...
i fear: cats noisily meowing at 3am...
i play: shy & innocent :p hehehe :p
i hear: my itunes playing
i care: about a lot of people.. i hope ok silang lahat
i smile: a lot.. when i remember something nice, when im with people dear to me..
i wonder: about a lot of things...
i love: my life.. my family.. baby ko.. my friends
i think: therefore i am.. I AM.. miss ko na kau! movie nyt naman jan!
i always: try to find something nice about everything and everyone.. bawal nega vibes ha!
i am not: plastic (pareho kme ni mamush!)
i sing: in the shower.. when im riding a roller coaster (hahaha, yupyup!) when im using the pc
i wish: everyone would be blissfully-in-love :p
i keep: happy memories
i can: stay up all night
i can't: drive in manila
i write: i seldom write anything nowadays
i won: :p
i lost: my sanity years back
i smell: my shampoo.. ambango! hihihi :p
i confuse: myself
i should: stop this, freshen up, curl up in my brother's bed, read a book so id fall asleep na

update

2006-05-25T04:21:00.000+08:00

here's an update on my life...

im still a total bum! and ill be a bum for 2 1/2 more weeks! i haven't been this idle since.. i dont know! hehehe...
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1) Single, Crushin', Interested, or in aRelationship?
++ "single"

2) Are you happy with where you are?
++ yea

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
++ nope.. usually not

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
++ uh huh!

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
++ yea.. like when u so didnt study for a major test since u just had to go out drinking with friends the night before! :p hehehe.. i know i should say no.. pero ang hypocrite ng dating e!

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
++ depende..

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
++ nope

8) Do you want children?
++ definitely!

9) How many?
++ at least 2

10) Would you consider adoption?
++ as a last, desperate resort, i guess yea

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do youthink is a cool way to let you know?
++ say it!

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
++ i dont play hard to get!

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating the game?
++ no

14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
++ hasnt happened to me

15) Are you romantic?
++ i dont know

16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
++ why would i want to change som1?

17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be?
++ some overwhelmingly beautiful, peacefully secluded beach :) na sobrang ganda ng view

18) Sex buddies - good or bad?
++ baaaaaaad! STDs maaaaan!

19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
++ depends kng sino, what reason, and kung gano katindi ung away :p

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now,whether they know it or not?
++ yep!

21) Have u ever wished u could've had someone but u messed that up?
++ i guess

22.) Have you broken a heart?
++ yup, mine

23.)What will happen if u come and find another person in bed with ur boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband?
++ away to!

24.) Would u ever fight somebody over ur significant other?
++ depends

25.)What would u say ABOUT your last ex?
++ he owes me money! :p hahaha! seriously.. he's an ok person

alive and kicking!

2006-05-21T03:29:00.000+08:00

gosh, i cant believe ive been a total bum for almost 2 months already!

when summer started, i thought id find a job, something for me to do since i decided not to take any subjects this summer.. (i need a break! some time away from kester please!) may's almost over, school starts in a little over 3 weeks.. and let's see... iv been busy watching tv, going online, looking after my alaga (hahaha! mamoi!) and... eating!

im graduating (again!) in a year.. a year and a couple of months, actually.. grabe, sobrang bilis! sana matapos na to.. i mean, i enjoy it.. hospital duty, lecture.. pero relying on solely my allowance is tough! why don't i get a job, u ask? hirap to get something part time, kse hospital duty sked changes... and shempre, kakarerin ko MS! i didnt take it this summer coz i dont want to rush it.. gusto ko magconcentrate tlga...

oh well.. 1 year nlng.. haaaay...

soooooo... survey time AGAIN!
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1. Fireeeeeeeeeee, what's the first thing you grab?
my bag i guess.. or at least my phone..

2. There's a fruit costume party, what fruit doyou dress up?
hmmm... green apple... tas lublob ko sarili ko sa caramel.. yumyum!

3. What do you like to eat?
anything!!!

4. Who are the women who are your greatest inspiration?
my mother

5. What do you wear to the beach?
edi beach wear! :p bikini, board shorts, slippers

6. What is your best feature?
uhhhh

7. What's your fave TV program?
one tree hill! greys anatomy! khet anong lafftrip! madtv! stuff sa jack :)

8. What do you like from Sex and the City?
carrie's thoughts

9. What is your fave kind of cheese?
depends on what im eating it with

10. What are most of your thoughts about?
where ill get money (puro gastos, wala namang trabaho & allowance!), where ill go after grad :) (ui, excited!)

11.What`s the best thing to do on a Friday night?
qt with friends.. or stay in pag walang budget :p

12. The most important thing in your life is?
the people who makes it worth living :)

13.Do you like to go to the Casinos?
aus lng.. punta lng, pero i dont like gambling, talo ako e!

14. What would you most likely add on to your house?
a super nice home theater system, a pool na surrounded ng white sand, lounge chairs & hammocks (ahem... my own little beach), chillax room

15. What kind of servant do you need the most?
someone i could trust

16. Do you feel ugly right now?
no! ahem ahem

17. Do you like to listen to the guitar or the bass?
whichever

18. Where would you go on vacation?
bora bora! mauritius! carribean cruise! key west! hawaii! bsta may aus na beach at maganda ang sikat ng araw.. aus nako!

19. What's your fave saying?
work hard, party harder!

20. What is your idea of a good weekend?
basta makapag recharge..

21. Which is healthier for you, bowl of salad or seafood platter?
seafood

22. Do you spend more time watching Tv or on the internet?
pareho lng

23.Does your partner take you out at least once a week?
nux, "partner"! we see each other at least once a week.. qt lng :)

24. Does your partner have similar taste?
hindi sa lahat ng bagay

25. Are you straight?
oh yes!
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1.Last fruit na kinain mo? bakit?::
indian mango.. un ung meron e

2. Last place na pinuntahan mo? ano ginawa mo?::
dencios sa gh.. baby shower

3. Last na kausap sa phone? ano topic?::
vicj.. tnanong nya f i got the results na

4. Last na nagtext sayo? ano sabi?::
mamoi ko.. "thnx babe Ü"

5. Last song na pinakinggan mo? feel mo ung song?::
crazy for this girl.. ehehe.. etswe na :)

6. Last na pinagalitan mo..Bakit mo pinagalitan?::
hindi ko alam.. cguro ung alaga ko... mamoi kse! :p

7. Last person na nagalit sayo? bakit?::
c basti siguro.. kinukulit ko

8. Last na softdrinks na ininom mo? bakit?::
coke.. pagubos ko nung siopao, i realized na wala akong water e.. nakiinom ako k mamoi

9. Last color ng t-shirt na suot mo?::
pink

10. Last na ka date mo? musta naman?::
mamoi ko.. it was great, thank you for asking :p

11. Last movie na pinanood mo?::
da vinci

12. Last person na iniyakan mo?::
hindi ko alam e

13. Last na binili mo? satisfied?::
siopao.. yup! sarap e!

14. Last restaurant na kinainan mo? nabusog kaba?::
dencios.. sobrang buchog.. salamat po!

15. Last Club/Bar na pinuntahan mo? ano ginawa mo?::
uhhh.. deins ko alam.. inom malamang!

16. Last na tinawagan mo? bakit mo sya tinawagan?::
mamoi ko.. asked him where kme mgkita

17. Last person na nakapagpakaba sayo? Bakit?::
ung kapatid ni little dudu :p e kala ko...

18. Last sports na nilaro mo?::
golf... sa phone ko :p

19. Last person na naiisip mo? bakit?::
mamoi ko.. hindi ko pala na replyan!

20. Last pc games na nilaro mo? ok ba?::
rf.. hehehe.. epal!

21. Last website na pinuntahan mo?::
blog ng friend

22. Ano pakiramdam mo sa pinuntahan mong website?::
walang update

23. Last bf/gf mo? Bakit?::
asus!

24. Last song na nakapagpasaya sa araw mo?Bakit?::
to be near you.. tagal ko nang iniisip kng ano nga uli un e.. buti naalala ko na!

25. Last thing na gusto mo magkaroon? Bakit?::
cash.. lots of it! bakit, ayaw nyo ba non?!

26. Last thing na gusto mong gawin pero di mo magawa? Bakit?::
kumain ng siopao.. e hindi ako nakabili e.. wala namang siopao dito

27. Last time na nagsimba ka? Bakit?::
last sunday.. e ganon e

28. Last na out of town? saan?::
almost 2 months ago.. galera

9. Last na gagawin mo before mo i close ang pc?Bakit?::
hindi ko pa lam

the sound of one heart breaking...

2006-04-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

read on... wala lng.. naalala ko lng when i was in college tas we were conducting MEcO interviews.. one of our questions was: "what is the sound of one heart breaking?" hahaha!

THE SOUND OF ONE HEART BREAKING
by Karen Kunawicz

Ever come across the Zen koan that JD Salinger used in one of his books? You know, the one that asks what is the sound of one hand clapping. I don't know the answer to that one. But ask me what's the sound of one heart breaking and I might have an answer.

Welcome to the dark side of love.

What is the sound of one heart breaking?

It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals she gave you.

It's the shuffling of the feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it's the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting, plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.

It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors in the world shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love you" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.

The sound of the waves at the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses she gave, the sound of the music she used to make going to your gut.

The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of sharpened kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear. It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of winged creatures dying and falling on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.

Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.

wala lang... ahehehe... dati, feeling ko, i could so relate to this article. right now.. ewan ko.

that certain feeling of restlessness...

2006-04-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

i have around a year and a half to go before i graduate.. and i swear, im getting bored. i mean i enjoy nursing and all.. but i really would like to work na. sometimes i wish i just took up nursing instead of management economics. why didn't i shift to nursing before pa when i was already considering taking it up when i was in 2nd yr college? haaaaay, kse naman, what's with the ateneo diploma i so wanted to have?!
hehe, but no regrets.. i mean i did have lots of fun in the ateneo. that was such a priceless experience!
and i remember, when i was working an 8-5 job (actually, 7-4 but i would usually work til 6 or 7.. when i was not really required to stay overtime.. ) i so wanted to study again.
i guess i just want the best of both worlds. earning your own money and feeling more matured and independent while holding a job, at the same time, learning and being with friends (and having some reason to be a bit immature) while in school.
so i came up with a sort-of solution. since i didnt enroll this summer (imagine, since i got back oct2004 til march 2006, ive been studying.. no summer break since i enrolled last summer! exag!!!), ill go find myself a job.. which i hopefully could still do part time when june comes around and im enrolled again. i think i could do it since im enrolling 1 subject lng naman e.. ahehehe.. but that's ncm102.. hospital duty + med-surg lecture.
oh well, sana i do find a job that i can stay in.. but i dont like tooooo much.. im a bit scared kse na if i enjoy working na, ill decide to do that full time and stop nursing e.. ahehehe.. im a bit twisted.. ewan ko! oh well! this is what idleness does to you!
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1)Who did you last go out with?-- mamoi.. nagpaka-yaya nya!

(2) What do you want to receive on your birthday?-- love, friendship, peace of mind, bliss.. and cash! hahaha!

(3) Reach your hand out to the right. What do you touch?-- electric fan

(4) What time did you sleep last night?-- more like this morning! 5am na

(5) What's the wallpaper on your computer-- the good life.. same sa friendster wallpaper ko

(6) What are you going to do 5 hours later?-- sleeping soundly, i hope!

(7) Is there anyone/anything you're thinking of now?-- i miss my mamoi! and i hope i wake up early tomorrow to find myself a job!

(8) What was the last thing you touched before the computer?-- my celphone

(10) What can you hear besides the computer?-- the tv fm the living rm

(11) Why did you answer this?-- coz iv got nothng better to do

(12) Name 5 people you saw yesterday besides the people who live in your house?-- mamoi... and the talents.. dami nila e

(13) Do you agree to the saying "Forgive is to forget"?-- forgetting is hard.. basta dont hold grudges lng.. i mean, u can remember past faults and just laugh at them, ryt?

(14) When, where was the last time tears started to roll down your cheek?-- sunday nyt (actually, monday ng madaling araw na ata un), i was lying in bed...

(15) What/who makes you happy?-- my mamoi :) small stuff.. babaw lng ako e! bonding moments.. kulitan moments.. the beach! roller coasters! food!

(16) What makes you sad?-- when someone close to me is sad :(

(17) What are your favorite books?-- dami.. basta good reads!

(18) What would you like to have right at this moment which seems totally impossible ?-- ryt this moment?! nursing diploma.. 1 1/2 yrs pa un! hehehe :) a beach house :) sobrang steady life na walang ibang inaatupag kundi beach :)

(19) Who will you turn to if you have a huge problem that not all your friends know about?-- my God

(20) What's your favorite song at the moment?-- ryt now, i could not ask for more :)

(21) What was the last song that kept ringing-- kokomo.. beach!

(22) What was the best event that happened lastyear?-- my bday :) and the week after my bday :)
_____________________________
nux.. on love naman..

They say that loving someone is thegreatest and the hardest feeling of all time...in situations like these... what will you do? Fill this out

1.pano kung mahal mo pero di ka mahal?> e ano naman.. mahal ko sha e.. sinabi ko bang mahalin din nya ako!?! (bitter!)

2.mahal ka pero di mo mahal?> thanks po!

3.mahal nyo ang isa't isa pero hindi pwede?> may paraan!

4.pwede pero pinatatagal pa?> aus lng.. waiting makes it more beautiful!

5.pwede pero maraming ayaw?> walang pakelamanan! live & let live!

6.pwede pero nagpapakiramdaman pa?> asus, kahiyaan pa e.. go lng!

7.friends naman na pwedeng more than friends?> edi more than friends nlng!

8.kunwari pihikan pero hindi?> asus.. pakatotoo!

9.kayo pero pinagpalit ka sa iba?> goodbye & have a good life!

10.kayo na nga inaagaw pa ng iba?> asus.. no comment!

11.hanggang dreams mo na lang talaga siya?> kung tipong james lafferty.. tanggapn nlng!

12.or friends lang tlga dapat kahit mahal mo?> minsan tlga ganon.. aus lng!

13.madami pang iba... san ka ba dito?> edi inyo na!

14.nagsisinungaling sayo nanakikipagusap pa siya sa ex niya?> bat kelangan pa itago, deins naman ako jealous type!

15.nahuli mo na nakikipagbalikan siya sa ex niya habang kayo?> ay aba, no comment ako! kng ako ung ex, deins ko babalikan! (ahehe.. based on experience!?!) kung ako ung current, goodbye & have a good life uli!

16.nahuli mong may iba, tapos gs2 niya pagsabayin kayong dalawa?> ay, no comment

17.mahal ka niya pero hinde na siya masaya?> sus, may paraan!

ahehehe.. barubal love survey a! hahahaha!
_______________________
last na for tonight...

Q: Who's the 4th person on your received calls?
A: wala

Q: What's your main ringtone on your phone?
A: just the nokia tone.. whatever

Q: What were you doing at midnight last night?
A: txtn my mamoi & watching tv

Q: What does the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: "Thnx babe..Ü *hug* *mmmwwaah* iloveyou too babeÜ"

Q: Whose bed did you sleep last night?
A: mine, of course!

Q: What color shirt are you wearing right now?
A: weird, prang gray na parang brown na sando

Q: Most recent movie that you watched?
A: iceage2

Q: Name 3 things that you have on you at all times?
A: my heart, my brain, my skin

Q: What's the color of your bedsheet?
A: little mermaid color (dami colors e!)

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A: not much

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: breast

Q: What's your favorite town/city?
A: hhmm..

Q: I can't wait to (til)...?
A: next year, late next year

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: kanikanina lang, before ako pumasok ng room

Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
A: last nyt

Q: When was the last time you talked to them?
A: ma, kanina.. pa nung sunday

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: pizza!

Q: How long have you been at your current job?
A: been studying since nov2004!

Q: Look to your left, what's there?
A: pader! (ui, that rhymes!)

Q: Who is the last person you spent over P500 on?
A: myself

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: vicky

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: gmail

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: i dont drive one

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: ung dried roses that mamoi gave me 7 months ago...

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my eyes are starting to get tired

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A: QC

Q: Do you own a camera phone?
A: uh-huh

Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: hot white chocolota mocha

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: sunday ng madaling araw ata

Q: Have you been in love with anyone?
A: im in love (with a stripper... :p)

boredom strikes again...

2006-04-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

1. Initials:
- ecn

2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
- my mother!

3. Last thing you ate:
- cheese bread

4. For or against same sex marriage:
- doesnt really matter...

5. Last person who texted you:
- mamoi!

6. Last person you hugged:
- mamoi ko :)

7. Do you believe in God:
- i sure do!

8. How many US states have you been to:
- 5 (6 if you count arizona.. border ng arizona & nevada.. u know, a la a walk to remember!)

9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in:
- 1

10. Ever lived outside of the US:
- uh yea

11. Name something you like physically about yourself:
- my smile/pout

12. Something non-physical you like about yourself:
- im... nice!

14. Why are you still up?:
- too early to be sleeping!

15. Who made you angry today:
- none! im so happy i dont think id get angry...

16. Favorite type of Food?:
- any.. id eat almost anything.. mamoi moves!

17. Favorite holiday:
- christmas.. the entire season!

18. Do you download music:
- uh huh!

19. What illegal things have you done:
- bought pirated cds, downloaded music.. im bad! so sue me! :p

20. Where would you want to go on a first date?:
- khet san.. basta gud company!

21. Would you date the person who posted this before you?:
- d kme talo...

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?:
- sang.. yea.. ung nangaasar..

24. Do you like Bush:
- sophia bush! sooo puuurty! but dubya?! no way!

25. Have you ever bungee jumped:
- nope...

26. Have you ever white-water rafted:
- nope.. my life so lacks adventure!

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?:
- hahaha!

29. Have you met a real redneck?:
- nope!

30. How is the weather right now:
- steady...

31. What song are you listening to right now?
- the world is our playground and we will always be home

32. What are your current fav songs?:
- hihihi!

33. What was the last movie you watched?:
- ice age2! wahehehe! u just gotta love sid!

34. Do you wear contacts:
- yep!

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house and school?:
- yesterday, shang

36. What are you afraid of?:
- regrets

37. How many piercings and tattoo's do you have?
- 4 piercings no tattoos

38. How many pets do u have:
- 5-- 2 brothers, a sister & 2 dogs!

39. Have you ever loved someone:
- yup! :x

40. What turns you on?:
- someone i could talk to and make me laugh... sweet!

41. What do you usually order from Starbucks:
- hot white chocolate mocha (pero sometimes, id go for hot chocolate or iced caramel macchiato para maiba)

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
- nope!

43. Are you missing someone:
- pearl.. i miss you sis!

44. Fave TV show?:
- OTH! james lafferty!

45. Do you have an iPod?:
- yup!

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?:
- oo, lech si ate allah e.. para mahal ko un.. khet kamuka nya si marvin agustin!

47. Whats your mom's name:
- rose marie

48. Who would you like to see right now:
- mamoi ko! pearl!

49.Favorite band of all time (ONLY ONE):
- wala.. band namen ni sheila & gix nlng...

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?:
- wahehehe..

52. Favorite flower:
- tulips!

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn:
- holy kettle corn!

54. What books are you reading:
- i gotta start reading these books that are piling up...

55. Have you ever ridden in a limo:
- yup! anna's wedding.. hihihi.. riding with the bride & her family since i slept over their place kesa naman magcheck in ako!

56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?:
- nope! i mean, si tatay, but we havent seen each other for years..

57. Do you watch MTV:
- sometimes

58. What's something that really bugs you:
- curfew!

59. Whats your favorite hobby?:
- tunganga trip!

60. Do you like Michael Jackson?:
- aus lng...

62. Favorite basketball team:
- ateneo men's basketball! hehehe!

63. Favorite cereal:
- gawsh.. forgot what its called.. basta ung cinammon thingie.. hehehe!

64. Do you drive:
- used to!

65. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?:
- almost 50 hrs ata un...

66. Last time you went bowling:
- october2005 w/ sawi! gotta do that again grls!

68. Who was your last phone call?:
- tin last sunday pa

69. Last time you were at work:
- uhm... 1 year & almost 6 months ago!

70. Whats your favorite state to be in:
- delaware coz u can shop tax free!

71. Whats your favorite color:
- red po!

2006-04-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

*Mad Section*
1. what do you do when you're mad? cry, sleep...

2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? think crazy thoughts...

3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yup, sorry!!!

4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad? nope.. i dont get physical

5. do you curse when you're mad? somtyms...

*Crying Section*
1. last time you cried your heart out ? last last wkend...

2. ever cried yourself to sleep? hehehe.. yep!

3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yup..

4. do you cry when you get an injury? i dont think so...

5. do certain songs make you cry? dati un...

*Pain Section*.
1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?? hindi ko alam.. gave up on that person, i guess

2. how depressed can you get? hindi naman sobra.. im a happy person e!

*Happy Section*
1. how much do u smile? most of the time...

2. what can make you happy?simple things.. everything-- when im in love.. wahehehe!

3. do you wish you were happier? im pretty happy ryt now...

4. what about being with your friends, does that make u happy? yup!

*Love Section*.
1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them? yup! ganon magmahal!

2. did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her? aba, shempre naman...

3.have you loved someone so much, it made you cry? hahaha.. yea... cry because i was frustrated.. cry because i was so happy..

4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yup!

*Hate Section*
where's 1?..grrrrr...

2. have you ever hated any one that broke your heart? nope..

3. do you hate Bush? i dont really care abt him

*Self-Esteem Section*
1. is your self-esteem extremely low? nope!

2. do you believe in yourself? i do, most of the time!

3. what do you say when people say they think you are good looking/pretty?ui... hindi naman.. *pa shy effect* wahehehe!

4. are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat? nope.. im no idiot... :p

5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough? nope! i love my life...

6. are you happy with who you are? yupyup!

my best vacation so far...

2006-04-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

a-z

2006-04-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

A - Age you first believed in love?:::bata pa ako non.. i thought it was love.. now, im thinking if it was real.. wahehehe!

B - Band listening to right now?::: kung ano ano.. puro chill.. the gud life!

C - Course you are taking up???::: BS Nursing

D - Dream Car?!!::: khet ano.. basta maayos ang takbo.. d naman ako maselan e!

E - Easiest person to make u laugh?::: mamoi! laging laugh trip!

F - Food you miss most?::: ung baked chicken sa costco.. im suddenly craving for it! & ben & jerry's choco chip cookie dough..

G - Any encounters with ghosts?::: none, thank God!

H - Who is in your heart right now?::: marami! my friends.. my family.. ya know...

I- Interesting unknown fact about you?::: im very shy.. *blush*

J - just tell me who's the last person who broke your heart?::: myself

K - Kissing with eyes opened or closed?::: closed!

L - Last time you did fight?::: last weekend...

M - Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute?::: most recent.. the one the pops into my mind first.. my most GALERA TRIP

N - Nicknames?::: eu, yo, mamoi

O - Open Up! What's your most valued possession?::: my life

P - Place you are right now::: pc corner sa room

Q - Quote you heard for the last two minutes?::: wala naman

R - Remember the last time you cried?:: cry as in cry.. last weekend.. ung naluha, last thursday.. natouch ako sa sinabi ni mamoi e :)

S - Song you sang last?::: butterfly kisses :)

T - Time you woke up?::: past 11 ata

U - Use love in a sentence.::: im in love.. with a stripper! woohooooo t-pain!

V - Vegetable you hate most?::: okra

W - What are you most afraid of?::: regrets

X - X-rated love life?::: wholesome to!

Y - Year you were born?:::1982

Z - Zodiac sign?::: sagittarius

change...

2006-03-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

my goodness...

finals week na! and after saturday... im free! no more homeworks, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks.. hahaha! but that's not the best thing about summer break (na bitin since we have summer class.. then another summer break!) you know what's keepng me sane despite my forthcoming exams? the BEACH!!! wahooooooooooiiiiiiiiii!

hay, sobrang stress lng the past couple of.. i dont know! i cant remember kung kelan ung last time na walang issue na hnaharap! i mean since i enrolled in kester, parang 1 big adventure to another.. madalas overlapping pa! i mean, hindi lng naman sa school ung issues e... i dont know if this is because im growing older kaya the issues are growing ren.. basta, it could get depressing.. pero that's not me! iyak lng sandali.. then life goes on!

hay, but i can't be strong naman all the time, ryt? sometimes, gusto ko ren magpaka weak.. coz it's so tiring to be strong all the time.. grabe, ung effort and all! haaaaaay.. kng pwede lng sa beach na ako tumira.. steady life.. why not?! haaaay, i need to go to the beach before i go crazy!!!

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pwede ba naman mawala to?!

1. what are you doing other than typing? reading

2. who do you always text? moi, dwardie boi, tam, ate allah... and the rest of the people of the sun! hahaha.. switch to sun na para masaya lahat!

3. status right now? single and ready to mingle! ehehehe.. single

4. Who's always with you? these days.. moi & 2l

5. what do u plan of doing today? sleep, then go with papa as scheduled, then go home and study...

6. what's your fave fruit? strawberry, mango, persimon, kiwi... actually, khet ano!

7. where you at right now?my room

8. who are you with?online with tin, with my sleepng brother sa side ng room nya...

9. when was the last time you went to church? this afternoon

10. who was with you then?my pets.. aka my gorgeous siblings

11. Do you have any enemy? wala.. im nice!

12. do you spend much on your phone bills? nope!

13. what sim do you use? smart & sun

14. where are you going tomorrow? out

15. what's your cellphone no.? 0921 something something.. and 0922 sumthin else

16. what time is it now?12.55am

17. If life will give you the love and chance to spend the rest of your life with someone, who would it be?? that someone God's made for me.. nux!

18. who are the people you would never want to lose? my family.. and basta sila!

19. Have you ever been in love? uh-huh!

20. Have you ever ridden a trike? yep.. shempre naman!

21. Have you ever ridden a jeepney? yupyup!

22. What are you wearing right now? blue tank & gray boxrs

23. Do you know how to swim? yup!

24. Do you wear fitted shirts? if i have to

25. Who is your dream girl/guy? :D

26. Do you love sports? watchng them, yea

27. What are your hobbies? khet ano, basta fun!

28. Do you do bar-hop? nope!

29. Do you find yourself cute? oh yes! uh-huh!

30. Describe your personality? it's complicated! (haha.. every aspect ba ng life complicated?)

32. How many brothers or sisters do you have? 2 brothers, 1 sister.. + 2 sisters pa pala!

33. Would you rather spend the day with your bf/gf or friends? sama sama lahat!

still not sleepy...

2006-03-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

just got home... past couple of days have been so crazy... what with "proclamation 1017"... texts of bomb threats, bomb scare, uncertain national situation...

and it only gets worse... haaaay... its just sad that parang andami kong friends na may problema... iba ibang issues... i dont know na nga kng sino ang pinaka "its complicated" e... haaaay.. let's all stay strong.. kaya naten to! inum lng.. cheers! (oo na, hindi un ang solution...)

haaaay.. wala lang.. parang-- what's wrong with this world? bawal ba maging masaya?! im not being bitter nor pessimistic.. it's just that for every happy friend i see, meron 3 sad friends... what's up with that?!

oh well, life goes on. things will eventually fall into place. in God's perfect timing... (how many times do i have to say that to convince myself?) wala lng...

sometimes, it's just so hard to pretend you're ok.

personally, i think im ok. i mean, iv been in this situation for how many months na. yea, there's no getting used to living in sh!t.. pero ewan ko ba. i just keep on looking at the good stuff that's happening.

i mean that there are times na i ask myself if tama pa ba ung gnagawa ko. kng kaya ko pa... yea, kaya ko pa.. pero tama pa ba...

and then something nice happens... and i realize that i have reasons to stay... small sweet stuff that remind me that this is worth it. ewan ko... basta, im happy... it may be hard but im still happy...

as for my friends, i just hope that you're all happy...

life may be hard, but whatever you're going through, ull realize that it's all worth it. basta, nothing beautiful comes easy. ang iniisip ko nlng.. everything that's happening.. nanjan sha to help us appreciate our lives more. pag naging ok na.. mas ichecherish naten un kse andaming hirap na pnagdaanan para maabot yon... aun lng.. sabaw...

kaya survey nlng!

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1. Where did you go last friday? - yesterday? school, then bang coffee with tin & gi, then jacks loft with sawi.. last friday.. megamall, then strata, then sm north to watch rex navarette (gawsh.. saya! lafftrip chong!) then esquinita

2. Did you have fun? - shempre!!!

3. Who were you with? Were they cool? - bang coffee-- tin & gi; eastwd -- sawi grls, jacob & cho; mega & strata -- manna, jhed & chie; rex & esquinita -- manna, jhed, chie, tin, jr & mamoi :)

4. What time did you sleep last nyt? - before 3 am

5. Have you gone to the beach just w/ your buddies? - yup! punta tau!!! beach.. beach... beach..

6. Do you love sunsets? - yup! lalo na sa beach...

7. What's the best thing you have ryt now that you don't have a month ago? - ewan ko...

8. when is your b-day? - 12-10-82

9. What are your wishes for your birthday? - my last birthday.. na sana everybody happy!

10. Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of your birthday? - my family & friends

11. Have you ever felt that you've been taken for granted? - yup... sad...

13. Do you miss your school? - ateneo?! sobra... mas madali buhay don e... steady

14. What's the best thing that happened to you? - dami e!

15. are you sleepy at this moment? - nope.. damnit!

16. Is there anything else you want to do besides answering this survey? - matulog.. sana antukn nako!

17. What's the most important sentence/s that lingers in your mind right now? - a ewan.. sabaw.. ang gulo ng utak ko now e...

18. Double Dutch or Rocky Road? - chunky monkey or half-baked choco chips cookie dough

19. Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedez? - chocolate cake

20. Do you know how to drive? - when i have to.. pero kng may ibang magddrive, hindi po ako marunong...

21. What's the highest speed you've driven? - ewan ko... careful driver ako.. basta naaalala ko, 65 sa 40 speed limit zone sa los feliz.. tpos naalala ko na hindi pala pwede suhulan ang mga kanong pulis.. pech!

22. Do you like drag racing? - aus lng..

23. Do you know how to play the guitar? - hindi..

24. What song is in your head right now ? - something stupid.. kse un ung ngpplay sa itunes e

25. Is there anyone you wanna talk to at this very moment? - yup!

26. Who's the last person you texted? - mamoi :)

27. KFC or Kenny Rogers? - kep-c

28. Beach or Mountain? - beach chong!!!

29. Do you find yourself sexy and beautiful?? - oh yes, y not?! it's my blog!

30. Do you have accomplishments this past week? - hindi ako uminom tonyt.. on a friday nyt! & i got home before midnyt.. sankapa?!

31. Hotdogs or cheesedogs? - whichever

32. Do you like Shawarma? - yup! gusto ko shawarma now na.. gutom nako!

33. is there sum1 ur misin ryt nw? - yup!

35. Do you love someone right now? - yup! madami... love ko kayong lahat!

guess what ima do...

2006-02-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

survey!

hehe.. but before that..

to my friends who expressed their condolences over the passing away of our tatay vic-- thank you. no more tears... tatay's a great man... im glad he was there during our childhood.. hay, happy memories! but he's gone of to a better place now.. where no one and nothing can hurt him or make life difficult for him anymore...

tatay -- ung bilin ko sayo ha! hehehe :)

haaaay.. aside from that, life's been pretty crappy but bearable. i dont know.. im still alive though.. to my friends who pray-- please include me in ur prayers... hihihi :)

so on to my real purpose--- survey time!

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what did you think? when i first looked at myself-- halatang walang tulog.. pero hindi halatang may problema :)

2. How much cash do you have on you? 40bux... and some loose change... hehehe :)

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? ~ best

4. Favorite planet? earth (love your own!)

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call liston your cell phone? sa both phones- wala, 2 lang each kse i switchd sim cards kaya nabura ung list

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? ~ wala.. jologs ako e

7. What shirt are you wearing? plain blue shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself? no... hindi ko nga maintindihan sarili ko e...

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currentlywearing now? im wearing slippers-- havais

10. Bright or Dark Room? dim pag tamang chillax, bright pag nagaaral

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? got this fm friendster.. i guess she's bored at work

12. What were you doing at midnight last night? drinking & tamang steady sa tagaytay

13. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? sa sun-- something abt kulitin si mam para idismiss early... sa smart -- about stuff needed sa duty.. hehe, hindi ko matype exactly kse my phones are on vicky's bed.. katamad kunin...

14. Where is your nearest 7-11? starmall, corner ng shaw & edsa

15. What's a saying(s) that you say a lot? steady ka lang jan.. in God's perfect timing.. (nux, hindi pa ren nawawala yan!)

16. Who told you they loved you last? si mamoi last nyt.. tagal ko nang hindi narinig un a.. how'd it make me feel? haaaaay.. madrama e

17. Last furry thing you touched? little dudu

18. How many days of school did you miss this week? none.. ay, 1 ata.. im not sure if may class but i couldnt go kse burial ni tatay vic un e

19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none.. d na uso un e!

20. Favorite age you have been so far? 16.. after a relationshp, walang lalaking pinoproblema.. 21-- daming adventure

21. Your worst enemy? wala!

22. What is your current desktop picture: pic of kats, mamoi, me, jr & chie outside solas nung bday ni jan

23. What was the last thing you said to someone? "pakuha nung cp ko" to yaya

24. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose? million bucks.. muka namang tanga if you see me flying, db?

25. Do you like someone? no.. nux!

26. The last song you listened to?currently listening to i miss you love.. kakatapos lng mag play ng sandalan

27. Carmen Electra or Pam Anderson? neither..
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1. what kind of first impression do you think people say when they first see u? i guess it depends on my mood.. if we meet na good mood ako, ud probably say na makulit.. if quiet mode, shy.. if bad trip -- quiet...

2. what's one thing you like to do alone? magmunimuni, mag solitaire sa phone, manood ng dvds

3. what is your favorite line to say when u're drunk? "for love, money or sex" sabay toast.. hehehe.. khet hindi pa drunk, basta inuman sesh..

4. how many drinks do u need before u get tipsy? pagratrat, tipsy at 3 bottles.. pagsteady & nasa condition, 4 or 5 cguro...

6. what kind of books do you like to read? khet ano, basta recommended ng friend...

7. do you think you're cute? nope.. im gorgeous. ahem ahem.. blog ko to, walang kokontra...

8. do you have a problem changing clothes in front of ur friends?nope.. walang hiya ako e

9. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night? whatever's insyd.. sana may chocolate.. or fruits.. pag wala, ok nako sa yakult...

10. describe your bed? just right for me.. magulo...

11. spontaneous or planned? more on spontaneous..

12. do you know how to play poker? nope...

13. what do you carry with you at all times? smile/pout... haha.. feelng may camera lagi!

14. what do you miss most about being a kid? goodness, dont get me started! weekends at my my grandparents'... weekends/holidays at our laguna place... sleepovers sa pinsan... the babaw problems... sana hanggng ngaun, ung pnoproblema ko lang.. how to get away with skipping my pm nap.. haaaaay!

15. are you happy with your given name? yup! pero hindi ba parang bitin.. still thinking of changing it to eurosa maria veronique.. hahaha!

16. what color is your bedroom? mostly white & brown.. no coordination.. office kse dati ata to e

17. have you ever been in a play? yup... school stuff

18. do you like yourself and believe in yourself? i love me & i believe in me most of the time...

19. do you consider yourself to be a nice person? generally am.. pero may demonyita side na lumalabas pag napuno

20. do you spend more time with ur girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? im technically single.. so i spend my time with my friends tlga...

21. what's one thing you wish you could do but can't? live sa beach... haaaaaay...

22. what is your ideal wedding location? sa beach.. pero gusto ko pa ren sa san sebastian church e...

23. whats one instrument you wish you could play? im so not musically inclined...

24. whats one language you want to learn? for some reason, french

25. have you ever pierced your body parts? earlobes lng

26. do you have any tattoos? wala!

27. what's one trait you hate in a person? backstabbers, "the world revolves around me" attitude

28. do you consider yourself materialistic? minsan yea.. like when im sad.. sometimes feelng ko, buying something is the solution to my problem.. pero hindi rn.. hehehe!

29. what do you cook best? i can microwave whatever you cook!

30.favorite person/s to talk with on the phone? pearl! mamoi!
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1. if there are 3 wells (love, beauty & creativity) & you could only drink from 1, which would it be?>> love!

2. with problems, whom do you run to?>> God, my friends (hehe... ang una kong kinukulit madalas, si mikko & pearl...) & whoever's there & is willing to listen.. i really tell people my problems.. para hindi mabigat sa heart!

3. which finger is your favorite?>> my left middle & ring fingers... wala lng. sila lang mukang matino e

4. what's the most disgusting thing you've ever eaten?>> wala naman. hindi ako pihikan e.. if kadiri un, hindi ko kakainin...

5. would you tell a guy/girl you like him/her?>> if the time is right.. yea! haha, usually sinasabi ko pag hindi ko na sha like...

6. if no, why?>> if hindi ko sabihin, babaw lng kse ung feelng..

7. if you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead?>> me!

8. do you like your handwriting?>> minsan.. pero sometimes nakakainis kse even i can't understand it

9. who are you jealous of?>> wala naman

10. what kind of person do you want to marry?>> someone i can talk to about anything.. someone i can laugh with, someone who makes me laugh.. someone who loves me unconditionally.. someone who's honest saken... someone whose plans are similar to mine.. someone i love unconditionally.. basta, my perfect God's gift :)

11. where were you last kissed?>> if we're talkng about an anatomical landmark, then sa lips.. if place, sa may gate nila when i was about to leave

12. what do you put on your sandwiches?>> khet anong palaman na trip ko

14. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?>> yup! tpos babatukan ko sarili ko, iiyak ako with me.. tatawa.. makikitrip...

15. are you a daredevil?>> if it's about taking risks.. i think oo

16. where were you last night?>> starbux morato, then tagaytay

17. do you drink beer?>> do i?! hehehe

18. who do you think is the most adorable animated character?>> lilo!

19. do looks matter 4u?>> not really.. basta appealing saken, ayos na!

20. what colors suits your personality?>> pink.. blue.. un lagi ko suot e!

21. do you pray?>> yup! sometimes i forget.. pero most of the time yea..

22. are you trendy?>> nope.. i wear whatever's comfy saken

23. what do you do to prevent anger?>> sleep...

24. who is your idol?>> i admire a lot of people coz of diff things

25. what does d 4th txt msg says in ur mobile?>> sa smart: "mya na.. Wla naman aamoy e.. hehe Ü (fm mamoi.. kadiri, hindi pa naliligo, 3pm na! hehe..) sa sun: "anu na pala ang nangyari sa inyo ni ****?" (fm robi ni mikko..)

26. names in your missed call list?>> sa smart: papa & vicj, sa sun: papa & lora

27. what was your favorite toy as a child?>> play doh? polly pocket? my barbie van?

28. what will you do after this?>> tunganga, sound trip.. mag solitaire sa phone

29. what are you waiting for?>> maayos na to.. steady.. peace of mind.. maging happy kame lahat!

30. the last time you were happy, it was because..>> of him :) (kelan pa ba un?! hahaha!)

puro survey nalng...

2006-02-13T02:41:00.000+08:00

i know i havent been posting anything but surveys for the past weeks.. i dont know.. i guess my life's just this one big, crazy circus. so tired of thinking about it.. of talking about it.. so i guess il just live it-- and hope id experience something blissfully nice, totally blog-worthy soon :)

so anyway, back to what i do best.. SURVEY!

1.Color of most clothes you own.
pink, blue

2.Number of pillows you sleep with?
4 big ones, 3 small ones, smiley & little dudu

3.What place are you in right now?
bedroom

4.What were you doing 12AM last nyt?
was in esquinita w/ friends

5.How old will u b in 10 years?
26.. hahaha! :p 33

6.What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
having the best days of my life :)

7.Do u hav braces?
had

8. R you paranoid?
i think im becoming one.. tsk tsk

9.Describe your wallet?
pink magic wallet filled with lotsa crap and almost no cash

10.your alarm clock?
my cp

11.Your hair?
1/3 black, 2/3 some weird color im trying to grow out...

12.Tooth brush?
purple oral b

13.What color r your eyes?
dark brown

14.First enemy?
hehehe.. cant remember if sila tlga ung 1st.. but the guys fm 1st grade. siga kame ni shine non.. we fyt guys!

15.First play/musical/performance?
preschool days.. every one had to be part of somthing!

16.Last movie seen in cinema?
cant remember.. i think narnia pa...

17.Last person you yelled at?
most probably si mna.. thats how we normally talk.. we yell!

18.Last crush?
james lafferty!!!

20.Last ice cream eaten?
vanilla & strawberry @ dads

21.Last thing written by hand?
answers sa inm midterms...

22.Last time you want to die?
ung serious, never!

23. When was the last time u went out @ night?
last nyt..

24. What were u doing last night?
early evening, i was in eastwd w/ manna, then we saw jv & noni, so chika for a few minutes.. then manna & i walked across libis to eresto.. (coz for a change, we wanted to hang out somewhere not in the morato-timog area...) but there was a upjma event.. so we ended up in esquinita again..

25. Why do you like yourself?
i just do.. coz if i didnt.. then who else would?!

26. What r your plans for tomorrow?
sleep in til before noon, have lunch, shower, go to vmmc for our duty...

27.When was the last time you got angry?
not really angry.. sooooper disappointed & pissed lng.. last nyt. oh, i just hate it when people think the world revolves around them & ung mga mashadong nagmamagaling & nagmamalinis.. and super user people! ung mga people na ambilis manlaglag ng supposedly very good friend just to save his/her ass.. pero pag nagkaproblema sha, unang lalapitan un.. ewan! hey, im not perfect, but at least i admit my imperfection & dont think im better than almost everyone else!

28. What was the last song you heard?
currently listening to eternity, robbie williams

29. what is it about the opposite sex that gets you?
ung madaling makasundo.. someone who could make me laugh.. physically, eyes.. then lips :)

30. what are 3 things that you cannot live without everyday?
cellphone, lipgloss, wallet

31.current music that's playing?
ligaya- kitchie's version

32.can you list three things that are taking up space on your table?
the monitor, printer & lotsa trash

33. What do u want 2 do now?
feel sleepy.. fall asleep as soon as i lie down :)

34. what's the colour of ur room?
mostly white & brown

35. what's the first thing you ate this morning?
rice & fish

36.what shampoo do you use?
ryt now, citre shine
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1, Ever been given a ring?
fm mama & papa.. does that count?

2. Longest relationship?
1 yr, 7 mos

3. Last gift you received:
hmmm.. i forgot..

4. How many times have you dropped your cell?
ung smart, more that i can remember.. ung sun, 2x. ung 1st time, it wasnt me pa who dropped it!

5. Last Sport youve played?
does solitaire marathon count? i can play it on my phone for hours!

6. Things you spend a lot of money on?
food!

7. Three things you ate last?
rice, tapa, kamote cue

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
physically, eyes..

9. One favorite song:
ryt now- cant think of one particular song e...

10. Where do you live?
shaw

11. High school you attend(ed):
st paul pasig

12. Cell phone service provider
smart & sun

13. Favorite mall:
greenhills counted?! hehe.. shang i guess.. un pinakamalapit e...

14. Longest Job held:
on paper.. calendar clerk at some law office... but actually, i was my bosses' slave.

15. Do you own a pair of dice
no

16. Do you prank call people?
used to.. haha!

17. Last wedding attended?
pearl & jomar's... (miss u much sis! uwi ka na kse e!)

18. First person you'd call if you won lottery:
i dont know..

19. Last time you attended church:
kanina

20. Favorite fast food restaurant:
kfc

21. Biggest lie you have heard:
hahahaha.. lets not talk about this now.. iinit uli ulo ko!

22. Where do you work:
estudyante uli!

23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends:
anywer basta masarap & cheap ung food...

24. Can you cook?
i can microwave...

25. What car do you drive?
i dont drive e..

26. Best kisser?
:p

27. Last time you cried?
yesterday while talkng to my friend for life.. naglalabas lang ako ng frustration ko.. aun, iyak sa sobrang inis!

28. Most hated food:
wala naman. i think i can eat anything... hehehe!

29. Thing you like most about yourself:
i dont know...

30. Thing(s) you hate most about yourself:
wala!

31. Something/someone you hate:
see above.. my A to Q 27 sa earlier survey...

32. Longest work shift worked?
wala naman..

33. Favorite Movie?
jerry maguire!!!

34. Can you sing?
while intoxicated, i believe i can.. hahaha!

35. Last concert attended:
the stupid boyz2men concert last year.. kainis ung mga kinanta nila e..

37. Last movie rented:
dvd bought & watched-- chicken little

38. Favorite Alcoholic drink:
beer lang, aus na!

39. Things you never leave home without:
my CPs, wallet, lipgloss

40. Immediate vacation spot:
basta beach!

survey muna..

2006-01-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

i blogged something, but i was not able to post or save it.. so eto nlng muna...
1. Do you like chinese food?
yup! i like food. period.

2. How big is your bed?
small.. sakto lang saken :)

3. Is your room clean?
now it is.. just dont open my closet...

4. Laptop or Desktop computer? whichever..

5. Favorite comedian?
khet sino.. basta napapatawa ako.. (sa mga gusto ng lafftrip, dl kau ng pablo francisco.. soya! lafftrip tlga! & shempre, rex navarette... soya!)

6. Do you smoke?
whatchathnk?!

7. Sleep with or without clothes on?
minimal clothes.. hehe!

8. Who sleeps with you every night?
little dudu beside me.. vicky in the same room, but the other bed

9. Do long distance relationships work?
depends sa people in it..

10. Pancakes or French Toast?
both!

11. Do you like coffee?
tea!

12. How do you like your eggs?
overeasy :D

13. Do you believe in astrology?
kung pabor sinasabi, y not?!

14. Last person you talked to on the phone?
abet

15. Last person on your missed call list?
papa

16. What was the last text message you received?
"Ubusin mo na.. hihiya ka pa e..."

17. Mcdonalds or Burger King?
McDonalds

18. Number of pillows?
4 big, 1 smiley, 3 small

19. What are you hearing right now?
text alert tone

20. Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?
oh, this is the start of something good.. dont u agree?

21. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J
strawberry!

22. Can you play pool?
olats!

23. Do you know how to swim?
yup!

24. Favorite ice cream?
half baked choco chip cookie dough (para hindi mshadong sweet.. and less guilt!), chunky monkey, ung Kahlua whatever ng btic

25. Do you like maps?
kaaliw!

26. Tell me a random fact about yourself.
im always hungry

27. Ever played spin the bottle?
yup!

28. Ever attend a theme party?
yup!

29. What is your favorite season?
spring! ay, la pala non here.. summer nlng :D

30. Favorite quote?
wahehehe.. wag na!

31. What happened to number 32?
who knows?!

32. Last time you laughed at something stupid?
hahahahaha!

33. What time did you wake up this morning?
10.30

34. Best thing about winter?
uhhhmmm... i dont know.. hot chocolate?!

35. Last time a cop gave you a ticket?
never got a ticket.. parking violation, counted ba?

36. What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex?
eyes, then lips.. then chin :D

37. Name of your first pet?
dale

38. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?
johnny depp! orlando bloom!

39. What are you doing this weekend?
paka steady!

still surveying

2005-12-30T16:34:00.002+08:00

1. the last movie you watched?
Ako Legal Wife.... wahehehe.. u have to see it.. lafftrip!

2. the last tv show you watched?
news last nyt

3.the last song you heard?
pare ko - spongecola

4. the last thing you bought?
some tops fm gh nytmarket... someone stop me.. remind me i need to save up for future trips to the beach!

5. the last place you went to?
gh nyt market

6. the last food you ate?
banana ref cake made by my adorable baby brother (na hindi na baby)

7. the last thing you heard from anyone?
bye

8. the last thing you said to your parents?
alis ako mamaya (to papa)

9.the last thing you said to one of your friends?
wala lang

10. the last thing you read?
surveys fm friendster... but if u mean a book, i just finished at first sight (my 5th book for the xmas break... woohoo! im catching up!) and ive started reading the choice (thats 6!) :)

Who was...
1. the last person you called?
hmmmm.. i dont know...

2. the last person who called you?
aira

3. the last person you texted?
yvette

4. the last person who texted you?
yvette pakbet

5. the last person who said good night last night?
abet culelet

6. the last person who said I love you?
wahehehe :)

7.the last person who gave you a testimonial?
rapapie

8. the last person who messaged you[friendster]?
tin, my friend who's so in love :) (im soooo happy for u tin!!!)

9.the last person you hugged?
basti

10. the last person you saw on tv?
news people

Do you...
1. believe that love is forever?
oo naman!

2. get hurt by people easily?
nope...

3. believe that all people are generally good at heart?
oh definitely!

4. sing in the shower?
i sure do!

5. like to splash puddles when it rains?
depends what im wearing

6. notice when people have pretty eyes?
uh huh!

7. do you tend not to worry, even when you know something bad is about to happen?
yea... i tend to not worry, which can be bad somtyms...

last few questions..
1. Can you be anyone you want to be?
of course! with a little hard work, some luck & a lot of determination!

2. Do mean people make you sad?
if it's someone dear, then yea..

3. Does ice cream make you happy?
if its ben & jerry's choco chip cookie dough or chunky monkey.. then yea, that does the trick! otherwise, give me twix, & ill be jumpng around :)

4. If you see a pretty girl walk down the street, do you smile and tell her she's pretty?
i dont actually tell her (mapagkamalam pa akong lesbo...)

5. Have you ever cried at a movie?
yup!

6. Is it cute when old people are holdinghands?
yea! awwwww....

7. Are you a happy person?
generally am!

8. Is it okay to cut off Barbie's hair?
yea.. just make sure ur parents dont see u do it!

9. Have you ever laughed so hard your stomach hurt?
hihihihi! yup!

10. Are you slightly lazy?
nope! im suuuuuupppppperrrrrrrrrr lazy!
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PRESENT:
1.Wat song are you listening to now?
with a smile - south border (wooohoooo.. ultraelectromagneticjam trip nato!)

2. Color you are wearing now?
gray boxers, white & aqua tank

3. Now, who's on ur mind?
jacey... since she's coming home & im sooooo excited! & of course...

4. Now, what lyrics do you like so much?
loving myt be a mistake but it's worth making :) (ryt now.. coz i was singing that kanina)

5. Where do you feel like going now?
the beach!!! bring me to the beach please!!!

6. What movie do you want to watch?
marami! da vinci, xmen, mi3, superman, etc.. basta movie trip!

7. Now, what do you want?
cash... for trips to the beach & shopping! (wahehehe! i have reasons to go to the beach! wahoooo!)

8. Current mood right now?
excited... pero tinatamad kumilos (i should be getting ready to go out...)

9. When is your birthday?
10dec82

10. Where did you buy ur bag/s?
kung san san

11. where did you buy ur pencil box?
it was given to me by my favorite twin

12. How was school today?
xmas vacay! 2 days of it left...

14. Worst subject?
acctg 10...

PAST:
1. Last time you fell in love?
wahihihi!

2. Last movie you watched? with whom?
Ako Legal Wife w/ ai

3. Last shirt you wore before the shirt you're wearing now?
my white, blue, pink striped collared tee fm AE :) hihihihi :) lets go shopping there!

4. Last thing you held?
my tumbler

5. Last place you went to.
gh last nyt

6. Last dream
i cant remember

7. Last call you received?
fm mike g

8. Last testi you got?
fm rapapie

9. last message you got in friendster?
fm tin... or was it adi...?

10. last sms to?
yvette pakbet

11. last thing you did?
drank water

12. last present u got?
some accessories & slipprs fm kelai

13. last present you gave to someone?
necklace (& tonight's exchange gft...)

14.last issue u read in the newspaper?
i havent left my room to read the papers yet..

LOVE LIFE:
Who's the first person you fell in love with?
my ex

COMMON:
1. Madali bang mahalata na may topak ka?
yea... i guess so

2. Matagal ka ba maligo?
if i dont have to be somewhere asap... then yea, let me enjoy it!

3. Kumakain ka ba ng vegetables?
yups!

4). Tamad ka ba?
hindi a!

5). nagpplaystation kba?
nope!

almost 2006

2005-12-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

2 days left in 2005... gawd!

i can't believe it's been a year!

i read through my almost new year post last year.. and i came across my i hope you dance post...

"living might mean taking chances, but they're worth taking. loving might be a mistake but it's worth making..."

i must say that although 2005 was not one of my easiest years, im not complaining. i went through a lot, yes, but i also learned a lot.

i learned that God always takes care of me... & i don't even have to ask :)

i learned that no matter what happens, i have a beautiful home and a wonderful family to come home to.

i learned that i have wonderful friends who are always there... no matter what.

i learned that even if i go through crap, i could always rely on my family & friends to be there for me.

i learned that although i have made lots of new friends (mainly coz i decided to study again...) my old friends are still there, and every time we get together, it's as fun as before.. i wish we could all get together more often!

i learned that we should never be afraid to take chances.

i learned that we should always fight for what we believe in.

i learned that sh!t happens, so we shouldnt really sweat too much.

i learned that when we're just about to give up, something wonderful happens.

i learned that when we surrender everything to God, He does work miracles.

i learned that when we pray, we don't always get what we pray for... but it does give us a lot of strength to go on...

i learned that there are a lot of guys out there (what was i thinking?! for how many years... stuck on 1 guy... wahehehe.. no regrets!)

i learned to "fall in love" again...

i learned that some things do hurt, but then it's actually really up to us how much it'll hurt.

but although i learned a lot, there are still some, okay A WHOLE LOT MORE things i need to learn...

i need to learn to balance what i feel & what my mind says.

i need to learn to be less hard-headed... coz i know im not always right.

i need to learn to be less moody.

i need to learn to stick to my decisions.

and a whole lot more.. shempre, sobrang dami nyan...

wala lng...

i must admit the past couple of days have not been very easy for me... but im surviving...
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so my wish for everyone this coming year?!

GOOD HEALTH, PEACE, LOVE & HAPPINESS

ADVANCED HAPPY NEW YEAR, U GUYS!

tis the season...

2005-12-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

to be merry... to love... to be loved... to be genuinely happy... to set aside our problems & differences...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
(sorry for the slight delay!)

anyway, i hope everyone had a great Christmas...

the year that was.. the year to come

2005-12-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
pretty much... sorbang daming adventure... sobrang daming problems, but hey! it wasnt so bad Ü

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
gawd, sobrang dami! i guess pearl's wedding?! galera? bagasbas? tambay with my friends.. dami e!

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
hmmmm... let's not talk about that now...

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
dun sa old house, celebrating new yr w/ our wonderful neighbors... (awwww.. kakamiss un!)

5) Who were you with?
my family & our neighbors :)

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
most probably here at home

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
my family

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of2005?
i dont think i made one...

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
still thinking..

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
uhhhhmmmm, uh huh!

11) If yes, with who?
do u even have to ask?!

12) If yes, does he know?
he does!

13) Are you still in love with him?
am i!?! yea!

14) You regret it?
definitely not!

15) Did you break-up with anyone in 2005?
how do u break up w/ anyone if u weren't with anyone to begin with?!

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yupyup!

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
no favorites.. they'r all great!

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
december :)

19) Did you travel outside of the Philippines in 2005?
yup!

20) How many different places did you travel to in 2005?
hmmm, within the country-- galera, bicol, pampanga... then outside-- vegas & LA

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
nope! & im thanking God for it!

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yea...

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
hmmmm.. HITCH! harry potter & if only!

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
dami ren e.. kng ano ano!

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
wala

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
1... haha & it sucked kse we didnt hear the song we wanted to hear!

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
wala

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
hahaha! did i?!

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
nope.. gudgel!

30) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
NO...

32) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
haaaaay....

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
if i did, im sorry!

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
am i complaining?

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
more than i shouldve!

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
uhhhh... i dont know!

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
wala naman

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005...
hmmmm.. what good would it do?!

40) What are your plans for 2006?
be a better me Ü

survey lang!

2005-12-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

LAYER 0NE: 0N THE 0UTSIDE
Name: eurose castro nodalo (eurosa maria veronique castro nodalo)
Birth day: dec10
Birth place: pasay city
Current location: mandaluyong

LAYER TW0: 0N THE INSIDE
Your weakness: moody? needing reassurance... PMS is the pits!
Your perfect pizza: hawaiian + tomatoes or pepperoni... actually, khet ano basta pizza!

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, T0DAY,T0M0RR0W
Your most overused word/s: steady, ayos!
Your best physical feature: uhhhmmmm... i dont know
Your most missed memories: steady days

LAYER F0UR: Y0UR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: neither... rootbeer or sarsi lang :p
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds!
Single or group dates: single-- as in one-on-one? un nlng.. although group dates are fun ren.. Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: doesnt matter
Chocolate or vanilla: whichever
Cappuccino or coffee: tea.. hihihi

LAYER FIVE: D0 Y0U?
Smoke: no :p
Single: do i single?! yea... (oo na, technically!)
Take a shower: sure do!
Have a crush: oooohhhh, james lafferty!
Think you've been in love: yupyup!
Want to get married: i sure do!
Get motion sickness: nope!
Think you're attractive: yup.. my mom told me i am :p
Think you're a health freak: nope! hehehe... is having ice cream or chocolates for breakfast ever healthy?!
Get along with your parents: yupyup!

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST M0NTH
Drank alcohol: yup!
Gone on a date: yup!
Gone to the mall: yup!
Been on stage: nope!
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i havent eaten oreos for the longest time.. penge oreos!
Eaten sushi: yup!
Gone skating: nope!
Stolen anything: yup! kisses! wahehehe :p

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE Y0U EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yup... highschool days
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: hahaha!
Been caught cheating exam: our proctors are nice... :p
Gotten beaten up: nope!

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING 0LDER
Age you hope to be married: hmmm... around 27 cguro :)
How do you want to die: not sudden, not painful
What do you want to be when you grow up: a very happy woman :)
What country would you most like to visit: bahamas! french polynesia.. and whatever exotic place na pwedeng puntahan...

LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color: i still prefer dark brown
Best hair color: black
Short or long hair: short
Height: basta taller saken :)
First date location: khet san.. basta Qtime :)
First kiss location: khet san ren

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I could trust with my Life: hmmmm... 7?
Number of CD's I own: i dont keep cds... i burn them then lose them :p
Number of piercing: 4
Number of tattoos: none
Number of times : times what?

vacation mode!!!

2005-12-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

vacation mode = tunganga trip! (everyday is a tunganga day for me, kaya dapat everyday bakasyon nlng!)

anyway, i was supposed to go shopping today... hafta buy christmas clothes, and gifts for family & friends.. pero tamad mode nanaman e. i have a few more days to go shopping anyway...

so im just staying home... ill probly watch some dvds later... then really start reading these books that are starting to pile up. i have 6 books to finish! wahehehe... never got to finish any nung sembreak e!

pero later na un.. for now--- guess what time it is... SURVEY TIME!!!

1.Will u still love the person who once hurt u?> if im healed na and i see that it's worth giving another shot, then why not?!

2. Will u go out on a date with a person u know is already committed with someone?> ahem ahem...

3. Would u steal the person u love most from ur friend/sibling?> never from a sibling! (& that includes my adopted sisters! wahehehe!) kng friend, hmmm.. wahehehe! nope, i won't!

4. What's the nicest thing ul do for love??> i don't know... bahala na... it comes naturally :p

5. What's the least thing ul do for love??> ewan ko ren

6. Will u give ur ex a second chance??> i did, he didn't take it.. :p

7. What was the best thing uve done for the person u love??> uhmmm.. pwdeng coming soon?! hindi ko pa alam e

8. If u get stuck on an elevator with your ex what will you say?> catchng up! miss ko na makausap un ng seryoso e!

9. Will u give ur partner a big kiss in front of many people?> of course!

10.If ur ex fooled u once, will u still give your trust to him?> mahirap na...

11. What will u do if u caught ur partner with someone else inside your room or bed?> huwaaaaa!!!! ano gnagawa nila?!

12. If you will be given a choice. Will u drink abottle of wine one-on-one with ur partner or with ur crush?> partner!

13. If you can only save one person on a crashing plane, and u dnt know anybody there, who would it be??> aside fm myself? probly the person beside me..

14. You are with your partner on a party. Your ex asked you to dance with her/him even for just a couple of minutes. Will you u dance with her/him knowing that your partner is with you?> i dont know.. if they're friends naman, then pwede siguro.. ill ask my partner muna.. baka awayin ako e!

15. Will u still give a present to ur ex on his very special occasion?> yea, y not?!

16. If u hear the word love who comes into ur mind first?> ahem ahem...

17. You won 2 tickets for a concert. Who will you invite? Your partner, ex or ur crush?> whose concert? partner malamang.. or ill probly trade it up with some friends.. bigay ko ticket, libre nya kme dinner.. wahehehe!

18. Will u do a big favor for ur ex now that you're already friends??> yea, why not?! iv been doing him favors naman tlaga e.. and sha ren naman, he does me favors ren... see, we're really friends e :D

19. Now, who u are thinking about??> ahem ahem.. do u even have to ask?

20. When did you last talk w/ your partner?> partner? im single! wahehehe... kanina :) (o, sino nagsabi non?!)

21. Your favorite past time with your partner?> partner? who partner? kulitan & inom (sino nanaman nagsabi non?! e wala naman akong partner!)

22. Message to your partner?> wahehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe :)

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1. Pick 1 of your scars out now. How did you get it? this scar sa lower back ko.. my souvenir fm bohol.. i was showering & i hit my back sa faucet, skin got scraped... actually, d lng skin kse malalim tlga e... ouch!!!

2. What's on the walls of your room? my side of the room? ateneo paraphernalia fm uaap games, my bead curtain, pictures

3. Would you rather play or watch football? watch nlng

4. What sport would you say you're good at? good at? wala e.. magikot sa mall.. that a sport?

5. What was your worst nightmare? i dont know...

6. Apples or oranges? apples :D

7. Grapes or watermelon? grapes :)

8. Wolves or tigers? uhm, neither?

9. What sort of music do you listen to? khet ano

10. Have you ever written poetry? when i was very young.. i stopped writing nung nagka bf.. wahehe.. baliktad ba?

11. Do you remember birthdays? usually do!

12. Do you know what time you were born? 7.20- 7.30 am? not sure exactly what time.. basta its 7ish

13. What's your fave phrase to use? "wasap for you man?" or "aus yan!"

14. Are you a sweet person? hindi mashado.. :p

15. What were you doing before you started filling this in? eating.. im still eating.. im always eating!

16. What is your favorite gum? i dont like gum, i get gas e...

17. Fave chocolate? TWIX! do u even have to ask?!

18. Fave candy? eclipse! hehe.. paubos na ung stash ko..

19. Chocolate or vanilla ice-cream? kng plain, vanilla.. pero i love choco chip cookie dough & chunky monkey, both very chocolatey.. so ...

20. What is the first thing you notice on someone? (opposite gender) eyes... hmmm.. come to think of it.. his appeal pala

21. What's your fav smell? bagong ligo :)

22. Fave sound that you hear often? sound trip!!!

23. What are you thinking about right now? what's going on?!

25. What color are your eyes? dark brown

26. Have you ever slept with a stuffed animal? yup! lage :)

27. What's the name of the stuffed anmal? my newest one: little dudu

28. Who was your first crush when you were little? ay, ewan ko...

29. What kind of hair do you like on the opposite sex? basta hindi long & hindi skin head...

30. Who out of ur friends (same gender) have you known the longest? uhmmm.. ibang mga SAWI.. si jew ata e... ung as friend fm then until now ha...

31. Sunrise or sunset? sunset! lalo na sa beach... perfection!

32. Where can you see urself being proposed to/at? i dont know.. basta simple lang..

33. Movies? dami! basta jerry maguire ang all time fave!

34. Where can you see urself goin for your honeymoon? BEACH! bora bora, bahamas... wahehehe... actually, kahet san, basta beach, masaya na ko!

35. Can you play an instrument? nope

36. Band/s? no faves

38. What kind of books do you like to read? those recommended by friends

39. Do you like poetry? aus lng...

40. How do you like your coffee? i dont like coffee.. i prefer tea :)
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1.do you envy somebody this very moment?+no, not really

2.can you tell whether a person is lying or not?+ sometimes.. pero mahina ata ako sa ganyan e...

3.are you a backstabber?+ uhmmm.. hindi naman!

4.who is tattooed on your mind?+ wahehehehe

5.ever had a secret admirer?+ aba, how'd i know?

6.what was the last movie you watched that made you cry?+ i cant remember..

7.do you have a friend who's pretty?+ all my friends are pretty... u know what they say about birds of the same feather, ryt?! wahehehe..

8.do you have a lot of bestfriends?+ konti lng

9.do you cry when you get low grades?+ uhhh, no! ano buh?!

10.what is your favorite song nowadays?+ these past couple of days... crazy for this girl :)

11.who freaks you out the most?+ wala naman

12.who is the prettiest girl you know?+ my mother dear... wahehe.. safe answer!

13.what is the song that keeps playing on your mind?+ crazy for this girl

14. are you in love right now?+ & what if i am?!

15.is he/she in love with you too?+ & what if he is?! wahehe.. i dont know-- go ask somebody else!

16.if you could rewind time, at what moment would go back to?+ wala naman...

17.who is your biggest enemy?+ myself

18.is there somebody you love whom you love more than yourself?+ yup

19.have you experienced having a fight with the person you have feelings for?+ have? no.. had-- yea

20.what song can you relate to?+ uhhhhh...

21.do you torture other people?+ wahehehe.. pangasar lng

22.who do you like better sam or uma? (for girls)uhhh, neither.. not really a fan

22.Are you in favor of Romeo and Juliet's relationship?+ i dont know...

23.What is the best love story you've ever known?+ mine.. wahehehe...

24.what are you looking forward to?+ christmas, new year... and i mean both the celebration during new year's day.. and 2006... kse i feel that things will be better :)

25.do you think that time stops when you finally see the love of your life?+ it gets warped...

woooohooooooo!

2005-12-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

i havent posted for quite sometime since iv been "busy" these past couple of days. "real hospital duty" finally started (i dont consider our first rotation a real duty since we went to the clinic 2x lang, and all we had was a very short orientation, lecture & a 10-item quiz). next rotation was in fe del mundo pedia ward... super petiks lang.. all we did was take vital signs, change bed linens & tunganga.

then there was my bday... thanks to everyone who greeted me! and for my friends who celebrated with me. thanks for the gifts. thanks thanks for the prayers :) love ko kayong lahat! * hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug hug * dami nyo e!

(manna sa likod, me, sean & abet)

my first pic as a 23-yr-old me :) shempre, bday na bday ko, may saturday class ako @ 9am... as expected, late kame. umalis pa before class started to have breakfast... got there late, and dismissed early!

(manna, noreen, mik, za, jacob, mikko & me)

mga early birds! mikko was earliest... wahihihi!

KDB na always present :) thanks bears!

next time na other pix... natatamad ako mag upload e!

survey time!!! woooohooooo!

1.Latest na narealize mo?-- when you surrender, things start falling into place :)

2. Dapat gawin pag nalulungkot?-- cry, sleep, dvd marathon, kumain ng twix & magshopping!

3.Motto mo about LOVE?-- it's worth every bit of it...

4.Favorite food?-- ay, marami! japanese! pizza! pasta! twix! chinese! home-cooked meals.. and just about everything else...

5.Favorite Place To Be?-- khet saan, basta steady. steady setting, steady friends.. & steady inom!

6.What's the title of the song that's stuck in your head right now.?-- paano.. gary v. pinadownload kse ni kelay e! yan tuloy.. & pinakamagandang lalaki sa mundo.. yan tin ha.. ako nahawaan mo! LSS?!

7.Pangarap mong summer get-away trip?-- basta beach.. steady bummin buong summer... lifesabeach!

8.Isang bagay na hinding hindi mo tatanggihan?-- happiness! woooohooooo! e ang babaw ko pa naman...

9.Masayang libangan kapag umuulan?-- magtututulog, tumunganga, dvd marathon, read a bk

10.Isang bagay na pag-iipunan mo nang husto?-- pag travel.. road trip man yan or whatever.. patusin ko yan! and my future beach house (kng hindi ko kayanin, ill take my uncle's offer to share one with him & his family.. hehehe, olats!)

11.Gagawin mo sa susunod mong birthday?-- kakatapos lng ng bday ko.. fresh pa e.. so next time ko na isipn to!

12.Hindi mo makayanan o matagalan?-- sobrang yabang, ere, feelng & mapagmata na people.. (sorry, low class ako e! aus na un kesa tulad mo!)

13.Gusto mong panoorin sa sine?-- kingkong! next yr, marami! wooohooooooo!

14.Do you love cooking?-- if i knew how to, i think i would :)

15.Paano ka ma-badtrip?-- tatahimik

16.Matagal ka ba maligo?-- wahehehe! sorry! pero pag late na ako, kaya ko ng less than 30 mins!

17.kumakain ka ba ng vegetables?-- yupyupyup!

18.Tamad ka?-- HINDI a!!! ano ka b!?! ako pa!

19.sino palagi mong kausap sa phone?-- wala

20.sino palagi mong katext?-- si abet (galeng, khet wala shang phone ha! aus dn!) ate rosette, & people na naka smart & sun pag naka unlimited ako...

21.sino ang kasabay mong umuwi?-- usually wala

22.Are you a busy person?-- yep, im usually "busy"!

23.What/who do you hate most?-- hmmm.. life's too nice to hate anything/any1!

24.What makes you happy?-- what?! life & the small, trivial, beautiful things about it :)

25.if given a chance to have one wish, what wud it be?-- that all the people i love would be happy lagi :)

26 why?-- para goodvibes lahat!

27. in love?-- watcha think?!

28. 10 yrs from now, what wud u be?-- a wife & mom (uyyyy, dati hindi ako ganito! wahehehe!), working somewhere... having the time of my life... feeling so complete! wahahaha.. eurose@23: cheezzzzeeeeeyyyy!

29. song that best express what ur feeling ryt now?-- hmmmm.. ewan ko! dami e :)

30. is there any person that you miss?-- yupyupyup!

31. what makes you really angry?-- people like... (sorry uli, low class!)

32. gusto mong gawin ngaun?-- 2munganga!

33. kung may mababalik kang moment sa buhay mo,ano un?-- marami rami ren.. happy times!

34. mabuti ka bang kaibgn?-- i believe so

35. sino pinakaimportanteng tao sa buhay mo ngaun..?-- people i love :)

36. kaya mo bang gwin lahat para sa love?-- lahat? i dont know... watcha thnk? i guess i can do a lot for love... pero lahat?!

37. all tym favorite song?-- wala e

38. chocolates or ice creams?-- twix! choco chip cookie dough/chunky monkey ng ben&jerry's! yumyum!

39. sino gusto mo makausp ngaun?-- kausap ko na :)

40. anu gsto mo sbhn sa mga nagbbsa nito-- steady ka lang jan!

wahehehe! lang magawa... cant sleep! to think na for the past wk, pnakamatagal na ung 4hrs of sleep... haaaay, busted system!

this is my not-so-grown up christmas (& birthday!) wish(es)

2005-12-06T13:27:00.000+08:00

my bday's in 4 days, christmas is in 19 days... so for those of you who are wrackng their brains, thinking of what to get me for my bday & for christmas (bawal happy bday & merry christmas ha! :p) here's a guide...

1. the new ipod

2. lanyard & headphones for my nano

3. havaianas surf - royal blue or gray, size 39/40

4. havaianas style - palegreen/rose & navy blue/royal blue, size 39/40

5. havaianas traditional - all available colors, size 39/40

6. jacket from express

7. AE striped sunrise sheer polo in clove, sea blue, yellow mist, pink splendor & clear blue sky, s

8. hollister point vicente pique polo in light blue, s

9. a&f trisha in white, s

10. book rack for all my SCHOOL books...

11. a trip to any nice beach

12. james lafferty

13. & MOST OF ALL... joy, love & peace.. and all the other good things that come w/ it!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

totally busted circadian rhythm

2005-12-05T20:01:00.000+08:00

sleeping pattern: what sleep?!
eating pattern: eat all day!

1. ONE WISH?- that we'd all be happy :) come on.. it's christmas! & it's my bday soon...

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?- more of a lover, i guess... i dont like fighting

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?- having lots of regrets

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?- not really a maniac.. but i loved playing with them

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY"?- it'll someday be much better than our dreams...

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?- nope!

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?- yup! (haha, confident!)

8. ARE YOU SINGLE?- yea...

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?- black

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?- usually

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?- nope.. id love to try it soon though

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?- i haven discovered any yet

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?- BEACHES!!!!!!! ultimately? bora bora & bahamas... & there's el nido, siquijor, bohol (again & again!)... basta beach!

14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?- he can be...

15. CAN YOU SWIM?- yea

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?- nope.. havent even heard of it

17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?- yea

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?- i have no idea... give me one!

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?- ill try that..

20. DO YOU LOVE FIREWORKS?- LOVE IT!!!

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?- nope!

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?- whichever

23. LAST TIME YOU WENT OUT?- out of the house, this morning... out out - yesterday

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?- yup!

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?- sometimes

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?- i dont know.. wala naman ata

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE U"?- hmmmm

28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?- im hiding him.. shhhhh

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?- yea... i love weddings... i hope my friends would get married so we could all dress up, eat, drink & be merry! :)

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?- sunny side, over easy please :)

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?- don't stereotype them.. peyton's blonde & i love how she thinks... but thats TV for us

32. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?- mother dearie

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?- 8.36pm

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?- i do

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?- nope... mc griddles!

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?- this morning

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?- baths... such a luxury..

38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?- he was... then we grew up...

39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?- im ticklish :p

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?- not usually

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?- lots...

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?- chunky!

43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?- yups!

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?- nope!

45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?- 2x

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?- uh huh!

47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?- depends.. usually am not

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?- dark brown

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?- LOVE IT! :D

51. LIQUOR OR BEER?- beer... actually, whichever

52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?- no

53. LAST WORD YOU SAID?- im hungry (again!)

54. PLANS FOR TOMORROW?- hospital duty, sleep, study... such a dork

55. LAST WORDS?- oh happy days!

ch!x wid d!x!

2005-12-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

again and again, iv proven that more girls have balls compared to guys.

there must be something very wrong.. or very right... with evolution.. survival of the fittest.. i guess this is one of the reasons why there are more women than men.. (not girls than boys.. men than women.. you know what i mean?!)

here's to all my girlfriends who have stood up and continue to stand up for what they feel & what they believe in...

CHEERS to all you CH!X WID DIX!!!

nice girls finish last...

2005-12-03T14:24:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i have to put that as the title, but since i just got this fm the friendster bulletin board (pero im not reposting it there... gusto ko sa blog ko lng :D) im following its instruction na ren...

-To every girl who is looking for true love.
-To every girl that is herself no matter what.
-To every girl that dresses cute not skanky
-To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.
-To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect birthday present for you.
-To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose the ho instead.
-To every girl who is nice to everyone no matter who they are.
-To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
-To every girl that wont settle for the jerk.
-To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.
-To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.
-To every girl that just wants to holds hands.
-To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
-To every girl who just wishes he cared.
-To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.
-To every girl who just wants him to call.
- To every girl who wastes her day waiting by the phone.
-To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
-To every girl that just wants to sleep (no sex) with him.
-To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt so many times.
-To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.
-To every girl that thought maybe this could be the one.
-To every girl that believes in her dreams.
-To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve them.
-To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually does think it is funny.
-To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.

--*To every girl that gave her heart only to have it shoved back in her face.

This one is for you.

If you are a nice girl repost this: Title; "nice girls finish last" If you are a guy that thinks every girl should try to encompass even a few of these things.....repost it with the title "I am looking for this girl"

hahaha, siguro i didnt post it sa bulletin board coz im not sure if im a nice girl.. hehehehe!

november recap

2005-11-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... let's see... november has been a pretty uuuggggghhhh month. but that last blog by nellie inspired me. ive pretty much felt that i don't have much time to do the things i want to do (ie. sleep, read my supposedly sembreak reads, finally finish my OTH season2 dvd marathon, 2nganga over at cbtl @ promenade, and catch up with friends)
so let's see...
1st week of nov: went home from a 3day vacation @ bicol, practiced for our capping & pinning ceremony, had our capping & pinning ceremony.. had dinner at leslie's @ tagaytay, then went to starbux @ slex... what else?
(well, that's all i can remember.. hmmmm, i probly should start keeping a small journal... u know, just so id remember what i did that day...)
2nd week of nov: classes resumed... so it was all about settling in, getting used to our scheds, orientation, lectures. we were working on having a values 2 class opened for us, which was eventually approved... saw flightplan on wed, had dinner at tokyo2, chai @ cbtl, and a bonding-drinkng sesh w/ a friend @ jack's loft. thurs- went to this gig @ club halo, supposedly to watch ace's band.. but since ai had to be home early, we were not able to catch his band anymore... (next time, bro.. pramis!) i spent saturday with friends, had my uniform repaired, lunch out with KDB, went with 2l & his tita to gh, then to sm north to eat, then met up with some of the SAWI in mega, then went over to golps' condo @ taft for k3n & jew's joint bday celeb. i was supposed to sleep over, but since i was too tired that day, i opted to go home and bond with my bed
3rd week of nov: had the AHA-BLS training at NIA. cried all day nov15 (which shouldnt have happened since that was papa, vicky & noni's bday.. but what the heck... my eyes had a mind of its own.) after the AHA-BLS training on tues, i had to go home & change, then headed over @ bar42 for noni & gi's bday treat & ronan's despedida. saw harry potter GOF with the KDB on thursday, late dinner at fazolis after, bought micci's gift @ starbuck. friday, we went to micci's.. to say byebye, quick lunch over at papsy's :( pretty sad day... (i miss micci...) we went to solas that nyt. ob, juls & golps picked me up before midnyt, and we went to eastwd & had breakfast buffet @ something fishy. went to class the next day without much sleep (what's new?), went to gh to have my phone repaired & buy a sun sim.
nov 20- heard mass w/ the family. ate at superbowl, went to the gym w/ ai, met up w/ vincent to get our clogs.
nov21- supposedly, duty starts today. i went straight to the mandaluyong city hall to meet my groupmates (since it was utterly pointless to go to school first since i was already in mandaluyong). had a short orientation and were assigned readings. we were dismissed before 4, so we went to my place, then went to bambang to buy scrubsuits.
nov22- no duty. i forgot what i did that day. probly tunganga.
nov23- went to people's lying in clinic. short lecture, then a 10-item quiz. we were dismissed arnd 6.30, had dinner w/ some groupmates @ hottopps over at pearldryv.
nov24- class, then dinner & drinkng at dencio's banawe w/ abet, edward, celle & didi... then we transferred to bar42... tuloy ang inom!
nov25- woke up to compile our report. was kinda "late" for my values class (less than 30 mins lng naman e! & i was there b4 gi!). but since im sir francis' "pnakamabait" na student, sabi nya, he won't mark me as late, as long as wag ako makulet sa class. I AM NOT MAKULET! had the bandaging training during NCM101, then we had our quiz on MCH... which i totally did not study for. oh yea, i did study, while we were having that bandaging thingy... went to tin's, waited as she changed, bought kurant @ wilson, went to my house to change, then went to astoria for queenie's party.
nov26- attended class. met up with mikko @ gateway for some catching up & late lunch. (thanks mix, i had so much fun! can't wait to meet robby! im happy that u guys are soooo happy!) went home, changed, went to noni's, then we went to pasong tamo for mamsy's bday celeb.
nov27- oh yea, we were supposed to go to galera (me, tin & jan), but surprise, mama didn't let me go! since im a good daughter and my parents seldom not let me go anywhere, i didnt argue too much anymore. so i spent the day the best way i know how... tunganga. then we heard mass...
nov28- met up with ob, juls & golps, abet joined us to watch exorcism of emily rose. for some reason, i love watchng scary/suspense movies with ob & juls... plus andon si golps this time (who had her eyes covered half of the time... she shouldve insisted on refunding half of what she paid for!). tunganga @ cbtl over at the cinema for 2 hours while waiting for my friends. i was 1st to arrive! (is that EU?) golps arrived, did some catchng up (sa tagal nila, naubusan na kme ng kwento... fm gradesch to our future na ata napagusapan namen e!), abet arrived. we decided to walk around, i showed them mikko & robby's kid, 2nganga @ the foodcourt, finally had dinner when ob & juls arrived. watched the movie. decided to go to eresto in libis after.
nov29- no duty. tunganga. so unproductive. i read 1 page of the assigned reading.
nov30- went to school to meet up with my groupmates so we could pass our group proj to our CI. nagpasama kay papsy to get my uniform in kamuning. went home. read... im halfway done... and am so ready to give up! gawd.. i have to read 3 freakn chapters.. almost 100 pages of freaknly small texts for a freakn 20-pt quiz?! where's the love there?!

so yea, i guess my complaint of having so little time to do the things i want to do is totally baseless...

oh well, not really! ive been YMng with friends fm everywhere.. i did some catchng up with jacey, pearl, some of the kix&kox, ate R.. so i guess i was able to do one of the things i wanted to do...

tomorrow's december... my absolute favorite month! (aside fm the summer months, since then i get to go to the beach.. but then i could still go to the beach anytym of the year.. so...) only good vibes this month, aryt?!

my bday(as well as mama's) is in 10 days... my bday wish -- HAPPINESS.. not just for me, but for my family and all my friends. i don't want to see any of these people crying or going through hell. i dont want to hear that they're sad. i just want everyone to be happy!

im not sure how ill celebrate my bday pa this year... basta punta kayo ha! if wala kayo, tampo na ako! :(

gusto kong bday gift: prayers lang. pray for me and for all those people that im praying for. sana we'd all be happy... we'd all have a much better year ahead.

oh, and i wouldn't mind an ipod video, those sweaters, shoes, slippers, jeans i posted in an earlier entry.. but a gc from AE, A&F, express or hollister will do. and i would love to spend a few days at some nice beach... basta peaceful & secluded... and hindi magastos. and lots of bonding (bonding=alcohol + kwento & kulitan) times with my friends.

exorcism of emily rose

2005-11-29T12:29:00.000+08:00

saw that movie last night with golps, ob, juls & abet. it wasn't as scary as those asian horror flicks we've seen... but it was pretty disturbing... especially since im usually still up at 3 am!
sabi na nga ba, i shouldve just watched PRIME... bryan greenburg (jake of OTH!)! oh well, u guys should watch it ;)

so anyway, i don't have duty today & tomorrow... so 2nganga trip for 2 days... although i have to be in school tomorrow coz we're submitting our grp project... oh, and i should be doing some studyng for my ncm101 quiz on thursday! (bait na student ako!)

but since my brain's still half asleep, ill answer surveys muna. there's no point in forcing my brain to absorb all those stuff!

1. The last movie you watched? >>> exorcism of emily rose

2. The last tv show you watched? >>> i don't know...

3. The last song you heard?>>> change the world

4. The last thing you bought? >>> food

5. The last place you went to? >>> e restaurant (un ba ung name ng place?) in libis

6. The last food you ate? >>> calamares (and ung mushrm & tomato ng shish kebab)

7. The last thing you heard from your parents? >>> mama texted me coz she was lookng for me

8. The last thing you said to your parents? >>> i was out with friends sa libis

9. The last thing you said to one of your friends?>>> nagtiis ako ng over 4 yrs waitng for answers.. (ka YM ko si ate bossing now, and nagddramahan kme)

10. The last book you read?>>> iv started apollyon & the alchemist... i don't know which one to read 1st!

Who was:
1.The last person you called?>>> mikkola

2. The last person who called you? >>> edward (pero sila ni abet nagusap)

3. The last person you texted? >>> mommy ruby.. i told her i emailed her something for our project

4. The last person who texted you? >>> gigi (telling me we're meeting sa sch ng 1pm.. but i cant go!)

5. The last person who said good night last nyt?>>> abet

6. The last person who said I love you? >>> mikkola

7. The last person who gave you a testimonial? >>> jacey (i miss you, jace! hang in there...)

8.The last person who sent u a msg in friendster? >>> sheryll

9. The last person you hugged? >>> abet

10. The last person you saw on tv? >>> i dont know

Do You?

1. Do you believe that love is forever?>>> yup! (pero nagiiba ung "kind of love"... it could get more intense, or nagigng mas steady...)

2. Do you get hurt by people easily?>>> nope... well, yea, i guess... pero hindi lahat e.

3. Do you believe that all people are generally good?>>> yea, people are innately good Ü

4.Do mean people make you sad?>>> if they matter to me, then i get sad if they're mean.. pero kng la lang sila saken... i dont care!

5. Does ice cream make you happy?>>> ok lng.. chocolates make me happier (lalo na twix!) and chai tea latte! yumyum!

6. Do you sing in the shower?>>> usually

7. When it rains, do you like to splash in the puddle?>>> depends what im wearing

8. If you see a cute guy/girl walk down the street, what will you do?>>> look, i guess.. but if that's james lafferty... id run to him!

9.Do you notice when people have beautiful eyes? >>> yupyup!

10.Have you ever cried watching a movie?>>> yups!

11.Is it cute when old people are holding hands? >>> yeah... *sigh*

12. Are you happy these past few days? >>> happy-kind-of-sad?! im ok, i guess Ü

13. Do you tend not to worry even when you know something bad is about to happen? >>> i usually don't worry...

14. Is it fine to cut the barbie's hair?>>> yup! part of their lives..

15. Have you ever laughed so hard that your stomach hurt? >>> yea! nakakamiss yung ganon!

16. Are you slightly lazy? >>> usually am!

17. Do you like to drive with the windows down? >>> when i was in cali, yea... (since my AC was busted... enjoy fresh air-- which wasn't so fresh when i get to LA...)

18. Are you in love? >>> hmmmm...

roller coaster rides

2005-11-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

i LOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEEEEE riding roller coasters. ask me what my favorite theme park is -- id answer you right away... SIX FLAGS MAGIC MOUNTAIN! ooohhhhh, i so love X.. scream... batman the ride, riddler's revenge... goliath!(i wanna go there... NOW!) oh, and i love their caramel apples there!

but... i hate emotional roller coasters. i hate inconsistencies. i hate not knowing what i should know...

gawddamnit!

happy bday to 3 dear ppl...

2005-11-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

to 2 of the most special guys in my life -- FATHER DEAR & VICKY -- HAPPY HAPPY BDAY! yahoo! ur both a year older! painom naman kayo! i love you both!

and to my friend for life -- NONI -- happy bday! (khet alam kong hndi mo mababasa to!) thanks so much for being such a great person! grabe, 1 yr na taung friends! hehehe!
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i fnally went back to the gym kanina... grabe ha, tlgang workout! kapagod! kaya pag uwi, lamon trip! tas nood ng 3 episodes ng 1treehill season 2... hmmm.. i should watch 3 episodes everynyt na para matapos ko na to, then i could start reading my sembreak reads na hindi ko man lang nagalaw!

at dahil wala na akong ibang magawa... taaadaaaaaaa!

1. Hey honestly, where ya at?=> my side of the room

2. Honestly, have you ever failed a subject at school?=> nope! unless they give me a 5 sa research... langya lang if they do that kse sabi ko naman, i wanted to drop na, pero pnigilan nila ako! grrrrr...

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?=> oooohh, a lot of things.. but ryt now, san mig lyt & calamares ang nasa top ng list :)

4. Honestly, who are you chatting online with now?=> no one... imbisibol ako ryt now...

5. Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be doing right now?=> lying in my bed, dreaming... kaya nga ako nag gym knina para i could sleep ng early e... hay! tired but still wide awake!

6. Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?=> of course!

7. Honestly, who are your best friendS in the world? => my imaginary friend...

8. Honestly, who is the hottest person you know?=> james lafferty! OTH overload!

9. Honestly, are you a good friend?=> i believe so...

10. Honestly, do you really think going to school is important?=> yup, to tambay w/ friends! hehehe :)

11. Honestly, what are your dreams about, mostly?=> a peaceful, worry-free life sa aking secluded beach house :)

12. Honestly, who/what makes you happy most?=> a lot of people, a lot of things! my family, my friends, our dogs, cute babies, cute kids, TWIX, maltesers, snickers, smores pop tarts, ben & jerry's chunky monkey & half-baked choco chip cookie dough, calamares, garlic mushrooms, san mig lyt, CHAI TEA LATTE, tropical tea latte, kirei, BEACHES, stars, nano, internet, my slippers, online window shopping, emails & text msgs fm friends, heart-to-hearts, pili candy, hahaha.. basta marami!

13. Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?=> :'( some stuff... myself, and some things im doing...

14. Honestly, how old are you now?=> 22

15. Honestly, what song are you listening to right now?=> jealous guy (gavin degraw's version) ooohhhh, hotness!

16. Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very moment?=> james lafferty! yumyum!

17.Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?=> ;P

18.Honestly, do you have a deadly disease?=> i believe i don't have any...

19.Honestly, do you hate someone right now?=> wala... hate is bad for your health!

20.Honestly, who/what do you wanna hug right now?=> turtle!

21.Honestly, are you bored?=> uh-huh!

22.Honestly, who do u wanna slap right now?=> wala!

23.Honestly, in-luv ka ba?=> im not sure... :p

24.Honestly, pakiramdam mo ba gusto ka nya?=> i don't know... :(

25.Honestly, have you said what u feel for him/her?=> i believe i did..

26.Honestly, naisip mo na ba mag-suicide?=> ung serious, nope! i love my life too much!

27. Honestly, did you enjoy this survey?=> yup! its nice to be honest! hehehe!

tired, but still can't sleep...

2005-11-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

just got back fm jew & k3n's bday celeb in golps' condo. still so confused, i don't know what to do or think anymore. being eaten alive by it... but i believe that everything will soon fall into their proper places :)

ryt now, all i can do is surrender it all to Him...

anyway, i was going through mecki's blog and saw these blogthings quizzes... so i tried them and got these results:

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.
Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. (uh-huh!)

Your flirting style: Coy

Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park

Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant

What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Obese Belly Dancer.

Where You Lived: Italy.

How You Died: Suicide.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. (doesn't get any truer than this!)

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. (oh, so true!)

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. (yeah, i definitely do!)

How Are You In Love?

i want to sleep! damn it!

i need sleeping lessons...

2005-11-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

someone, please teach me how to sleep like every normal person! last nyt, i went to bed pretty late, well, very early, if u think about it, since i slept around 4 am na. i was planning to wake up 11am (my class is at 1pm pa e) to get 7 hrs of sleep. guess what time i woke up?! 9 am! & i couldnt go back to sleep! grrrrr!

after my class, i stayed a while sa school since i didnt want to go home yet. when i finally went home, i was thnkng of takng a nap since ai & shine would be pickng me up arnd 10pm pa. but i thought to myslf that if i do that, tamarin na ako to go out. so i went online nlng.. well, i just turnd on the pc & checked my mail. i was online sa YM, but i was tinatamad na ren to use the pc so soundtrip nlng at bonding kme ng kama ko... past 10, they picked me up, we went to club halo to watch ace's band.

but since ai has RD, we had to leave before they could play. boooo.. next time, bros!

oh well, so now im home, tired, but still not sleepy. so guess what ima do?! SURVEY!

1. full name mo? * eurose castro nodalo

2. ano pinaka-ayaw mo n tntwg ka? * yo or yoyo if hindi ka super close saken... pssssst & hoy.. grrr, ganda ng name na bigay ng nanay ko saken, tpos ganon lng tatawag mo saken?

3. ilang taon ka na? * 22

4. friendly ka ba? * oh yes.. pero minsan shy type.. hahaha!

5. ano mas gus2 mong tropa boys o gurls? * pareho!

6. bakit? * variety adds spice to life

7. anong klase kang tao? * simple lang... gusto lang maging masaya

8. swit k b? * ewan ko.. sabi ni... oo raw e :p, depends siguro kng sino...

9. cno b gs2 mo mksma 4 lyf? * my God's gift... (show urself!!!)

10. stik 2 1 k b? * oh yes, definitely! when i commit, i really COMMIT

11. may bisyo ka ba? * i believe wala..

12. anong klaseng boy/gurl gus2 mo? * as in ung "special someone" kinda boy? aside fm being tall, dark & hindi chinito... i need someone who's sweet, someone i can really talk to & who can make me laugh, someone who laughs with me, ung masasabayan trip ko, madaling yayain (haha, dapat pareho kmeng kaladkarin!), HONEST, loyal, and kng pwede lng sana... walang sabit! hahahahahaha! anyone there?!

13. nkakita k n b ng ganyan? * ung kuha lahat un? mejo hindi pa.. may sablay na paisa-isa e...

14. nnnwla k b sa luv at first syt? * nope!

15. ano gus2 mo ibgy sau? * for christmas? shopping money, tiket papunta LA kse may gusto akong bilhn, love & world peace. i thank you!

16. gus2 mo b ung babaeng ng mglng mag gitar? * aus lang...

17. bkt nmn? * hndi ako mahilg sa babae e.. hndi kme talo

18. nnnwla k b sa soulm8? * yup!

19. ano fav. n kanta mo ngaun? * ryt now? crazy for this girl! hehe, LSS e

20. meron k bng pinag dddk8tan ng kanta? * ng crazy for this girl? uhmmm, im perfectly straight, thank you very much! pag may kumanta saken nya, aus! sige, tau na! hahaha!

21. ano pnka un4gtbl n schl. lyf mo? * sa teneo, dami! regcom days! big blue bonfire, ung aming legal na inom sa school after we won the championshp, tpos akyat kme sa roof ng rizal foyer at uminom! haha! sa kgc, ay, sobrang dami... its overwhelming!

22. mind over hart or hart ovr mind? * im a heart over mind kinda person.. so shoot me!

on impulse

2005-11-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

i went to eastwood today, supposedly to buy tickets for HP4 for the KDB. but since we couldn't finalize when and how many of us are watching, i ended up not buying. oh well... i was texting them and asking what the plan was. while waitng for their replies, i went around.

first, i went to beauty bar. i just wanted to look at some lip balms since it's starting to get cold and my lips easily dry up and i hate it. i didnt find one i liked, but i ended up buyng an eyemask and a scrub (something i need!)... & yea, i do need that eyemask since for some reason, my insomnia's getting worse & ive been averaging 3-4 hours of sleep everynyt since ... hmmmm.. i dont know.. some weeks now. & super naaawa na ako sa eyes ko... pang monster na sha!

after buying those stuff, i texted them again and they still havent finalized anything. so i went to bayo... and ended up buying a shirt. oh well... i believe i deserve it... a mood-upper of some sort... :)

hehe, iv been going "online window shopping" since last nyt.. sobrang dami ko nanamang gustong bilhin! hehe :D there's this nice shirt sa hollister na i like... hmmm, hollister in glendale galleria's opeing this fall! tpos there' another nice shirt sa abercrombie...

and a lot of nice stuff sa AE...

hahaha! malapit na bday ko! hmmmm... *hint hint!*

oh forget it...

2005-11-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

i won't take a nap nalng since aira'll be here soon...

so guess what ima do... SURVEY!!!

1.Do u cry?~ yup!

2. Scariest moment?~ hmmm... oh nung raid here sa house! waking up & hearing men shouting, girls screaming! gawd... tpos that animal knocking sa door! waaaaah!

3. Iniwan ka na ba ng some1?~ oh yea

4. R u in luv right now?~ & what if i am?

5. Do u want 2 grow old alone?~ oh, definitely not!

6. R u an ideal gf/bf?~ id like to believe im some1's ideal person...

7. What's d best thing in u?~ hmmmm...

8. R u a fan of luv is switer d 2nd time around?~ used to be 1... pero now, nope!

9. Tingin mo bakit masakit magmahal?~ i dont know... if alam ko, edi umiwas na ako so i wouldn't hurt na, ryt?

10. Pano ka magmahal?~ hmmmm... i dont know... ask nyo nalng si... family& friends ko!

11. Nasabihan ka na ba ng masakit na salita?~ yea...

12. Do you regret luving that someone who hurt you?~ nope.. no regrets!

13. R u single?~ yeah! paboys naman kayo!

14. if ur single do u miss being inlove?~ minsan... but it's fun being single ren naman :D

15. sweetest thing a guy/gal did 4 u?~ hmmm.. small sweet stuff :D

16. longed to kiss that special sumone?~ :D

17. kissed your m0m/dad?~ ofcors!

18. kissed yourself?~ i just kissd my hand para i can say yes!

20. kissed your best friend?~ yups

21. slapped your enemy?~ nope!

22. screamed at anyone?~ oh yea, demonyita mode!

23. scolded someone because he/she wouldnt listen 2 u?~ oo naman...

24. scolded a teacher?~ nope...

25. scolded your parents?~ no! bait sila e! mana sa mga anak!

26. held someone of the opposite sex's hand?~ yup! im clingy!

27. fallen asleep in anyone's arms?~ yup! don't you just love falling asleep in someone's arms? sorry nlng kng mangawit!

28. gone to the beach/sea side with the opposite sex?~ yea, friends!

30.love someone just because of his/her looks?~ PIOLO! & JAMES LAFFERTY!

31.felt so happy that it made you cry?~ hmmm... hindi pa ata

32.cried because your m0m/dad scolded you?~ yup!

33.cried because you were hungry?~ i think so...

34.cried because you did badly for your exam?~ no...

35. what advice can you give to a broken hearted person?~ twix lng katapat nyan!

2005-11-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

1st day... arggggh!

papsy texted past 12mn na we have to be in school raw ng 7am before going to vmmc at 8 for our orientation. since vicky had to be in ateneo to get his grades, he brought me to school. aryt.. i was there around 7.15... damnit! what a waste! i couldv slept for another hour e!

oh well... tpos they assigned us na. i was almost assigned sa mandaluyong health center. wow, thanks ha! i know it's near my house and all, pero ayoko naman na my 1st duty would be there. good thing mommy ayette's transferring (well, it's not good na she's switchng schools kse she's nice and all.. but since she has to transfer...), nasama ako sa group nila mommy cassie. we were assigned sa fe del mundo, ob ward. and groupmate ko si kats! yey!

our CI wants us to start sa duty na.. pero i think we're staying sa school until next week for orientation & sh!t... oh well... boredom... sayang sa oras. and i dont like staying sa school ng mon-wed kse sobrang daming tao! anyhow...

it's 3.50 pm, im bored. im home. im going out w/ ai later, hit the gym. haha, sulitin dapat ang membership habang hindi pa ako super tinatamad. and besides, exercise releases endorphins, ryt? puts us in a good mood. oooohhh, something i so need ryt now!

hmmm.. i think ill sleep muna... i had less than 3 hours of sleep. how do you cure insomnia?!

pagod...

2005-11-06T03:38:00.000+08:00

haaay, we'r finally done w/ our capping... it was a long, boring ceremony... fun part lang was picture taking (camhoes!)

after capping, we celebrated sa leslie's @ tagaytay... lamig! dami food! yumyum! tpos starbux lang... tpos uwi na! hehe :D

grrrr, we have to be in school 8am on monday! early ha! tpos we have to be in uniform na... kainis! oh well... back to that kinda reality!

haaaaay... oh yea, my friend sent me this quote.. la lng, ang nice e:

iv realized that life is indeed full of contradictions.

sometimes, it's crazy to be sane, you need to fall to fly, people suffer bcause u care... you have to unlearn to know the lesson, you have to give up because you are strong, you have to be wrong to make things right.. nonetheless, life's complexities are also life's source of beauty. we should cry to laugh again, fall apart to be whole again & get hurt to love again...

nice, huh?! la lang...

hmmm.. tin & i are trying this thing.. we're trying to be positive. it's fun, but sometimes, sobrang hard to do. wala lng.. i don't know! oh well, but life goes on, ryt?!

so anyway, since hindi pa ako inaantok... (surprise!), survey again. this time, about inuman!

1. do you drink?> == yups

2.when was the last tym u drank?> == friday nyt (awwww... teej's really leaving?! don't be sad ai, visit nlng!)

3.umiinom ka ba ng gin?> == yup!

4.have you drank vodka?> == yup! kurant! shalah kme e! dati, hanggng arkan lng!

5.Cnong nagturo syo uminom?> == highsch barkada.. pero ung tlagang nagturo?! RON TAN! langya! basag, chong!

6.nalasing ka na ba?> == oo nman!

7.Anong favorite song mo pag nag-iinom ka?> == depends sa mood

8.nagsuka ka na ba sa inuman?> == haha, oo! langya, pnakamemorable tlga ung inuman sa tapika after ng premiere nyt ng org namn.. ibang klase tlga si ron tan.. la ako masabi... sana chong, naisip nyo na babae ako, db? pero shmpre, kelangan ko itayo ang bandera namen.. hndi nyoko maiiwan! pero susuka ako!

9.tamang age para pwde nang uminom?> == tanong nyo nlng sa mga magulang nyo.. kse tatay ko, bata pa lng kme, pwede na kme uminom e! haha!

10. fave drink mo?> == aus na beer, mura e... kng shala, kurant7 or amaretto sour... yumyum!

11.chaser ng empi??> == coke... grbe, umiinom lng ako ng soda pag naglalasng! tama yan!

12.umuwi ka na bang gumagapang dahil sa kalasingan?> == hndi naman ako gumapang... kinaladkad lng ata ako.. basta hndi ko alam kng pano ako nakaratng sa bed ko... again, courtesy of master ron!

13. sino ang madalas naghahatid sayo pag lasing ka na?> == bahala na.. pero mas aus kng sleep over nlng...

14. ano yung craziest thing na ginawa mo nung lasing ka?> == wala.. matino naman ata ako malasing e...

15. nkakailang bote ka ng beer?> == si master, napaabot nya ako ng 8 or 9.. pero ngaun, yoko na gawin un! masaya na ako sa 5.. tpos tamang tunganga nlng...

16. san mig light strong ice o red horse?> == steadyng san mig lyt.. kng basagan, red horse

17. hard drinks o beer lang?> == khet ano, basta mura lng...

18. umiinom ka ba sa bar?> == hndi na.. mahal dun e!

19. why?> == rip off e! bili ka nlng 1 bote ng kurant, 850 lng.. tpos 7up... aus na! e magkano un sa bar?!

20. sa pulutan.. sisig o bopis?> == sisig!

21. mani o chicha?> = sisig paren! hehe.. pwde bang butong pakwan?

22. pag umiinom ka ng beer.. sa bote o sa baso?> == bote

23. nalabasan ka na ba ng alak sa ilong?> == nope.. ewwww!

24.Naaksidente ka na ba dahil sa kalasingan?> == thank God, no!

25.Nasabi mo na ba sa sarili mo na hindi ka na iinom?> == yup! after nung nangyari saken sa tapika.. pero anong nangyari?! hala, inom pa ren!

tired...

2005-11-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

capping & pinning practice was supposed, let me say that again, SUPPOSED to start at 9am. i got there a few minutes after 9.. & guess what, people were still outside. apparently, there was some stupid miscommunication problem in school and they wanted to hold the practice tomorrow... ryt! doing so is like declaring their death wish!

so anyway, practice started around 10, ended past 11... they just showed us the seating arrangement and had 1 quick runthrough...

after that, we ate at mang jimmy's... yum yum! tagal na since i last ate there! haha! (oo na, i know iv been eating a lot since last week.. im PMSng.. haha, what an excuse.. im not due for another 2wks!) after that, we dropped by tin's house then went to GH.

i really have to get rid of this habit.. i mean, spending when im badtrip or sad. it's either that or have someone hide my money until i feel better. today's impulsive purchase due to this dread im feeling: this black HDY bag iv been eyeing for some weeks now.. but never wanted to buy kse i always thought it was expensive...

so anyway, after eating (again!) i went home to get gym stuff, aira picked me up and we hit the gym. super tamad mode, i just did cardio... aira tried this body jam class.. it lookd fun, pero wala tlaga ako sa mood. and besides, early day tomorrow!

so anyway, sembreak-- bawi ako sa blogging since hospital duty starts in a few weeks and i expect that it'll be crazy... so shempre, survey again! wow, it's amazing how people never run out of questions to ask!

1.)Are you afraid of being single?> :: nope.. i actually enjoy being single.. AS LONG AS WALANG GUMUGULO!

2) What do you do when you can't sleep?> :: go online, YM if may friend, play bounce out, or read a book, watch dvd, text pag may gising pa, sometimes, tunganga lang and pray that i fall asleep na

3) How far would you go to get something you really want?> :: it depends... i actually don't know...

4) What time is it right NOW?> :: 10:47pm

5) Do you go for personality or looks?> :: personality, definitely!

6) What's your fave kool-aid?> :: i dont know.. never drank much of that when i was a kid.. the few times i did, i believe i had strawberry

7) What makes you *really* happy?> :: my family! small sweet stuff, really close friends

8) Are you a negative person?> :: im usually not :D

9) In your opinion, do you think premarital sex is wrong?> :: nope.. it becoming a habit is. sabi samen ng theo prof ko, it's not wrong, as long as it's in the proper context.. but i dont want to go into that ryt now...

10) Do you believe in 'Reincarnation'?> :: im not sure...

11) What's your fave online news site?> :: uhhmmm, i dont know

12) Which celebrity do you think you'd like to be most resemble of?> :: angelina jolie, handsdown.. hotness!

13) Fav color?> :: red! & pink's nice ren.. oops, and blue of course since im an atenean.. and yellow since it's cheery!

14) Which Instant Messaging programs do you use?> :: YM

16) Are you good with computers?> :: i can use it, pero anything technical, i leave those sa aking favorite sister & my brother vicky

17) How many kids do you want when you grow up?> :: at least 2 :D

19) What type of music can you NOT stand?> :: i dont know...

20) Do you have a job?> :: yup! daughter, sister, friend, student...

21) If you had to rate yourself on a scale of 1 -10?> :: perfect 10! haha, no seriously, id say an 8? im not perfect, im sorry! but im close.. haha, feeling! (e baket ba, this is MY blog!)

22) What size of shoe do you wear?> :: 8-10, depends where i buy it...

23) What are your bad habits?> :: falling for the wrong guys?! ooops, where did that come from? hehe, seriously, im too lazy sometimes... here's a trivia, i don't like eating steak kse i get tired chewing it... (and some people think im health conscious! haha, when tamad mode strikes tlga...)

24) What was the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?> :: some song

25)Last thing you ate?> :: vcut

26) Last thing you drank?> :: h20

27) Live or die and why?> :: live! life's beautiful.. and there's so much in store for us!

28) How many people are on your buddylist?> :: i dont know

29) What site do you go to most?> :: my email, friendster

30) Do you like seafood?> :: YUP! yumyum! lalo na kng beach setting, tpos super fresh.. oh, yum yum!

31) What is your fave place to eat out at? Other than home?> :: i dont know.. no particular place

32) Worst insult you ever heard about yourself?> :: hmmmm... that's negative.. never let negative things linger & consume you!

33) Best compliment you've received from someone?> :: i don't know... hmmm.. recently, friends tell me that the guy i choose to give my heart to would be so lucky... compliment, ryt? but somehow, naiiyak ako when i hear that...

34) Are you picky?> :: definitely not! except pag sinusumpong.. like when i crave for something, say twix, i won't eat anything else except that.. and if i can't find it, i won't eat tlga...

35) Place you go to get your hair cut?> :: highlights salon.. actually, wherever jeff is... haha, finally found him/her again!

36) Perfect place to go on your first date with someone?> :: some nice beach! or magic mountain!

37) What age is considered old?> : id say 80++

38) Have you met any celebrities?> :: some, i dont know

39) Do you get along better with men or women?> :: pareho lng, i think

40) What is the best quality about you as a friend?> :: im loyal

dread...

2005-11-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

yup, there's something im dreading.. but i know if it happens, it'll set me free.. but still, i dread it.

anyway, bicol was fun... super bitin lng! we left around 3.30am ng sunday, arrived around 11am, had lunch, went to the kubo for some videoke trip, then had to take a bath since we were hearing mass @ 4pm.

after mass, we went to teejay's place, then we went to the beach. gabi na, so we just went sa beach for a few minutes, wade sa water.. then went to this place for dinner & drinking. met some new friends (hey bros!)...

we had this nice debate... guess anong topic-- love! hay nako... so yea, it was fun. tamang amats lng. sabi ko, basagan dapat. but their idea of basagan was different fm mine. pnagtulungan nila ako e.. so, never mind! around 11, we went to the shack to continue our sesh...

the next day, we were REALLY planning to hit the beach at 6.30 am.. but since we ended late, we woke up past 8 na. so we just had lunch, passed by the cemetery, then went to the beach around 1pm..

omg! omg! OMG! it wouldve been perfect if the sun was out.. pero it was cloudy when we got there.. so we decided to swim muna... we looked stupid siguro running to the water, us 3! haha!

so anyway, around 3 (?), teejay arrived with his body board & sand board.. since we were too chicken to try the sand board, he let us try the body board.. and can i just say... OMG! WOW! it was sooooooooo fun! so anyway, we went home around 5pm to change then have dinner. tpos we had to go back to the beach since teej was having his despedida... awwwww... lucky boi, he's going to hongkong & work! somethng about sales.. tpos he gets to go to the states & europe to meet clients.. WOW, ryt?!

anyway, we planned to go to hit the beach tuesday 6.30am since we were driving home ng 10am.. pero since late night again, we didnt go na.. SAD! bitin tuloy ung tan namen!

oh well...

so after our 12-hr car ride... we're back to reality... damnit! im hating it... i dont know... i wish i could just stay in bicol (or any nice beach...) forever and never have to face... this reality..

but oh well, life goes on.. as always!

i thought mababaw na survey lang e...

2005-10-28T17:02:00.000+08:00

1. paano ka kumain ng donut?-- bite, chew, swallow... u know, the usual :)

2. describe yourself-- magulo

3. sinong kachat mo ngun?-- wala.. no one's online.. boooo!

4. san k gaLing kanina??-- just home... later pa ang alis e

5. ano ginawa mo dun??-- tunganga

6. kailan ka last tumawa?-- right now.. laugh trip!

7. anong masasabi mo sa nagpatawa sayo?-- aus to a!

8. kailan ka last nagpalit ng photo?bakit?-- the other day? trip lng... kesa tunganga totally ryt?

9. anong plano mo mamayang gabi?-- originally, dinner & movie w/ blockies, pero no one's textng me the plans, so either go out w/ ai to FF or tunganga & pack for bicol na :)

10. favorite music, genre?-- whatever

11. kailan ka huling nilanggam?-- uhhh, yea- i forgot

12. ilan na nagview ng profile mo?-- 230

13. ilan na inbox mo?-- marami.. junk!

14. huling kinain mo?-- polvoron... langya, foodtrip ngayong sembreak a! nonstop!

15. huling ininom mo?-- tubig

16. last site na pinuntahan?-- friendster

17. do you like kids?-- oh yes!

KALALIMAN
1. nasubukan mo na bang mahalin ang isang tao dahil lang mahal ka nya kahit may iba kang mahal?-- hindi pa naman...

2. nasubukan mo na bang ibigay sa iba ang mahal mo kahit alam mong ikaw ang mahal nya?-- hahaha, r u kidding? the story of my life! (regrets? nah! after 4yrs, natapos ren!)

3. wat can you say sa taong pinili ang iba kesa sa mahal nya kasi alam nya yon ang tama?-- baket? baket ganon? haaaay, wala, inintindi ko nlng.. martyr ren ako e! sana lng no regrets (hmmm.. may bitter a!)

4. ano ang dapat pahalagahan ang utak o puso?-- ako kse puso e.. pero sabi nila, dapat balance...

5. philosophy in a relationship-- magmahal lang! come what may...

6. wat if mas maganda/gwapo ka sa pinalit sayo?-- aus lang... mejo insulto lng nman.. haha!

7. tama bang ipaubaya ang mahal mo sa iba?-- nope.. dapat pnaglalaban!

8. sino mas pipiliin mo,matagal mo ng kilala o lately lang?-- kng kanino ka mas masaya... kng sino ung mas ka-jive :)

9. kailan nawawala ang love?-- never

10. anong masasabi mo sa taong pilit nanagmamahal ng iba kahit iba ang mahal nya?-- wag ganyan! be honest, most especially sa sarili mo!

11. lahat ba ng problema ay napapag-usapan?-- hindi ren.. some things are better off forgotten.. tipong forgive & forget nlng

12. paano kapag nalaman mong iba pala ang mahal ng mahal mo?-- ouch, pero goodbye

13. ipaglalaban mo ba ang taong mahal mo at alam mong mahal ka?-- i would now... nagkamali na ako once, i won't make the same mistake (haha, bitterness?)

14. possible bang mamiss mo ang hindi mo namahal?-- i guess...

15. is it easy to start a new relationship kahit mahal mo pa rin ex mo?-- that doesn't work for me!

16. nasubukan mo na bang pag-aralan magmahalang isang tao?-- yea.. it wasnt hard though

17. madali lang ba mainlove ng sobra in a shortspan of time?-- it's possible

wassup for EU, man?!

2005-10-28T15:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm, what's been up? yesterday, we (meaning kats, tin, gi, noni & i) went to kamuning to buy cloth & have our aprons (for hospital duty) and extra uniforms made... my gawd, capping & pinning na sa nov5! hmmm, i wonder where we'll celebrate after... haha, im more excited sa celebration than sa actual ceremony. i mean, come on, how different is this fm my presch, elementary, high school & college grad? uupo lang there, try to behave ourselves for so much hours... tunganga lang. shempre, fun comes after!

anyway, we started early yesterday, so we were done around lunch time. i got home arnd 2, had lunch then continued my OTH marathon. i got a bit sleepy, so i took a nap. after 30mins, i woke up and continued my OTH marathon. how productive! guess what time i finished?! 6am! yup! that's 6 this morning! haha!

uhhmm, aira's got me convinced to go to the gym with her. and im thinking, "yea, it's about time." haha, last time i enrolled sa gym, i paid for 3 months gym time, i went there 2 or 3x lang! anyway, the classes look fun.. or if i get bored, i can just stay sa lounge & watch dvds or study while i wait for aira :p

so we're leaving for bicol on sunday, 3am. im finally going to the beach! yey! may quota dapat e... we all need to go to the beach at least 3 times a year to keep us healthy & sane... (last year was a record year, i think! i went to the beach 5-6x) 1x plng ako nakakapunta this year. bicol will be #2. hmmm.. if im good, il reward myself with a trip to any nice beach this christmas break... hehe! sort of like my christmas & bday gift to myself :)

im just home...

2005-10-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

finally finished reg... so yea, im officially enrolled! although im still thinking if ill take NSTP2 this sem.. i could take the sat 1-4 class, but that still depends. ill be crazy to waste an entire saturday in school! what's the rush anyway? but if noni wants to take it, it's fine. we're also petitioning to have a values2 class opened for us. so if that's approved, i can actually take all the minor subjects i lack... which means i'd have no minor subjects to take my following sems... booooooo!

hmmmm... bored at home. i was supposed to go with aira to the mall since she needs some stuff. but i guess we'll do that tomorrow. i was thinking about going to gh kanina... wanted to buy some accessories for my nano... but since i paid na for my capping, la na ako money... haaaaay! dami gastos!

oh yea, i was starting to watch OTH kanina, but i fell asleep midway through the 2nd episode. ill watch it again later, when every1 here's asleep na :)

hmmmm... nothing to do! oh yea, i have 2 books waiting for me pa pala!

countdown to bicol trip: 5 days!
(sis! nagpaalam na ako! i asked papa, sabi nya, "malayo un, sama mo yaya mo!" tpos he said, pagusapan nila ni mama... e papasok na si mama ng room so i said "mama, punta ako bicol ha!" and she said "pumunta ka!" hehe! o record yan ha! nagpaalam ako 5 days before! galing tlga ng mother & father dear ko! steady! the bestest!)

Q & A

2005-10-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

yey, sembreak!
im almost done enrolling. i only need to pay tomorrow then get my blue form. im taking 2 subjects lang... ncm 101 (16 units kse 8 units lec, tpos duty) & IT 2 (IT nursing whatever).. so mon-sat uli class ko. duty would be mon-wed (of course i have to make sure na walang duty ng friday & saturday! especially pagdating ng christmas season! o yan, no excuse to miss our parties!)... ncm101 lec ng thurs & fri. fri & sat naman ung IT. i was thinking of taking NSTP 2 na ren, but noni & i decided na we'll wait nlng for kats, gi & tin so we could all take it together... so un... i really hope this sem would be better for all of us!

so yea, im just home... what to do? what to do? edi mag survey!

1. who are you?~ soy eurosa

2. how do you feel today?~ steady, confused, anxious, sobrang naguguluhan... gusto ko umiyak, pero hindi ako naiiyak.. labo!... mamaya siguro! so hindi pala ako steady...

3. do you regret feeling that way?~ no... i don't like it, pero ganito tlga e

4. who was the last person who texted you?~ ronan (sana maging ok ka na!)

5. what's the song playing ryt now?~ you're beautiful - james blunt (nagulat ako bigla nag play after ko i-answer ung Q#4! perfect timing!)

6. how's the weather today/night?~ steady

7. who's the last person whom you chatted to?~ si andrew ung last nagleave ng msg but i was away fm the pc... ung nakausap ko tlga, si tin :)

8. what do you think of that person?~ si tin- she's wonderful (kasabay ko yan sa sira ulo moments e!) ... si andrew- he's nice

9. what brand do you choose:~ brand ng?

10. are you psychotic?~ nope, im totally sane... walang kokontra!

11. are you nice?~ usually...

12. how old are you?~ 22

13. what's your career gonna be?~ nurse, i guess... un inaaral ko e!

14. any current illness?~ wala naman... ung dating sakit pa ren... heart problem... haha, ilang years na tong ganito?!

15. current status?~ steady!

16. rocker or a hiphoper?~ hiphop nlng

17. eminem or dr. dre?~ ako

18. banana or hotdog?~ banana!

19. what time is it?~ 7.45pm

20. what's playing on ur mp3?~ it aint over til its over

21. is something bothering you?~ yups!

22. are you sad?~ yea...

23. what did you eat recently?~ spaghetti fm yellowcab... shoot, i had yellowcab for lunch & dinner!

24. what did you drink recently?~ agua

25. are you suicidal?~ nope! not me!

26. what are you thinking right now?~ waaaaahhhh!!! wag na, mashadong marami, nababaliw na nga friends ko saken e...

27. last person who was nice to you?~ everyone's nice

28. last person who was mean to you~ ewan ko... forget mean people!

29. what malls do you go to?~ khet san, basta mall!

30. what's the day today?~ monday

31. who's your crush? do you love him/her that much to the extent that you'd actually be his/her partner?~ crush? uhhhmmm, JAMES LAFFERTY! (sorry sis, sabi mo sayo si chad... iv fallen for james na... haha!) be his partner? why not?! that'd be fun! (oo na ai, cradle snatcher na kng cradle snatcher!)

32. anyone online today?~ yep.. marami sila.. im imbisibol, though...

33. who's the last person who gave you a testimonial?~ abet

34. what do you think of that person? is he/she nice?~ yea, he's nice.. and so kulelet!

35. what are you thinking right now?~ galing ng sagot ko sa previous Q a!

36. why are you thinking that thought?~ wala lng...

37. is there anything bothering you?~ yea

38. are you sure?~ yup.. obvious ba?

39. had fun in highschool?~ oh, love it! sobrang fun! haha, wow, i can't believe i can look back and think this way na.. hay nako, dati, parang ang laki ng problema ko! pano kse, ang aga nag bf... (o, no regrets ha...)

40. any unforgettable memories? marami mashado!

41. any song that makes you remember a past break up?~ bakit ngayon ka lang, ako'y sayo, ika'y akin, forevermore...

43. who are you missing right now?~ friends sa states...

44. what's in your pocket?~ im wearing boxers, no pockets

45. will you go to heaven or hell?~ heaven!

46. what are the 5 things you'll never leave home w/o?~ wallet, mobile, lipgloss... 3 nlng muna!

47. what time is it?~ 7:56pm ... enuf tym for another survey!
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1.the best nickname dat you ever have been called?~ eurosa (la lng.. sobrang gusto ko ung name na un!)

2. the best pals dat u've ever had?~ ai, pearl

3. the best places dat u ever been to?~ bohol! magic mountain!

4. the best gift dat u ever received?~ uhmm.. my life!

5. the best place 2 hang out?~ kahit san, basta wala mashadong gastos...

6. the best wardrobe dat u ever had?~hmmm... ewan ko.. basta pwede naka slippers!

7. best sport?~ basketball... UAAP basketball.. nothing like it!

8. the best thing dat u ever seen?~ hmmmm... this is hard...

9. the best ex among the ex(es)?~ nagiisa lang naman sha e...

10. the cutest animal that you like?~ our doggies... tarsiers!

11. the most adorable person to u?~ ryt now, james lafferty (ai, kaw may kasalanan nito e! sarap niyang isama sa beach para umitim.. then he'd be perfect!)

12. the most precious things that u ever received?~ my life nga... seryoso!

13. the most important people in ur life?~ my family & closest friends

14. the person dat u most miss?~ pearl

15. the most fav colors?~ red! pink ren

16. the saddest moment?~ when the truth hits u hard... and when u realize na ur falling out of love, or that khet anong gawin nyo, there's no point in pursuing a relationshp.. (o sabi naman no regrets un e.. khet 7 yrs un.. at least i can talk abt it now without wanting to kill myself!)

17. the happiest moment?~ pag nasa beach or when riding a good rollercoaster... or when ur with family & friends and nagkkwentuhan kayo and sobrang laugh trip... falling in love (o, san galing un?!)

18. the most romantic and memorable moment?~ uhmmm.. nothing comes to mind ryt now e...

19. the most suitable age to get married?~ uhmm.. 26? 27? 28? basta before i hit 30... pero let me enjoy singlehood muna!

20. the most eligible n charming guy/girl dat u adore: ano ba.. kulelet ha.. obvious bang si james lafferty?!

21. the person that you hate most?~ bawal hateful! it's bad for my health!

22. the best dream dat u hope to b real?~ beach house, steady life

23. the best colleague so far?~ colleague? my classmates?

24. the most frequent habits dat u do to urself: mag rant

25. the most irritating habit?~ depends who's doing it e...

26. the most fav teachers of ur highschool?~ sir melo (wala pang dot si.. wala pang dot si) & sir macky (steady! haha!)

27. the most fav band.?~ ung group namen ni shishi tartar & gicagix dati.. the best un!

28. the most fave vocalist?~ ako, fave singer ni shishi! haha... shox, miss ko na SAWI!

29. the best movie dat u ever seen?~ jerry maguire! all time favorite, hehe!

30. the best challenges in ur life?~ haaaay, pwedeng break muna from all challenges? walang tigil e!

31. the most fave frend 2 hang out with?~ aira, kdb, sawi

32. the best gift from my mommy?~ my life... her love... and ung pagiging steadyng mother nya! the best yan!

33. the most understanding person?~ marami... pamilya ko... si ate R

34. the most suitable place to get married?~ san sebastian church... sobrang gusto ko tlga ung church na un..

35. the most interesting place 4 honeymoon?~ basta secluded beach, kahet sang part pa ng mundo, id be happy!

36. the most suitable place 2 be buried?~ gusto ko, cremated tpos tago lang sa house...

37. the best age 2 die?~ basta old enough to have made all my dreams come true, pero not too old na pabigat na
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last na... pagod e!

1. anong brand ng suot mong tshirt ngayon?- no boundaries...

2. anong oras na?-- 8:28a

3. ano favorite mong gawin pag bored?- pag sa house, internet, soundtrip, tunganga, tulog (i try!), pag wala sa house, tunganga, soundtrip, chika

4. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?- i can see clearly now (woohoo! bob marley! beach tayo! countdown to bicol trip - 6 days!!!)

5. anong nararamdaman mo ngayon?- tamang steady, nalilito... hindi ko alam!

6. anong gagawin mo pag may sumuntok sayo ng walang reason?- waaaah! away to! pero kng malaki sha, sumbong ko sha! hmpf!

7. anong itsura mo pag nalalasing?- sabog, lutang, nagiging singkit raw, sobrang pula (oo na, mabilis nakong mamula...)

8. anong gagawin mo pag nakakuha ka ng Php1000 sa kalsada?- pulutin ko, duraan ko ung spot kng san ko napulot kse pag hindi raw gnawa un, kaw naman mawawalan..

9. anong balak mong gawin tomorrow?- punta school.. may meeting e.. lech!

10. anong brand ng huling sapatos na sinuot mo?- slippers e.. AE (waaaah, gusto ko ung isa ren! sana binili ko na!!! grrrr..)

11.kelan ka huling sumakay ng fx/taxi?- cab kanina... ayaw ako sunduin ni vicky e! palibhasa may pera sha and hindi nya kelangan humingi!

12. kelan ka huling nakakita ng multo?- never pa naman ako nakakita.. thank God!

13. umaakyat ka ba sa bubong ng bahay nyo?- uhhh, no

14. marunong ka bang lumangoy?- yups!

15. nakapunta ka na ba sa gateway mall?- yups!

16. ano huli mong kinain?- spaghetti... ay cookie pala for dessert!

17. nakasakay ka na ba ng cyclone loop sa starcity?- nope... parang hindi ko kaya sakyan un...

18. madalas ka bang makita sa baywalk?- hindi e...

19. nakakanta ka na ba sa videoke bar?- oo naman... pero private rm ha!

20. nakapasok ka na ba sa UP diliman?- yup, entrance test, stargazing, eco quiz bee, and shempre, FOODTRIP! (isaw, corn, fic, carioca! yumyum!)

21. anong katangian mo ang maipagmamalaki mo sa mga tao?-- uhhhmmm.. mabait naman ako, dba?

22. makulet ka bang tao?- hindi no! ang shy ko nga e.. super tahimik... ryt, friends?

23. magaganda ba kanta ni babyface?- yups! tamang steady!

24. e ng destiny's child?-- yups ren!

25. naexperience mo na ba na maglakad habang umuulan?- OO! memorable ung last 2.. tin & i going sa derma.. lech! tpos KDG walkng back to sch fm kenny.. lech! buti nlng i brought extra clothes.. bad day!

26. magaling ka ba magscrabble?- i dont know... tagal na ko hndi naglalaro e

27.mahilig ka ba sa movies ni jackie chan?- mas gusto ko si jet li!

28. ok ba sayo ang long distance relationship?- siguro kaya ko kng matagal na kme together.. tpos alam namen na temporary lng, na we'd be together again soon.. hndi ko kaya ng matagal.. pag lampas 1 yr.. lech! hindi ko kayanin!

29. kelan ka huling namili sa sm?- hmmm.. cant remember!

30. anong gagawin mo pag may biglang humalik sayo ng hindi mo alam?- kng si james lafferty, aus lng!

31. describe mo nga mga friends mo?- sobrang steady.. priceless!

32. may nagregalo ba sau nung bday mo?- yup! pinakamemorable pa ren gift ng sawi.. thanks for making my dream come true.. mga lokaloka kayo! i still have the card.. and the 2 naked guys are still there...

same realizations

2005-10-22T03:04:00.000+08:00

bored, not yet sleepy (mother, why do u have to be such an insomniac? why'd i have to get this from you?! hehe!) and with nothing to do, i went to peyups.com... it's been some time since i read something from there...

so anyway, there's this article entitled realizations... la lng.. parang nice sha :)

Realizations
Contributed by iced_coffee (Edited by amplifier)
Sunday, October 09, 2005 @ 12:00:00 AM

For as long as I could remember, I have been living in this peaceful and undisturbed place, enclosed in sturdy and powerful walls. Plenty of people have tried to lure me away from here. Some say that I was missing half of my life by confining and isolating myself. Others condescendingly shake their heads in amusement, and knowingly declare that I will eventually surface from my dwelling. Whereas others more seek to tempt me, by promising things left and right, trying to make me believe that it was better for me to be with them, and outside my sheltered condition.

Amongst all these, I stubbornly shook my head in defiance, because I was certain that my present situation was what’s best for me. It is my choice to be here, anyway. Away from pain, sheltered from sorrow, and safe from getting hurt once again.

But as fate would have it, you came. Amidst the crowd, you held out your hand to me. I tried my best to refuse you, I really did. I burrowed myself further inside my place, but still you were persistent. I tried to get in touch with my cynical nature and recalled the reasons why I would rather confine myself in the first place, but I was unsuccessful. Slowly, reluctantly, I find myself leaving my personal hole. And you were there, waiting.

You opened my eyes to a wonderful place, and indeed, I felt bliss. There was so much to explore, things I never thought existed, and emotions I have almost forgotten I was capable of feeling. I finally came across things that I only saw in my secret fantasies. You and me. Together. And for that moment, that is all that mattered.

Yes, for a while I genuinely forgot about my past existence, and I have almost convinced myself that, as long as you are here, I was better and happier. Almost. Without warning, I slowly stirred from my trance, like a light bulb inside my head was turned on. I was reminded of the cruel realities that seem to cast a shadow over this different world I am now in. People who previously appeared as angels were now creeping back to me as monsters of my past. Places that seemed beautiful and magnificent now looked haunted. A variety of unfamiliar feelings slithered inside me—jealousy, sadness, bitterness.

I searched for you, but you were not there. All of a sudden, your fingers deliberately slipped away from mine. The hand, the very being, I foolishly believed would always be there, was gone.
Now I am lost and confused. I cannot return to where I came from, for you have already shown me another world beyond my own, a place where I ridiculously trusted that dreams could come true yet again. I cannot remain in this world either, since I am afraid of not being able to survive on my own, without you to hang on to.

It took me quite a while to realize, and to finally admit to myself, that I have fallen in love with someone I should not have fallen in love with. And now I have no idea what to do next and where to go. The wall that used to be my shelter already has crumbled down at my feet. Once more, I am everything I swore I never will be again.
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wala lang... i want to sleep!!!

oh, i was looking forward to going out of town 2x this sembreak, ryt? well, 1 got cancelled... but at least there's still bicol to look forward to... wow, beach. sana we'd go surfing. haha! ryt, magfeeling! basta sand, sun & water, ayos na ako!

busyness?!

2005-10-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

oh goodness! i haven't posted for over a month! haha! it's not that i've been busy.. tamad lang tlga... anyway, so yea, i went to pearl & jomar's wedding... then peepo's baptism & first bday (well, actually, i wasn't able to go to the baptism since i had to go out with my family muna..) so un nga... i was telling dearest mother that im getting old na... what's up?! me attending weddings & baptisms of my friends' babies! what's wrong with the world?!

then just yesterday, aira & i heard some news... (sis, alam mo ba ung latest? si ano raw.. buntis! oo! nabuntis ni ano! haaay... because the baby is now a lady, and soon she'll be a mommy who'll have her own baby! hahaha!) wala lng...

it's just that her's was the last debut i went to... that was a little over a year ago. and now, we learn that she's preggy. still not sinking in! haha, aira & i spent over 2 hrs talkng about it sa cbtl... & we kept talkng abt it even while watchng 40 yr old virgin (sis, she's 19, obviously not a V kse she's having a baby in a couple of months! haha.. ang kulelet!)

gaaaaawwdddd... tumatanda na tayo! (oo, hndi lang ako.. pati kayo! :p)
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sembreak na! nakabawi na ako ng tulog... im almost finished w/ shopaholic ties the knot... i have 2 more books to read.. iv seen 2 movies sa moviehouse... iv started my OTH marathon. actually, 1 episode pa lng... ill try watchng some more tomorrow. i can't watch OTH while reading, can i?! out-of-town trip nlng, complete na... and there are 2 coming up! so yea... makng the most of it...

coz next sem, hospital duty na! buti nlng super light load lang kse im done with my GEs and all... basta 3 subjects nlng-- NSTP2 (tell me again why we need to take this...), values 2 (may values naman ako a!) & IT 2.. (sana bumalik si sir AGA!) i don't have to take them this sem... but i dont know.. ill probably take NSTP 2, get a certificate fm ateneo OSCI that iv been to several immersions and all para i don't have to go out sa community or sa camping (hello! iv spent 2 nyts sa farm sa batangas... that's enuf immersion for me! yoko pumunta sa makiling no... may mumu there e!)

yun lng.. i guess that's all the babaw stuff that's been happening to me...

so yea, soundtrip muna while reading shopaholic... tamang steady!

:'(

2005-09-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

we lost...

again.

i was actually feeling good when i got to araneta since we were lucky to get upper A tickets (& not from scalpers!)... so k3n & i thought WE'RE GONNA WIN!

oh well...

tenorio played so well, it's heartbreaking. magnum had a pretty good game too. it's their last against la salle...

hmmmm... life goes on.

on a brighter note, im leaving for cali either wednesday or thursday to attend pearl's wedding, which will be on friday in vegas. im so excited!

but i need to come home right away... i can't miss my finals & i dont want to take late finals coz we might be going to palawan during the sembreak... (how am i paying for all these? i have no idea!)

beep, beep!

2005-09-19T03:47:00.000+08:00

ano mas mahirap?

umasang mamahalin ka ng mahal mo...

o

subukang mahalin yung nagmamahal sayo?

pareho, dba?

pero, mas mahirap

pag mahal mo na yung nagmamahal sayo

kung kelan

mahal ka na ng mahal mo.

AYOS!!!

sniff, sniff

2005-09-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

we lost...

we stand on a hill (sniff, sniff)
between the earth & sky (sniff, sniff)
now all is still (sniff, sniff) where loyola's colors fly (sniff, sniff)
our course is run & the setting sun (sniff) ends ateneo's day
eyes are dry (waaaaahhhhhhh! sniff, sniff) at the last goodbye
this is the (sniff) ateneo way...

haaay... im sad.

would you believe...

2005-09-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

just last wednesday, i learned that my other sis is getting married... at the end of this month! goodness, has it been that long? weren't we just going shopping, boyhunting and watching basketball together yesterday? now, she's getting married & im still single?

im so happy for pearl. she's found a good man. although i haven't seen her & jomar as much as i wanted to, im so sure he'll take care of her and make her so happy. (he should, or else...)

anyhow, im still not sure if i can go to her wedding. of course i want to go... she said that if i go, we'd spend the last day of her being a free woman as "clean" sluts in vegas. wouldn't it be fun? us girls going around vegas? what to do? hmmm...

anyway, i don't want to get too excited about it... but i swear, iv been going crazy, thinking of what we'd do for her "bachelorette's party" (does it count as a bachelorette's party if there's just 2 or 3 of us?) good thing it's in vegas. im sure we'll find something to do...

don't u just love weddings? last one i went to was anna & james' last year. it was a simple one... but it was still so pretty. u just feel the happiness of everyone there.

however, i hope my friends here sa pinas would start marrying soon. i mean, im not complaining that i have to travel to attend my friends' weddings... but if i'd have to keep traveling to attend their weddings, id be so broke, i won't have money to get married! (haha, un ung pinoproblema... isn't my not having someone to marry a bigger problem?)

so anyway, congratulations and all my best to pearl & jomar! i'll see u guys soon! i love you!
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so, survey time again. i love answering surveys (hindi ba halata?) pero i don't like answering them and posting them sa friendster bulletin board. kaya i just post them here...

1. whose picture is it that you keep onyour wallet?
i don't keep pictures in my wallet anymore

2. what time do you go to bed?
around 1 or 2 am.. pero sometimes, id have to get up again and find something to do to make me sleepy...

3. what was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
had dinner

4. who's the one you always meet the most? nowadays?
KDg, aira

5. who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?
depends... usually aira & my family

6. what's on your mind just now?
i want to go to pearl & jomar's wedding. i want to go to vegas & magic mountain and go to glendale galleria, ralphs, vons, smart&final, costco (haha, puro grocery!) & target.

7. who's number on your speed dials?
papa, mama, kelay, vicjay, home, yaya, basti, aira

8. with whom do you wanna be to have fun?
all my friends.. they're all fun!

9. what's the latest movie you'vewatched?
sa moviehse, stealth. next one im watching, lovestruck w/ aira & shine! yipeeee!

10. when was the last time you went out?
this afternoon to hear mass

11. what do you hate the most for now?
none!

12. when was the first time you slept alone?
i forgot.. long ago

13. what do you wanna do for now?
get enough sleep

14. what do you do for everyday besides eat and sleep?
go to school, hang out with my friends, go online

15. what things could piss you off?
super yabang people

16. fave pet?
mint & katrin!

17. colors that make you happy?
red, yellow, pink

18. most fave thing in your room?
the computer, pictures, my bead curtain

19. what was the last thing you bought for your room?
incense na i can't find anymore... kinuha nila yaya!

21. do you cook?
nope, i microwave

22. miss someone?
a lot of people...

23. plan to buy something?
marami ren... i dont know if i could buy them... im broke!

24. are you satisfied with your life now?
loving it!

25. do you like seafood?
yup! can't wait to eat in dampa again!

26. breakfast or dinner?
dinner

27. what do you usually eat for breakfast?
whatever's in the table

28. did you eat breakfast today?
nope... overslept again!

29. do you recycle?
nope.. guilty!

30. do you have a cellphone?
i do

31. what's your favorite fastfood?
kfc

32. cats or dogs?
doggies

33. salty or sweet?!
sweet

34. city or country?
city during the weekdays, country on the weekends...

37. are you athletic?
nope! last time i trained was almost 5 yrs ago! hahaha!

39. would you ditch your friends for a date?
nope!

41. what do you wear to bed?
tank top

42. ever had a crush on a teacher?
no! although sir dumlao is cute.. kaso he knows it kaya feeling minsan. buti nlng he' smart ren...

43. coke or pepsi?
neither

44. sugar or spice?
sugar

45. can you use chopsticks
yup!

48. have you ever fallen asleep in class?
im sure i have..

49. get a job or ask your parents for money?
get a job!

50. is your dad strict?
no!

51. do your parents give you enough privacy?
yups!

52. do your parents trust you?
im sure they do

53. would you trade places (in life) withyour best friends?
haha, pnaguusapan namen to before... NO WAY! hindi ko kaya ung pinagdadaanan nya.. and im sure she doesn't want to be stuck with my issues.. steady lang.. kaya namen kng ano meron sa buhay namen

54. does your best friend get on ur nerves?
nope

55. any question u want to add?
wala naman
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stealing another survey from aira..

1. First thing you did this morning:
talked to my brother- asked him what time we're hearing mass then went back to sleep

2. Last thing you ate:
paning's butong pakwan (hanggang sa bahay ang addiction!)

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
no.. not yet

4. What's the thing you look forward to most in the next 7 months?
sun-rose bday bash, KDB tagaytay trip, pearl & jomar's wedding, magic mountain (haha! im wishing i can go!), hospital duty, pa & jay's bday, bday namen ni mama, basti's bday, christmas, new year, falling in love (uh wait, where did that come from?! hahaha!), sem break, road trips, going to some beach...

5. What's annoying you right now?
nothing... happy happy

6. Whats the last movie you watched?
moviehse- stealth, at home - sum of all fears

7. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
nope! can't imagine me in it... i need proximity :)

8. What's worse... being in love with someone you can't have or pretending to love someone you don't?
pretending to love some1 u dont, i think... (iv tried the other and iv survived, havent i?)

9. Is there someone you miss so much it makes you sad?
ryt now, yeah. dont get any ideas... im missing my friends i havent seen for the longest time

10. What inspires you?
my family, my friends

11. If you could put together a concert of 5 bands, who would you choose?
i dont know...

12. Lyrics that sums up your love life?
i'll be ok :)

13. Whats the one thing you wish you could do better?
cooking ren (hehe, aira! we're hopeless!)

14. If you could do anything this second, what would it be?
go to my bed and instantly fall asleep!

15. What's your most vivid memory from 6th grade?
intrams... ewww, we had the worst team name!

16. Latest addiction?
chai tea latte

17. Have you ever had the slight urge to kill someone?
nope!

18. How many people would you say you were interested in at this moment?
interested? how? 1?

19. Who are you in love with?
haaay, wala. sha nalng kaya uli?

20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily? im sure there are some people who do... i mean, i have my family and friends, ryt?

21. Are you self confident?
i guess

22. What would you change about yourself?
my sleeping habits

23. What book are you reading right now?
just finished confessions of a shopaholic... i borrowed book5 of left behind & shopaholic in manhattan...

24. How many people do you know with the same name as yours?
haha! im unique!

25. What was the last thing you spilled?
sauce for the steamed wanton we had for dinner...
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and another... i can't sleep!

1.Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
i think so

2. Have you ever eaten pork?
of course!

3. Have you ever vomited in a vehicle?
yup! buti nalng, may plastic!

5. Have you ever slapped ur (ex)partner?
yup... he asked for it

6. Have you ever gotten so drunk?
oh yes! and it's all because of ron tan! ill never forget that... white flag!

7. Have you ever ridden an elephant?
nope

8.Have you ever felt as if u were gonna die?
no

9. Have you ever hugged a crush?
yep!

10. Have you ever played with fire? literally or figuratively?
yea.. literally. we played with our bonfire in bohol

11. Have you ever cried for the one u love?
yea...

12. Does he or she know about it?
yea.. it's usually kse when were talking on the phone or pag magkasama kme... iyakan sesh!

13.Have you ever missed someone so badly?
oh yes!

14 Have you ever gotten stones thrown at you?
nope!

15. have you ever been unfaithful? unfaithful?
no way! not me...

16.Have you ever gotten pepper in ur eyes?
nope, dont think so

17. Have you ever gotten a surprise present?
a surprise party i learned about...

18. Have you ever been on a diet?
hanggang planning stage lang ako e

19. Have you ever stripped someone naked?
nope pa...

20.Have you ever taken a picture of urself?
oh, definitely! cam whore!

21. Have you ever clubbed til dawn?
yea... they dragged me

27. Have you ever been so angry u felt like killing the person?
nope! i maintain a certain level of sanity even when im angry...

28. Have you ever broken up due to the existence of a third party?
yea.. that was one of the reasons...

29. Have you ever wanted to commit suicide?
never! i loooooooovvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeee my life!

30.Have you ever challenged ur teacher?
nope, i just ask questions...

31.Have you ever been told that u are cute?
yup, usually sarcastically... otherwise, it's just probably mother dear :)

32. Have you ever confessed ur feelings?
oh yes

33. Have you ever lied to ur parents?
long time na i havent

34. Have you ever been robbed?
nope, thank God!

survey on...

2005-08-29T02:24:00.000+08:00

love!

haha, let's see...

AIRA-- you have to answer this in your blog... take a break- don't over study! i don't want a crazy sister!

Are you allowed to have a bf/gf?
+ siguro naman! although feeling ko, mama & papa are secretly praying na wag muna... hehe :)
Describe yourself in one word when it comes to love?
+ my friends would say - im TANGA. i say- im ... i dont know :)
Who would you pick, someone who really loves you or the one you really love?
+ my answer still hasn't changed-- id still go for the one i love :)
Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him?
+ kung love- NO. 1 pa lang naman e. tinanong nya saken if mahal ko sha, edi sinabi ko!
Does it feel good to love?
+ yup!
Is it hard if you love him, he loves you-- but it's impossible?
+ oh, YES! sobrang sakit. i remember that time-- (uy, 4 yrs, 5 months & 6 days ago na un... wow, 4-5-6! hehe!) he told me lots of times na he still loves me, tapos i never told him how i felt.. tpos that day, he finally asked me if i love him... ang tagal ko bago sinagot (although i know obvious naman ung sagot e). when i finally did answer, i just cried kse wala akong magawa. ayun, nag-iyakan lang kame sa car nya... huhuhu :'(
God is giving u just 5 more minutes to live. if you love someone, what will you say to that person?
+ normal kwentuhan, tpos i love you. matagal pa naman ang 5 mins e!
What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you love him/her?
+ hay, maniwala ka. hindi ko basta-basta sinasabi yun e :)
Which one hurts the most, s/he left you or played with you?
+ played with me.
Was there ever a time when you tried to learn to love someone
+ yup.. it wasn't that hard, though :)
What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?
+ it's sometimes forgivable, as long as it's not exag. they should learn to be more trusting... trusting lang, hindi tanga ha!
What can you say about people who try to resist love?
+ why resist such a gift? baka s/he's just scared... come, come, there's nothing scary about it... NYEK! (tpos kwentuhan kme ng love horror stories-- abt someone leaving someone for someone else... hahaha!)
What can you say about playboys/playgirls?
+ laro lang ng laro.. basta alam ng kalaro mo na laro lang yun. wala lang sakitan...
What can you say about those who hurt you?
+ wala naman e. looking back, i know it was my choice (not fault, CHOICE!)
What can you say to the person who loves you now?
+ wala ren e. asan ka na ba? kahit nga sweet fantasy, wala e. (aira, help!)
How do you love?
+ im super loyal & giving (love -- hindi lang romantic love ha.. this includes loving my friends & family) my friends say im stupid when im in love. pero hindi nila alam kng pano talaga... nyek, haha!
Do you get attracted easily?
+ nope! but im not pihikan.
Are you a jealous type?
+ no... to a fault!
Who's more important? FRIENDS OR FAMILY?
+ FAMILY, of course! constant yan e...

CBTL promenade

2005-08-27T12:53:00.000+08:00

after our KDB dinner (noni's treat- pizza hut! thanks, friend for life!), i asked my brother to drop me off at GH so i could hang out with aira & shine.

another per sé but i have to charge session for us. i bet the people in the next table think we're weirdos. well, live & let live.

one thing that struck me yesterday... aira asked me if i was really over him. without having to think, i nodded. then shine asked if i still love him. again, not missing a beat, i said yes.

weird, ryt? but then, that was as honest as it could get.

i mean, i could now really say i am over him (after almost 7 long years!) but i haven't totally forgotten him (how could u totally forget someone u were with... lalo na, 1st love.... ewwww, cheesy!) but i no longer think of him and pray that he'll bump his head and realize na he should ask me back again. i no longer regret doing what i did, not taking him back, not giving us a 2nd chance. i mean, everything turned out ok eventually, ryt? i just laugh at myself whenever i remember that for how many years, i convinced myself (and insisted to my friends) that someday, we'll be back together. once in a while, i remember him and think "wow, i havent thought of him for so long!" hehe, galing no!

but of course, there's this part of me that will always love him. although it's very different from what i felt for him before, it's still love. i don't actually know how to describe it... but shine understood it anyway, so i guess i don't have to explain myself anymore. :)

so, yea... i guess im healed na. finally! yipeeee!

pix uploaded!

2005-08-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

finally, a decent dsl connection! as promised, iv uploaded pictures from my camera. so check them na lng... the links are in the right side of your screen... :)

cravings...

2005-08-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

after 3 days of bugging basti's yaya to make fresh lumpiang ubod for dinner, we finally had it today! so when she texted me that we're having it for dinner, i rushed home... YUM, YUM, YUM!

however, im still sad since i havent had TWIX yet. iv been craving for it since monday morning. we went to hi-top earlier. they didn't have it. i asked my brother to buy me some, he went to 3 convenience stores, and they didnt have any, either...

am i that bad a person that i can't have even one bar of TWIX? (exag!) sad, so sad...

what's so bad pa is i dont want any other chocolate bars... i mean, if i can't have twix, then im not having any. coz i know that even if i eat another chocolate bar, id still crave for twix. so bale wala lang ung kakainin kong chocolate...

SAD... so SAD...

free spirit

2005-08-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

once in a while, we have to give in to our need to hang out with friends and rant about everything-- including the shallowest things.

the best way to rant-- gather ranting friends, hang out in a nice spot (CBTL in promenade is really pretty! chai! chai! chai!), bring ur mp3 players-- AND RANT YOUR HEARTS OUT...

then laugh, come up with silly ideas, dares, plans... fun!

hay, but after that, it's back to reality for us. back to school... and even if we ranted our hearts out already, the topic of our rants are still there...

but who cares-- we can go rant again! yey!

aira's free spirit poem says it all

weird...

2005-08-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

i saw CRASH with tin & gi last nyt... how's the movie? WEIRD! i swear...
it's too deep (but feels too shallow), too heavy, too negative. ludacris is too mad at the world... i can't believe LA is as racist as he thinks. come on, that's LA! being a person with color is the in thing there now! there are no cops as cute as ryan phillippe. there are no filipinos-- i mean, come on! when im there, i sometimes forget im not in the pinas!
weird... so weird! we should've seen stealth or wedding crashers instead!
anyway, my family's watching CHARLIE & THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY tomorrow. i loved the first one, and my brother vicky says this one's nice rin. can't wait!
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so anyway, im doing a survey again since im stuck at home with nothing to do. well, actually, i have to stay at home and study for my chem validation test. it's comprehensive, but iv no idea what topics i need to study. so bahala na!

1.lets start with your name
eurosa maria veronique

2. unang araw na nakita ka sa mundo
nung 23rd bday ng pinakamagandang babae sa mundo... nanay ko-- 10 dec 82 (yupyup, magka bday kme. pati si brother vicky& father dearest ko... astig no!)

3. living with parents?
but of course! back home, no more rent!

4. first time you fell in love?
too young for it to be legal

5. naging kayo?
oo e.

6. jeep or bus?
whichever

7. gaano katagal yung record mo ngpakikipag usap sa fone ng tuloy-tuloy?
5-6 hours?

8. softdrinks or icedtea?
neither. water addict e

9. first thing na ginagawa mo pag gising mo?
reach for my phone to check the time

10. pag naliligo ka ano una mong binabasa?
my feet

11. ano dream car mo?
wala... basta may car and i dont have to drive myself, im ok :)

12. 10 years from now..you are?
fabulous...

13. what are thinking ryt now?
drop ko na lng kaya chem? tinatamad ako mag aral for my validation test e!

15. choice of color?
red or yellow or pink

16. unit ng fone mo?
6170

17. wer are you ryt now?
floor @ my parents' rm

18. wat r are wearing ryt now?
oversized jersey

19. nagsasalamin ka ba sa mata?
yup, bad trip nga e!

20. may pet ka?
yup! dami

21. ano?
a sister, 2 brothers & 2 cute doggies

22. long hair or short hair?
me? long

23. hot or cold?
warm

24. anong size ng paa mo?
7.5, 8, 9 or 10, depends where im buying

25. your fav coffee shop?
hands down-- COFFEE BEAN & TEA LEAF! i don't drink coffee, kaya tea lattes lang sa CBTL ang nagpapasaya saken :)

26. anong ringtone mo?
stay (cute talga ni jay & ruben, dba sis?)

27. na try mo na bang bunutin yung sarili mong ngipin?
yups! 2 or 3x ata

28. trip mo bang mag around the world?
ultimate dream...

29. funniest line you've ever heard?
hahahahahaha!

30. last words?
hwe?

31. ano nga b pangalan mo?
yung totoo, eurose. kaso parang ang short & bitin kaya nagpaalam ako sa parents ko na papalitan ko na. haha! weirdo raw ako
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1.what if someone ask u for a date?
im busy... may date kme ng bed ko

2.what if that person is your ultimate crush?
piolo? jc? go!

3.what if nalaman mo na may anak na bf/gf mo?
instant family!

4.what if someone gave u 1 million dollars for a nude portrait?
thanks! haha, dignity?

5.what if ung nanliligaw sau / nililigawan mo ay ngtxt na break na kau?
break? e hindi naman kme... that's funny!

6.what if umulan ng pako?
it's raining nails... hallelujah!

Who's who

1.who would u like to give thanks to?
my fabulous family

2.kanino mo gustong sabihin e2-- pls give me another chance?
wala naman.

3.eh e2-- I dont wanna see u anymore
si popeye. ask tin kng sino un. naiirita ako now when i see him. ang feeling! ang tanda na e...

4.who would u like to be stuck in an elevator and ano sasabihin mo?
ayaw ko ma stuck sa elevator... scary un! baka sabihin uli ng guard na wag kami umalis dun e... astig tlga guard sa condo ni gelo!

5. who would u like to have a cup of coffee with?
cup of tea... my friends

6.sinong gusto mong maging presidente ng Pilipinas?
si piolo... nyek!

Where's where

1.where do u like to get married?
san sebastian church (childhood dream!)

2.where is your favorite hang out?
my bed

3.where was your first kiss (pang bf/gf)?
sa bahay

4.where did u meet/see your ultimate (ex) crush?
si piolo? hindi kme close. si jc, nakikita ko lang sa school dati. minsan, nasa colayco for some photocopies, kaya love ko bench namen e!

5.where was the last time u were before fronting the computer?
my brother's bed. i was sleeping

6.where did you spend your summer vacation?
what summer vacation? bahay, divisoria, galera & fontana

What's what
1. what gift did u receive in your last b-day?
pinaka memorable, ung card na bigay ng sawi, with the 2 naked ups guys.

2. what would u give to a dying friend?
anything s/he asks me for

3. what were the last words your ex told u?
i dont know.

4. ?!?!?!?!?

5. what was the last gift u gave someone?
i forgot na... book yata for jacey

6. what would u say to the one who made this questions?
thanks!

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1 .How many times have you fallen inlove?
2x. same guy. olats! once na almost lang

2. Did they love you back?
ung 1 sure ako, he did.

3. When you fall out of love, do you easily giv up and get out of the relationship?
nope.

4. hu made you laugh the most?
my friends

5. Cry most?
ang ex

6. Spend time with most?
now, KDB

7. The one you can never 4get
a lot...

8. Did ya ever love someone that didnt become your bf or gf?
yup... 2nd time i fell in love with a particular guy.. bitter?

9. Have you ever cried for a girl/boy?
yup! i cry a lot e

IF ONLY...

2005-08-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

after not seeing each other for almost 2 weeks, aira and i went out yesterday to watch IF ONLY. we've heard a lot of people say it's good... so, of course we had to see it!

it's a pretty sad movie... we were both crying na, then we'd look at each other and laugh. panira lang ung couple beside us. sad part of the movie, the girl goes "nakakaiyak!" then the guy goes "panget!"oh well...

so anyway, aira and i were talking about the movie after. (if u don't want to know what happens, press alt+f4 now...)

aira and i were asking each other why it had to end that way. i mean, i was hoping that the 2nd time around, they live since the guy obviously was able to appreciate the girl and all...

but i guess life's really like that. some people are not meant to stay with us forever- even, and sometimes, especially, the ones we love most.

they come into our lives to teach us a lesson, or to make us happy for some time... or whatever. it's really sad... but life goes on...

WOW!

2005-07-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

finally, im done with this sem's prelims!

clap, clap, clap!

and ATENEO just won over UP! and jc played so well! (although i didnt catch the entire game again since i had to be in school and take my research exam... kainis!)

clap, clap, clap, jump, jump, jump.. jump+clap, jump+clap, jump+clap...

we stand on a hill between the earth & sky... win or lose, it's the school we choose. this is the place where we belong... we pray you keep us Mary constantly true. we pray you keep us Mary faithful to you!

oh, happiness!
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finally, capria's arriving tomorrow. we were supposed to get her last weekend, but basti was not able to go and get her. so now, he's there, he's sleeping over... and when he comes home tomorrow, he'll be bringing her home!

and papa said we can finally get my camera from the repair shop. yey! i miss my camera. my friends say that kelay's digicam (the 1 iv been using) is nice coz we all come out pretty... but i swear, my camera is much much nicer! so she's coming home this week and im so excited :)

happiness, happiness!

no more drama, please

2005-07-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

A simple life. That’s what I always ask for. Simple, uncomplicated, plain. I don’t like attention. I don’t like drama.

But goodness, u wouldn’t believe our weekend adventure. Even I have a hard time believing it. It feels like something out of the movies. And im hating every bit of it.

I swear, it’ll take me years and a whole lot of prayers to learn to forgive those people! people close to me know how much I love my family and friends. Mess with them, ur gonna get it from me. I know I resolved to be less violent, much nicer this year… but come on… I swear, those brainless gits will regret what they did.

No, I won’t break my new year’s resolution. But im gonna make sure that they’ll be so miserable!

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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so anyway, despite everything, im still staying positive. I know everything eventually falls into place, so I won’t be stressing too much. And I know that I do receive little blessings everyday. Right now, I take time to remember them before I go to sleep to keep me from going crazy with shit happening everywhere.

Like last week, I was craving for corn. When I came home from school, yaya bought corn for me and that’s what I had for dinner! I did not ask her to buy them for me… hmmm, pleasant surprise! yummy!

then last Saturday, ateneo won against ust… and intal played so well (although I wasn’t able to watch it since I could not go home, and I didn’t want to stay in my mom’s boss’ house without my sibs…)

also last saturday, my brother fell so in love with the shihtzu of my mom's boss. he went up to him and told him he wanted the doggie, so he gave it to my brother... which means we have a new dog! or we will have one, anyway... she (the dog, her name's CAPRIA... cute, ryt?) will be brought here this weekend. we could not bring her home yesterday since she still has a vet appointment, i think... im so excited!

another thing, harry potter 6 came out. we got our copy last saturday. i read it after kelay finished it. (prelims? what prelims?!) WOW! i actually cried when... haha, i won't ruin it for you! it's my new harry potter favorite. i can't wait for the movie to come out.

and earlier, I ran into an old friend. My sister asked me to buy her and her friends bibingcrepe. So after my class, I dropped by their store and I saw my high school batchmate. The best thing about it is that she partly owns half moon! So she gave me a discount card… and we chikad for a few minutes. It’s always nice to run into an old friend and get updated with stuff! I do hope our high school class (spcp2000! Unmask the unseen, juniors extreme!… stand back, amazed, seniors ablaze!) has a reunion soon. It’s been five long years, and it would be so nice to see those people again…

so anyway, yeah… I know I should not be blogging since it prelims week, I have 3 exams tomorrow, an oral and a written test on wed, a written and a practical test on thurs, an exam on Friday and on Saturday…

but it’s still early and studying at this time, with my brothers and sisters still up, will be totally fruitless.

Hmmmm.. so yea, ill be staying up until God-knows-what-time to try and cram whatever info I can cram into my brain… wish me luck!

an interesting survey...

2005-07-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

i got this from the friendster bulletin board... i thought it would be interesting to answer it!

1. looks or charms?
definitely charms...
2. love that never was or love that could've been?
ouch... in my case, it has always been "could've been" and it sucks! 3x is enough, another one & id go crazy!
3. end up with a person who has everything you want and looking for, or end up with someone you totally connect with?
someone i totally connect with... coz sometimes, we think we want something/someone, and when we finally have him/her/it, we realize we want someone/something else... so i don't want to make that mistake and regret it.
4. be with a person you have lots in common with,or someone with a different personality from you?
somewhere in between... i don't want us to be totally similar coz it could get boring, but i don't want us to constantly fight coz we couldn't agree on anything
5. an inner bad boy/girl or an inner good boy/girl?
inner good!
6. smart or funny?
smart- but not nerdy smart... i want someone i could talk to... and someone who can make me laugh
7. a person more adventurous or a person more laid-back?
both please... someone willing to try new things.. food trip! road trip...but of course, there are days when i just want to do nothing...
8. think first before falling in love; or fall in love first, think later?
im more of a heart-over-mind person... but i realized that i think too much... that's why it always ends up as a could've been thing
9. give up everything for love or give up love to live your dreams?
right now, id have to say give up love to live my dreams.. but i guess that's coz im not in love... but ideally, my loved one would share my dreams so... in this not so ideal world, i have no idea
10. when you found someone you love, would you get into a relationship with that person knowing for sure it wouldn't last, or just be friends with them so that s/he will always be there?
get into a relationship... how can u be just friends with someone you are in love with? there's something so fake about it-- you're holding something back and i wouldn't want to offer a friendship that isn't genuine. plus, im sure that if you really love each other, things do fall into place... but i don't know, that happens in my ideal world...
11. when it comes to love, do you surrender to fate or break away from fate?
surrender to fate... i believe that we should let things be... i don't know, but i've always believed that when ur a couple, you shouldn't be working too hard on your relationship. yea, u have to exert some effort to make each other happy. and of course, there will always be problems to test you... but when ur always fighting and u keep on having problems and it seems like there's no end to it, then i believe it's time to let go... BUT this only goes for unmarried couples... coz i believe that once you get married, there's no giving up anymore... haha, hard to be in my ideal world!
12. meet "the one" at first love or have other relationships before finally meeting "the one"?
have other relationships before meeting the one... but not too much... 1 "trial" relationship is ok... haha!
13. would you fall for someone you can't have, or forget about it and distance yourself from her/him?
forget about it and distance myself from him... although that doesn't really work... well, it does, after a little over 4 years!
14. do you believe true love lasts forever or true love is whatever length of time you get to spend together?
true love lasts forever... im a relationship-idealist, remember?
15. find love or wait for love?
wait for love... coz im still young and having the time of my life.. but when im 27 and still single, im going on an all-out search for him!
16. would you settle for someone or continue to wait for someone that might never come?
continue to wait for someone... i don't settle for anything or anyone... if i can't have what/who i want, then i won't have any
17. seek approval of important people in your life before you marry someone, or it's your decision and your decision alone if you're going to marry her/him?
seek approval... coz when it comes to marriage, the honeymoon stage can only last for so long... when things are starting to get shitty, we'd need the support of people who matter to us. but im going to make sure that these important people in our lives would approve of us, or else...
18.making a commitment, easy or hard?
if im ready, then it's easy for me.

why we're best friends...

2005-07-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

let me share this something aira wrote in her blog in response to my ranting... in a past blog, i asked, "why can't everything just be perfect?"

here's what aira said:

if everything is so perfect then we wouldn't know about important things like PATIENCE, PERSEVERANCE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE & SACRIFICES...we are living in an IMPERFECTLY PERFECT WORLD where people can laugh and cry at the same time...where miracles can happen twice...where fairy tales do not always have a "happily ever after" ending but have a SEQUEL instead...where sometimes we just don't know the answer but still have the courage to MOVE on :)

what else can i say about that? again, thanks sis for that! life may not be perfect, but who cares! there's a certain beauty in this world's imperfections!

as i've said: yoyeng na kung yoyeng, basta magkasama si yo & yeng! whatever life throws at us, we aren't worrying... we're toughies... perfectly straight, yet so tough!

WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE!

2005-07-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

coz of k3n's text (which woke me up!) this morning, i ended up watching the ADMU-dlsu game live with them. we lost, but it's ok. i had so much fun. watchng an admu-dlsu game live will always be the naturalest & highest high :)

i know hiyang-hiya na ung friends ko... haha, i just miss watching it live. hel-lo?! i wasn't able to watch a single game last year, what do u expect? so fun! i super love INTAL!!!

basta, that person who sounded the horn when we were singing our alma mater, grrrr... UNEDUCATED! people like that give their school a bad name. i mean, it's one thing boo-ing the other team during free throws or trash talking when u think it's a bad call, but come on! blasting that freakin horn while we were singing our alma mater? has s/he ever heard of the concept of humility in victory? or even the simpler concept of RESPECT? if he doesn't understand, and in that case, respect our sentiment-- WIN OR LOSE, ATENEO IS THE SCHOOL WE CHOOSE, then i feel sad for him/her. i have nothing against la salle and most lasalistas, i just totally, totally dislike lasalistas like that.

im sorry if im ranting, but the ATENEO will always be the ATENEO for me.
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even if we lost, at least san miguel won the championship tonight! hmmm.. i miss watching the game. haha, when i remember our PBA days (me, ai & pearl), i laugh. so fun, i miss it!

oh well, back to reality for me, which means, studying for my nutrition test tomorrow... RIGHT! i don't know why i didn't start reading last nyt... i was just home... what did i do?

i was supposed to go out, either to greenbelt with tin, gi, kats & queenie or to eastwood with aira and the other screamers. gi didn't feel like going out, so greenbelt was cancelled. i slept in the pm, woke up at 7 with a slight headache and a bad case of tamaritis, so i ended up staying home. i miss staying home, i miss bonding with my bed. well, at least i have a long break tomorrow afternoon... i'll try studying for my quiz then :)

what would i say when somebody asks me...

2005-07-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

i. "bakit ba palagi ka na lang ganyan?
- palaging ano? e ganto ako e... love me for what i am!
ii. "ngayon ko lang na-realize..mahal pala kita"
- talaga lang? matagal mo na akong mahal, ngayon ka lang nagkaron ng guts umamin! (haha, joke lang! hindi ko alam sasabihin ko e...)
iii. "iwanan mo na sya. mas magiging masaya ka sa piling ko.."
- well, wala naman akong iiwan e...
iv. "smile ka nga..cute mo kapag naka smile e.."
- gusto ko naka pout!
v. "gawin mo naman yung homework ko sa math"
- oo ba! gusto mo, pati thesis mo, ako na gumawa e! (o, wag sana mag react ang friends ko.. 1x lang ako magpapakatanga ng ganon!)
vi. "sino crush mo? ako diba?"
- hindi! si piolo! asa ka pa ha!
vii. "i am so blessed to have someone like you"
- thank you!
viii. "why does monday come before tuesday?"
- because love makes the world go 'round
ix. "may ticket ako sa concert ng blink182, wannawatch?"
- libre?
x. "isa ka sa mga pinakaspecial na tao sa buhay ko..alam mo ba yun?"
- sino ung iba?
xi. "nahuhulog na ata ako sayo.."
- ang ma in love, talo! - joke! .. im falling for you... finally, my heart gave in!
xii. "i can't smile without you.."
- you came along, just like a song to brighten my day!
xiii. "thank you sa lahat lahat. pero..hindi kasiya.."
- bahala ka
xiv. "wala lang"
- i love you too!
xv. "ano cell number mo?"
- baket?
xvi. "can i have this dance?"
- oh, sure.. why not?
xvii. "mahal ko pa din sya hangang ngayon.."
- huhuhu... sige, edi balik na lang ako sa dati kong mahal.. NYE!
xviii. "you were everything, everything that i wanted"
- were? hindi na now?
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my pictures are taking sooooooooooo long to upload! grrr dial up! so... more surveys!
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1.Name of last person u talked to on the phone?
aira
2.Have u g0ne swimming this year?
of course! but i need more!
3.When did u last receive a gift?
this am... my life (yea!)
4.What are u planning to do this weekend?
go to my NSTP class, not attend research, sleep, then probly go out with aira... hear mass the next day, lunch out and buy stuff i need
5.Last movie u watched?
batman begins with tin & gi... half of million dollar baby on dvd
6.What is/are your hobby/hobbies?
check my friendster
7.What is/are your ambition(s)?
be a nurse for a couple of years, retire, come home to the pinas and put up a business... or be a housewife!
8.What makes u happy?
lots! happy thoughts, happy moments, bonding moments, my family & friends, simple things...
9.What do u want to tell someone but you havent?
i havent told that person yet for a reason... it's all about timing
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1.Do u have a crush?
wala... ooops, piolo! haha, crush.. so highschool!
2.Do u believe in love?
of course, i do!
3.Are u easily attracted to the opposite sex?
nope! and according to some of my friends, that makes me pihikan
4.Do u get jealous easily?
no ren! super no-- to a fault...
5.Any people in-love with u right now?
wala e. sad :(
6.Want to get married?
i do! to a black or latino firefighter... ever since i saw ladder 49, iv been saying this! haha, weirdo! another one of my "dreams"... makes my life not-boring. please don't take me seriously
7.Ever did something unusual for love?
yea
8.What do u notice first in a person?
eyes, definitely
9.Last person u fell in-love with or currently in love with?
waaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!
10.Are u missing someone right now?
yup, lots!
11. What do you miss?
pare (my car when i was in glendale), my old room, my old bathroom, driving around when i feel like emoting, going to ralphs to hoard instant noodles & rice meals & juices, the el salvadorean bread my former officemate used to bring me every am, pad thai at the noodle house near my old office, doing my laundry & cleaning my room & bathroom... in short, i miss my glendale life... although id rather be here than there right now! i dont know why i miss it so much, when i was there, i cried until my parents allowed me to go home! haha! weirdo!... and of course, ATENEO life
12.Who do u want to hug right now?
people who need 1...
13. Person u want to spend the rest of ur life with?
my God's gift (wow! is this the result of a couple of days' worth of discussing love issues with tin, gi, zsazsa, aira, jeff, allen and whoever else? suddenly, im not so anti-relationships anymore?!)
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1. call me ____________
- yours! hehe! eurosa!
2. What color of shirt are you wearing right now?
- black
3. What Are You Watching Right Now?
- nothing
4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?
- isaw @ UP... sinful! i went there 2x this week!
5. Do You Believe In Karma?
- i don't know...
6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be? Why?
- red... coz i love it
7. How Is The Weather Right Now?
- i have no idea.. im freezing here in my parents' rm
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone?
- aira.. but that was 2 days ago
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent this?
- i got this from the friendster bulletin board.. my cousin posted it... i like my cousin, so...
10. How Are You Today?
- ok. happy-sad.
11. Favorite Drink(s)?
- water, pineapple juice
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
- i don't like alcohol
13. Favorite Sport?
- to watch... basketball
14.Favorite Hair Color?
- black
15. Favorite Eye Color?
- brown
16. Favorite Band?
- wala
17. # of x bf/gf?
- single since birth... but if he's reading this, then 1.
18. Favorite Months?
- december
19. Favorite Foods?
- japanese! and nowadays... sampalok & boy bawang
20. What time is it?
- time for me to log off and find something else to do
21. Favorite Dates of the Year?
- december 10, feb5... not!
22. ??? no questions?!?!
- boo
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child?
- barbie
24. Summer or Winter?
- summer! beach... i can't stand the cold
25. Hugs Or Kisses?
- both, please
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla?
- whichever, except for ice cream, i don't like chocolate ice cream
27. What do you think about loving someone who doesn't love you?
- ouch. but it's ouchier if u love someone and s/he loves u back, but you're not together because of one reason or another... oooops! past is past!
28. What are the things that make you feel uncomfortable?
- hmmm... dysmenorrhea
29. Do You Think You're Normal?
- nope! im special
30. Friends You Have Had The Longest?
- my siblings! since their births
31. What Did You Do Last Night?
- nightly ritual, then sleep
32. Favorite perfume?
- right now, still
33. Who Inspires You?
- my God, my family, my friends
34. What Are You Afraid Of?
- having regrets
35. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn
- i dont like popcorn
36. Missing someone?
- a lot... miss na kung miss, kesa naman kasama mo & nasasaktan ka (dba aira?)
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yey! im done uploading! so just check out my online albums... my friendster photo album & my imagestation.com albums (search members: eurosa). i can't remember the links right now, just check again in a few days...

pictures uploaded

2005-07-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

ive uploaded some pictures in my friendster photo album... so aside from the galera pix, u can also find our pix when we visited jacey's parents in bataan last june 12 and our pix in the fort last july 2.

so sad, i can upload only up to 50 pix a month. ill upload na lang the other pix @ imagestation.com.

nope, no dsl connection for us yet. dial-up is so slow!

where do broken hearts go?

2005-07-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

outside kester, tambaying when they don't feel like going home yet... or to metrowalk... or to eastwood... haha, right...

drama, huh?

well, for the past couple of weeks, all we (meaning me & aira, plus jeff & allen minsan or me, tin & gigi, and whoever sits with us when we are ranting...) ever talk about is love problems.

i get so sad when i see my friends going through issues of the heart. why can't everything just be perfect? why can't people who love each other be together? why can't people who still love each other stay together?

wala lang...

i was going through my phone earlier, and i once again got to read this message richard sent me some months back...

ayaw mo mag mahal?

baket?

kse malungkot pag iniwan ka?

kse malungkot pag sinaktan ka?

kse malungkot pag di ka nya mahal?

pero sa gnagawa mong pag -iwas sa kalungkutan...

masaya ka ba?

wow, wala lang...

weird... everything's just so weird.

ONE BIG FIGHT!

2005-07-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to blog about the love issues my friends and i have been discussing since... hmm, since last month, but then my blog was getting too long and too depressing. no nega vibes muna. let's all be happy!

UAAP's opening this weekend! and the first admu-dlsu game's this sunday. of course i want to watch. i wasn't able to watch a single game last year, not even on tv! :( let's just hope we could get tickets! im so excited! iv been practicing our cheers in my head since the other night! and im adding the admu cheers to zen tomorrow or friday. how fun!

anyway, in true blue spirit, allow me to sing our alma mater. (hindi 'to copy-paste, ha! i typed it... im so excited tlga!)

we stand on a hill
between the earth & sky
now all is still
where Loyola's colors fly
our course is run
and the setting sun
ends Ateneo's day
eyes are dry
at the last goodbye
this is the Ateneo way...

Mary for you
for your white and blue
we pray you keep us, Mary
constantly true
we pray you keep us, Mary
faithful to you!

down from the hill
down to the world go I
remembering still
how the bright blue eagles fly
through joys and tears
through the laughing years
we sing our battle song:
WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL WE CHOOSE!
this is the place where we belong

Mary for you
for your white & blue
we pray you keep us, Mary
constantly true
we pray you keep us, Mary
FAITHFUL TO YOU!
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B-L-U-E E-A-G-L-E, blue eagle, blue eagle, blue eagle, THE KING!

yey! go ATENEO!

almost out of blog-circulation...

2005-07-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

wow! so i haven't posted anything for almost a month. it's all aira's fault! (kidding, sis!)

what's been up since i last posted? hmmm, im trying to remember...

june 9 - first st. jude adventure with aira. so now, it's part of our yoyeng sisters vow to go there every thursday. a long day of walking. our first time to ride a jeep, just the 2 of us. and no, we don't look like lost probinsyanas. after st. jude, we went to megamall, then dropped by my house, then went to this small parlor near aira's house. then i went home, packed, added some songs to zen, picked gi & tin up from tin's, went to kats place & slept over.

june 10- ate allah's bday! (see, i never forget her bday! & i make it a point to show up when she invites us... unlike her-- she was not there during my debut, my last bday, my despedida...) the kadabears left for our fontana adventure. the girls went swimming. the guys, i dont know. they stayed in the villa the entire day.

june 11- bonding with tin from 3 til 7 in the am. trip home from fontana.

june 12- went to bataan with some of the sawi to visit jace's parents and to make her a video for her bday.

june 13- stayed home and finally got that much deserved rest!

june 14- school started.

and everything else is a blur...

aira & i finally started our scrapbook part 2. i was going through our first scrapbook, something we started in 2001... ewwwwwww! i can't believe i was like that over what happened then! but hey, we all make mistakes. HE was one big mistake.

i changed my sked a couple of times. that's the fad in our school. in Ateneo, u wouldn't want to get load rev since u have to go through so much... but in kester, load reving is fun!

so my final sked (sis, as promised...)
mon & tues:
12.30- 2 -- earth sci
2- 3.30 -- logic
break
5.40- 7.10 -- nutrition

wed:
9- 12 -- speech
3-5 -- ncm 100 lec
5- 8 -- ncm 100 lab

thurs & fri:
5.40- 8.10 -- microbiology

sat:
7-10 -- nstp
1-4 -- research

yea.. laugh. i have class mon-sat. it sucks. i skipped nstp today since i slept around 3 na. shouldn't have gone out with sila aira... but hey, jeff & allen are leaving tuesday. im gonna miss those guys, i swear! ill still bug u with my sub-sob stories! hehe.. and ill always listen to ur love probs! we're just a YM away!

some lessons for the heart

2005-07-02T11:39:00.000+08:00

this is something allen sent me yesterday. yan, len ha! i posted it both here and in the friendster bulletin board!
thanks for the bonding... for sharing and for listening. mamimiss tlga kita! ill miss u and jeff! balik kayo agad! next year, come a bit earlier, we could go to bohol and all those nice beaches...

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him
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so, what can we learn from this? simple!

1. HONESTY! it's what the world needs. it's what i need. it's what you probably need.
2. it's NEVER TOO LATE! not if you do something about it...
3. if we know that the heart is not always right, then WE SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! (yihee, richard... i remember the quote u sent me some months back... u know, about the heart not being always right... special! pare, gudluck sa love life. sana mag-graduate ka na sa pagiging TIIS! 2 na graduates ng SAWI e...)

making the most of what's left of my vacation...

2005-06-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

coz my vacation's so short, i have to maximize my time. usually, id spend vacations sleeping in til afternoon.. which means that if i plan to go out within the day, id usually leave around 4pm... but now, i find myself getting up as early as 8 am to fit everything in...

but im not really complaining... coz i know that when school starts, ill live a gimikless existence, what with my fabulous 6 days a week class sked!

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so anyway, i finally went to ace spa with pa & basti... they've been going 1x or 2x a week since april and ive always wanted to go, but never had the time.

aira and i were supposed to go with them, but since she had her visitor today, i went with only pa & basti...

and can i just say-- that place is unbelievable. i especially love the herbal pool. it smells so good and its soooooooo calming.

i so love that place... i just realized that hydromassage is one of the best things in this world. oh, life is so beautiful! hehe!

i mean, u get to swim and relax at the same time! u should try it before their price goes up. ryt now, it's Php480 for 4 hrs for adults. but 2 hrs is enough... a little longer and ull be a walking raisin.

just a word of advice, don't wear a tube tankini... ull know what i mean when u try it!

10 things a woman needs to hear from her man...

2005-06-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

found this at netscape.com...

to my guy friends, ang ung mga boyfriends ng friends ko, take note, ok?

10 Things Women Need to Hear
By Patty Lamberti
99% of all women have ten things in common. They all want to hear the man in their life say the following ten sentences:

1. "You're beautiful."
She may not look like Nicole Kidman, but you should make her feel like Nicole Kidman. Don't just tell her she's beautiful when she's dressed up. Tell her first thing in the morning, or during a quiet moment when she's reading the newspaper.
2. "You're a great lover."
If you're lucky enough to have a woman who truly is a Professor of the Kama Sutra, good for you. Make sure you tell her how great her skills are. But if you'd like your woman to try something new, preface it by saying how great she is in bed already.
3. "You're so smart."
Studies have shown that in elementary school, girls begin to develop the belief that they shouldn't be smarter than the boys in the class. Most women get over this, but a little residual of this grade school lesson lurks around in the back of their minds. Be sure to tell her how much you value her greatest asset-her mind.
4. "You're my best friend."
Your woman wants to be your lover, but she also wants to be your friend. If your relationship is to last, this should be the truth, not just something you tell her.
5. "You're the most important thing to me."
Maybe you work late nights at the office. Maybe you like spending Saturday nights with the guys. Just make sure she knows she outranks everything.
6. "I would never lie to you."
And make sure this isn't a lie! (yups! honesty mga chong! that's one of the most important things in any relationship!)
7. "I have never cheated on you."
Jealousy rears its ugly head from time to time. Make sure your woman knows she has no reason to suspect you.
8. "I'd be lost without you."
A woman wants to know (as Elvis sang), that you don't just want her and love her, you also NEED her.
9. "You're funny."
The couple that laughs together stays together. Let her know you'd rather hang out with her than Chris Rock any day.
10. "I love you."
These three words are often the hardest for men to say. But there's nothing a woman would rather hear. (actually, for some guys, overused & misused na to... but i don't know, a woman feels if it's true...)

chicks and d!cks, better listen to this!

2005-06-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

here's something aira sent me... i hope my single friends learn something from this...

FOR THE GIRLS:
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her & i love her."

GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you baby instead of hot or sexy (although ill never call my SO baby since that's what my parents call us!)
who can't stand it when you hang up on her,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like,
but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes
and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smile just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public
and she still is in view of her friends,
while she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always"

galera pix

2005-06-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

i posted the galera pix fm my camera @ my friendster photo album... for other galera pix, check out k3n's multiply site or jacob's yahoo photos site.

ill post the other pictures i havent posted (from baguio trip, AJA day, etc) when we finally get our own phone line & dsl... oh, i miss our dsl connection!

answering surveys again...

2005-06-04T13:38:00.000+08:00

im trying to blog everyday coz i know that when the 1st sem starts, i would not have much time to blog, what with my so fab sked...

nothing's exciting in my life now, so ill just answer this thing i picked up from friendster... lame, but it's still a post!

Name the following brands of the things you useas of the moment..

1. Shampoo and Conditioner: garnier fructis

2. Bags: brandless.. hehe! most are fm greenhills, some bigay ni mama

3. T-shirts: GH and kung san-san

4. Pants: GH!

5. Lotion: when im so dry, jergens.. but usually, bath & body wrks

6. Shoes: wala akong shoes... puro slippers. ay, meron pala, from gh

7. Socks: gh den ata

8. Toothpaste: colgate

9. Facial cleanser: this soap my derma gave me

10. Make-up: i dont wear much make-up

11. Wallet: my magic wallet fm xoxo

12. School Bags: greenhills

13. Pens: iba-iba

14. Slippers/Sandals: gh, havaianas

15. Underwear: panties fm VS, bras- khet san

16. Watch: anne klein, & something i got fm target

17. Pillow Case/Bed sheet: disney (right now, beauty & the beast)

18. Furniture: i dont have my own place.. i dont know where they got our furniture

19. Caps: wala.. well, i have a new visor fm gh... i finally found the visor iv been looking for!

20. Magazines: i dont buy magazines..i only read them when im in the parlor

21. Car: i miss my car... pare!

22. Chocolate: whatevers in the fridge...

23. Candy: mentos

24. Medicine: whatever.. when i need them

25. Popcorn: i dont lyk popcorn

26. Motorcycle: wala

27. Cologne/Perfume: bath & body na cucumber melon, still, and whatver my gorgeous mom & sister have... i use theirs e!

28. Swimwear: the one i used this summer's fm ensemble.. 1x ko lng nagamit.. bad trip

29. Jewelry: wala

30. Hotel/s (na u've stayed in): i dont remember them all

sisters day out

2005-06-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

i dont know, but whenever i go to kgc for enrollment, umiinit ulo ko! ok, so i signed up for the ThF microbio class, but since i didnt pay my tuition right away, i got bumped out of the class. so now, i have a horrible saturday sked: 7a-10a for nstp, 1p-5p microbio, 5p-8p research. damn it! im so resigned with the kabulukan of it all. and i know, some of you will ask why im still staying... i love my friends, i have my scholarship and i just want to get it over and done with so i can forever leave that freakn school and go back to cali, or md or dc or wherever.

so anyway, after that, we went to xavierville to get the havaianas my friends ordered fm me. take note, i didnt order any. so we waited 30 minutes. got our havaianas. my friend brought out some more of her stocks, and i ended up getting one. so much for being a non-impulsive buyer!

afterwards, aira and i went to GH, we were looking for stuff for our friend's sister. after lunch, we went around the tiangge, looked at the bead stuff, went back to theater mall and sat down at the steps. i wanted to sit down not coz i was tired, but because i wanted to resist temptation... aira and i promised that we would not go shopping, unless we really needed something. and we already violated that when we got our havaianas earlier.

around 4, we stood up, ready to head to promenade and buy our tickets for a lot a lot like love. but we took a detour through the shops... and we ended up buying something. see, ive been looking for a pink visor with nothing written on it. i found one, but i resisted the temptation. however, aira got a cap, so i gave in and ended up buying the visor. now when summer is ending and i won't be using it much anymore. (my bestfriend is such a BI when it comes to shopping!)

afterwards, we went to metrowalk to meet up with allen, jeff, his sis jamie, tootchie & jing. they were having dinner at cravings. then we went to jeff's condo and waited for pia. they were going out and they thought we were going with them... but i personally was so tired. so we ended up going home.

oh well, what a day. a pretty bad day for me... something's been bothering me these past couple of days, i can't exactly pinpoint what it is, though. oh well...

songs im singing

2005-06-02T13:21:00.000+08:00

notice the lyrics i added? let me just clarify... im just singing those songs, i don't know why. im not in love, im not heartbroken, im not crying over lost love, im not hiding any secret loves...

so just sing them with me, ayt?!

say that you love me

2005-06-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

i went with aira yesterday to inquire about the LPN course she'll be taking. it looks interesting... they're offering almost the same subjects as im taking. only difference is they don't have any gen ed subjects. i was almost tempted to just take that up... but then i remember my kgc friends-- one of my reasons for staying in kgc.. (the other one being my scholarship!)

well, anyway, after that, we went to galleria. we were supposed to watch a movie with allen & jeff. but they were still in eastwood. so we went around, WINDOW-shopped (we bought some stuff.. but they were stuff we needed, we swear!). then we watched say that you love me.

it was so funny, we were laughing almost the entire movie. i cried a little at the end (i cry watching most movies!). it wasn't really kilig but it was fun!

after the movie, we met up with allen and jeff. they were late so they didn't watch the movie with us anymore. so anyway, we decided to just hang out in jeff's condo. so we went to valle country club to get aira's car. we watched the eye in jeff's condo. aira and i ended up only the ones watching since allen went to sleep at the middle of the movie and jeff was YMing with friends...

so anyway, yea.. pretty boring vacation. i imagined ill be spending most of my time in the beach, but then... oh well!

grrrr vibes

2005-05-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

woke up with bad vibes... i didnt feel like going to school for enrollment. but i had to go, so i did.

a few minutes after i got there, kats told me that they're not giving us our scholarship coz according to them, we have this verbal warning. so i asked sir jun, he said nga that we could not avail of that scholarship. so i asked him where in the handbook could i find that, he left me and went to VP acad and mam che. then he came back and told me that they'll have a meeting about it and let me know this afternoon. hassle, man!

so anyway, we had lunch. then we went to capitol to inquire coz some of us were thinking of transferring. well, we couldnt since they offered NCM 100 (a subject we need before we could do hospital duty) during summer.

so we went back to school, and as soon as we arrived, sir jun told me that they were giving us our scholarship. good, ryt?

well, to avail of the scholarship, we had to fill out a form and get a copy of our grades during the 2nd sem and summer sem. our scholarship depends on our weighted average during the 2nd sem. but if we got a grade lower than 2 during the summer sem, we could not avail of the scholarship. they were giving full scholarship to those with weigthed grade of 1-1.25. u know what my weighted grade is? 1.26. how funny...

afterwards, i had to have dean or grammar guru evaluate my subjects. i went to grammar guru... and what good news do i hear? i have to take chem all over again since i lack 1 freakng unit. i took chem in ateneo, but we had only 1 lab unit. last time, dean said that i just had to enroll chem lab and ask my prof for a special project. so anyway, it was so irritating, that i decided to just go home and go back to school tomorrow and have dean evaluate me. damn it!

i was so tired that i didn't go to aira's house anymore. when i got home, i checked my mail then logged out. then jacob texted, telling us that he posted our galera pix online already. so i went online again. since the pix are taking so long to show, i checked my friendster. i looked at the friendster sites of some of my friends... and guess what i saw...

oh, never mind.

let me just confirm what my friends and i have proven again and again... friendster can mess up relationships, make u enemies, let u know things that you shouldve never known, and break your heart. if ur into stalking, surf friendster all day!... but make sure that you are ready to find out whatever it is that you could find out in friendster...

irresponsibility

2005-05-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

when i dropped by my house before heading for the bus station yesterday, we saw a pajero that smashed into a meralco post near my house. and guess what... the driver's stupidity caused the power in our house to go out!

i can guiltlessly call the guy driving that pajero stupid since he survived the crash. (otherwise, it will be a tragedy, and i would feel sad for that person...) i mean, come on! gawsh, if ur gonna drink, (well, im just assuming that he was drunk. why else would he slam his car into that post? for fun?) please, but smart enough... save urself... and don't hassle other people! i mean, my family and all the people here were sleeping... then u killed the power? hassle, man! grrrrrr!

galera tales

2005-05-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

after confirming with kats that our kgc barkada trip was postponed, i immediately texted zarah that ill be going to galera with them. so without much time to go shopping and plan what to bring, i went to galera!

i was supposed to wax my legs (thanks to my father for handing me down genes that made me so hairy!) then pack the entire friday afternoon so i could sleep around 9pm since we were meeting up at 2.30 am saturday to go to galera. but aira came over and we hang out so everything got pushed to the evening.

i finished waxing and packing around 12.15 am, so i told myself ill just take a power nap, wake up 1.30 and take a bath. but my brother and father dear were watching emergency on tv, and they had this feature on henna. my brother went to galera 2 weeks ago, got a henna on his back, and developed an allergy. so they both forbid me to get a henna.

so anyway, without sleep, i went to za's house to pick some of them up. so okay, we agreed to leave at 2.30. i was 10 minutes late since i could not wake the driver up. when i got there, most of them were just waking up. so i had to wait a few minutes for them to finish their rituals. then we had to pass by my house to get kelay's digicam and my shawl (since i did not feel like bringing a sweater.)

so around 3.45, we again met up with the rest of them at wendy's in buendia. we took a bus to batangas pier, took a 6am boat to galera and got there around 7am! we got a good morning greeting as we were nearing galera... 2 dolphins were doing a show! fabulous!

so as soon as we got there, we said hello to zarah's family, we dropped our stuff in our room, changed, then headed to the beach...

ohmigod... BEACH! i just love the sand, the sun, the water... (i just didn't like the fact that it's so crowded... gawsh, in bohol, we had the entire beach to ourselves... uuhmm, not really, but it felt that way! well, what the hell, live and let live, ryt?)

the beach was not exactly great (i mean, compared to bohol...), but a beach is still a beach! so we chose a spot, spread our sarongs and beach towel, and had the time of our lives! oh, happiness!

then before lunch, we decided to do the banana boat... it was so FUN! all of us went, except for jew, who rode in the speedboat (si lola talaga, o!) well, at least we had someone to take our pix! we fell 5 times (jacob fell 6 times... nandaya e!)

we had lunch, sinigang na blue marlin... yum!! (thanks to za's mom and dad, who were celebrating their 24th wedding anniversary that day... which zarah forgot!) after lunch, we went to this resort, and spent the afternoon in the pool. we saw juls (my I AM groupmate!) he was there for their company outing.

after a few hours, we decided to go back to the beach and go shopping. i bought some stuff while enjoying indian mangos... this is the life!

around 4, we decided to go to the cave, but i was so tired, i didn't feel like crawling a cramped space. only 4 of them went in, while the rest of us just sat on the sand.

when k3n, golps, nes & gix got back from the cave, we went into the water. it was fun playing and "surfing"! we were also teaching jew how to skip stones... (i can only do 3 bounces... i have to practice more!)

around 5, we got our massage. so imagine, i got out of the water, spread myself down on the sand and got my massage... how good can life get?! after our massage, we waited 15 mins before going into the water again. after a few minutes, since it was getting dark, we went back to our room, took a bath and got ready for dinner.

late dinner, then we shared a pitcher of mindoro sling (which i didnt like very much since it had sprite!) then we headed for our room, got our sarongs and towel, then flopped down on the sand... gawsh... i fell asleep for around 30 mins... there were no stars when we first got ther since it was very cloudy. but when i woke up, there were a lot of stars... so beautiful! again, can i just say, life is so beautiful! it was getting a little cold, so i used a beach towel as my blanket...

a little after midnight,, we went back to our room and called it a nyt... what a wonderful day... say it with me... FABULOUS!

this morning, we woke up around 7, and of course, headed to the beach. i didn't go into the water anymore, so i spent the morning lying down on my beach towel, and people watching (kainis, bitin ung tan! malilim kase yesterday afternoon, so bitin tlaga! i more day at the beach... i need just one more day!)

around 9, i took a bath, fixed our stuff.. had brunch, then took the 12 nn boat back to batangas pier. we took a van back to manila, we had a road maniac for a driver... then got off at shang. the other girls wanted to at nachofast, so we went there. i was getting ready to go (i walked home! walang pagod!) when i saw...

PIOLO!!! he was going up the escalator!

ohmigawsh... dang! hotness! say it with me... WHOA!!! thank you God!

so there... that was my weekend adventure... i was supposed to sleep when i got home, but i watched some dvds instead...

and tomorrow, well, back to reality... i have to go to school and enroll... God, please let it be an easy enrollment... wag po sanang bad trip. i hope i get the subjects i need, and i hope i get a really nice sked!

i havent posted pix since we moved... im using dial up, and i have no patience to wait for the files to upload. ill upload as soon as we get DSL...

reality tv

2005-05-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

after 7 seasons, the team i was rooting for in the amazing race actually won!

i watched the contender finale yesterday... i wish i watched the show since it began... it was fabulous!

i have been rooting for bo to win american idol, but i must admit that carrie did perform better last nyt. oh well...

i just feel a little sad for these guys who join american idol to start their career. i think they're tied to the show's producers, which, i feel, limits their opportunities. look at fantasia, ruben & kelly... i mean, i actually thought they'd be bigger... oh well... life goes on!

ooooppsss... reacted too soon!

2005-05-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

i was so bummed last nyt since i thought i would not be able to go to any beach this summer. turns out, ill be going to galera this weekend. then me and my kester friends are going to batangas sometime next week...

wow! sand... sun... beach!!!